Marrying Sergeant Major
~ 28 ~
Taking a deep breath, the tightness in my chest felt stronger, until the oxygen I delivered to my lungs hurt me to the cells of my body. I thought, the pain was also able to stop the pace of my tears to come out.
Because of this heartache, I can't cry anymore.
Two years I was made a nanny for his daughter, it was fitting that Bima never tempted me because there was Gesya who completed his biological needs.
Wicked you mas, you have the same me who has sincerely loved and cared for your daughter wholeheartedly.
Not only to me, you are also evil to your daughter, obviously your daughter does not want to lose me, but why do you make me have to leave your daughter.
In addition to heart, you are also selfish mas, only attach importance to your feelings.
Sighing softly, I took a deep breath again, feeling something as if it was exploding inside there.
Is it that someone loves someone too deeply?
With gontai, I pointed my feet towards the parking lot where my car was.
There was still about an hour before Lala came home, before that I was going to the office to resume the rest of my pending work.
Until my car drove off, it did not feel like my car had arrived at the office yard where I worked.
To be honest I have no spirit to come back here, but there is still a weekly recording that I have to finish every Saturday, besides, if not back to the office, then where else?
Just as I was about to enter my room, I ran into Mr. Raska, the police officer in charge of the license plate manufacturing section of the vehicle.
"Bi?" He always said my name when the two were like this. But if there are other coworkers, of course there are frills 'Bu '
"L-yes sir" I looked up a bit because our eyes were out of alignment.
"You crying?"
"No"
"You can't lie to me, Bi!"
"I was just a little sleepy, last night my husband called me late at night, so not enough sleep"
"Related?" The question is full of surveys complete with eyebrows that are linked together.
"Yes" I nodded without hesitation.
"Which risk, not visible?"
"She's home after lunch, her in-laws are in the hospital"
"Oh"
"I'm sorry, sir"
"Oh yes Bi" Prevent it when I'm about to step up. "So I had a meeting, I got boxed rice, burger same fruit salad, rice box I ate, burger and salad I put on your table"
"Why bother, sir? Mr. Raska can eat it"
"It's okay Bi, I know you like burgers and fruit salads, so I brought them for you"
"Thank you, sir"
"I'm sorry sir"
The man who once expressed love to me nodded.
Raska was a cold man like Bima, but my chest didn't shake at all when I talked to him. I even dared to return her gaze if she was chatting like just now.
Sitting at the desk, I did work while waiting for Bima to call me, but until my work was done, the man did not call.
If indeed Bima was back from his service, he would definitely call and make an appointment at Lala school so that he could both pick her up.
But until the clock pointed at almost four, my phone didn't ring at all.
I lost, I will pick Lala up for fear that Bima forgot his promise. While I'm private, it's obvious Lala won't be waiting for me at school.
"If you're sleepy, let me drive Bi, your car just stay in the office" I turned around as soon as I heard the words of the man who had been my co-worker for three years.
I found Mr. Raska's face that highlighted tired from working all day.
"No, sir, I can do it myself"
"Related?"
I nodded in agreement.
"Be careful, don't speed!"
"Yes" My husband then turned back.
***
Upon arrival at Lala school, I saw that Bima was already there sitting on a bench with a downcast look while playing a device.
I grabbed the phone from inside the bag, hoping that Bima would call or send a short message. But zonk, absolutely no calls or chat notifications entered my phone from the Bima mas number.
Brushing aside all the shadows of Bima who shared a sweat with Gesya, I braced myself to get out of the car.
Just removing the seatbelt, I saw Gesya coming from the direction of the public toilet at Lala school, he walked with a smile approaching Bima mas.
Automatically, my heart was beating wildly at the sight at the other end.
So Bima didn't call me because she invited Gesya to come and get Lala?
My eyes warmed up, ready to launch the already dammed clear spot filled my pair of visions.
Swallowing spit, I returned to drive the car because I did not want Bima to know I was also in Lala's school at this time.
And this time, I will let my ego win childishly, I no longer care about Lala, no longer care about my love for Bima.
It's too painful for me. I no longer wanted to fight alone, I gave up, completely gave up.
True Riska said, Lala would be fine without me. He has a father who loves him, has opa and oma who are ready to sacrifice his life. Sister Za and mother Kanes also love her like her real mother. My concern for Lala should be broken.
Continued to drive a car splitting the wet road because suddenly the weather rained, no matter which way I drove my car. Clearly, I wanted to calm down for a moment.
Seriate...