Moon
Love YourSelf's

Kevin PoVs

Seeing that boy pick a ride online made me feel like I was missing something that used to feel part of me. The longer I get dragged into a lifestyle that is not really part of my identity.

Change cars at least once every five years, if you can not buy a car class MPV it does not feel like part of the elite class community in the company. Not to mention Inne will nag about the need to perform always be the best so that the family can see the best achievement we can achieve.

Since the marriage with Inne due to pregnant Elma everything never returned to normal again. Disappointment of Mama especially because of having to marry because of pregnancy outside marriage is like smearing the family name that is always glorified.

For the family to be a big blow because the child who has been a pride because of achievement achievements in school and will be the successor to the family company violates the norm so that it becomes a child who is not expected to attend the event the family. As smart and beautiful as anything Elma always seemed to grate sadness and disappointment when she saw it. Until finally I had to choose to leave the company to show that I can show my best achievements even though I do not work in a family company.

The words of the Moon were like to highlight all the meanings of happiness that I think has been the purpose of life so far. Makes me think whether all these luxuries and achievements are simply the pleasures of the world. Why does the enjoyment of this world no longer feel happy for me in living it.

Seeing the woman chose to ride an online motorcycle taxi but with a smiling face happy because she could go home faster to help her husband move from home to shop. Ruko.. imagined by me what kind of residence can provide comfort with the form of a rigid box and limited facilities.

But back to make me pensive by mentioning that the house is not about the shape of the building, not about the big small, not about the minimalist or conventional style. But home is where we go home where we feel calm with the people we love. But why even now can buy a house in a special cluster and tight security and into the luxury category feels empty and empty.

There was only Elma who came to greet him, Inne always went home at the end because he had to make sure all transactions and operational activities had been completed properly at the branch. Coming up tired and more often emotional made me choose to stay away rather than fight over small things. Life se x feels bland more on meeting the needs and obligations between husband and wife.

Inne used to be full of life energy, a passion for being the best, laughing at all the little jokes I made. Being with him made me feel like I found the energy source I needed to survive to show my best performance in the company.

First met him while making a loan agreement from the Bank for the company. Papa cannot attend due to deteriorating health conditions due to glaucoma. At that time Inne was still a staff member in the credit department, he already looked outstanding compared to his coworkers. Her beautiful appearance and good communication skills instantly fascinated me.

At first he always kept his distance but I could see that he was interested in trying to get to know me further. Until finally broken to want to be picked up if you go home from work and go together during leisure time. He never told me that he already had a close friend, and he was never seen together to come pick him up or anything.

Until finally the mistakes made because of party events with friends at the club. It's been a long time actually never get together with friends at the club, the children of family friends who like to hang out. I was out with Inne and met them at the restaurant. Seeing me bring Inne they invited me to meet up with their friends and partners at the Club. Actually I was lazy to leave, but Inne with all her curiosity invited me to come along.

And it has been estimated that alcohol, wine and cocktails will be served because of Justin's birthday. He is indeed famous royal among all the children of the Club probably because he wants to keep the nickname Crazy Rich Semarang. His family became the owner of culinary and souvenirs that are famous in Semarang.

“Please Kevin I want to try.. Please not much I promise.. I just wanted to know” were the words Inne said when they offered cocktails and wine. At first I refused but Inne's face pleaded pretty and the funny thing was to let her try, it should have been that time I didn't let her try…. Huft.

Everything gets out of control and ends with an intimate relationship that is both desired and filled with passion. There was no regret then, instead there was a desire to continue together and do it again and again, until finally Inne got pregnant. For me it doesn't matter, I like him and I know that he likes me too. I knew that I was the first to have intercourse with him, which I did not know that I was not the first man to fill his heart.

There were men that he then cried because he had to be abandoned, there were men that he cried because of guilt. I never met him, all I know is that his picture was kept in a box hidden in his wardrobe.

Inne never knew that I knew she still had all her memories of that man. Not intentionally actually, when I had to take things out in the closet because a neighboring tree hit the roof so that it made rain water come in. All the photos and memories of that man she kept well, the man I just met when she picked up the Moon.

If only I had seen that picture in the past, I probably wouldn't have recognized it. But it turns out Inne still likes to open up and see all her memories with the man even though it has been almost five years. I saw her crying in Elma's room while staring at the pictures, that's when I threw all the stuff out. Why cry over something he left behind? Why is he still crying over people who are not there?. Does everything I've done have no value in his eyes?.

It turned out that my curiosity seemed to be answered, when the Moon lightly introduced her fiance I was stunned. Why did it feel familiar to her, it didn't take long until I realized that the man whose photos in Inne's memory box were the same man Moon had introduced as her fiance. Juno.. what a joke world is only as wide as moringa leaves.

Apparently he has moved on, has found a substitute woman for his missing girlfriend, a woman who actually attracted my attention since the first because of his ability to get close to Elma. I did not expect that the man would be engaged to the Moon because they were both different types of women.

Inne always strives to look perfect, dress up, make up, attitude and career the best she can achieve. There is no man who does not say that he is not beautiful. It was just that there was no warmth of heart, no peaceful feeling while with Inne. Like always having to be in the fighting arena to compete and must always be a winner.

The moon.hmmm the woman, what is well.as created to seek and create happiness for those who are nearby. Trying to do what is best for the people who are nearby, there is no desire to be a winner just want to make the world go round so that everything becomes okay, he said, for him being a support system is a joy. And it turns out for Anjar he is not a support system he has become the center of life so when Moon married, Anjar was the hardest hit person besides Inne.

Inne yah. she was devastated when I told her that in the end the man she cried had forgotten her and married the Moon. For a week his eyes were always puffy in the morning, until finally the limit of my patience ran out.

“You till when did you cry for that man?”

“You should be ashamed!”

“I'm tired of the sad face you show every day!”

“You must realize, you have become a mother, at least be a good mother for our children if you can not be a good wife for me”

“I am indeed a bad woman”.

“Can never be a woman recognized by your family”.

“Never be able to fulfill your desire to be a wife who can serve husband at home well, you should know that long ago we married”.

“Perhaps if it wasn't for Elma you would never have married me”.

“I no longer feel happiness together with kamu”.

“I feel something is wrong.. always haunt my heart”.

“Should have... I should never have been in contact with you….. ”

All the sacrifices I've made will never make her feel enough, all the achievements I've made for her have never made her happy, all he could do was to blame his unhappiness on others, the selfish woman who loved herself too much.