MY BOSS MY HUSBAND
77. LOUSY

I ignored the pain I felt. Anyway, I took part in creating that pain. Regret is coming to me now. If only and if it filled my mind.

Lucky this afternoon at lunch time, Pian came and invited him to eat outside. I was forced to come and did not forget to bring my lunch box. Pian shook his head in embarrassment as I only ordered iced tea as it would eat my lunch.

"I'm like a man can't afford another serving" his grunts with a sour face. I chuckled and spontaneously said to his servant,

"I'm sorry, ka. I'm not well so bring some special food from home." I smiled as I said it and replied with a smile, "It's okay you."

"You're too much" I told Pian.

"You should have picked up Ririn too, let's eat the same, too" I continued.

"Jam two he can, you want to wait until two o'clock?"

Oooo, my friend turned out to have missed the clock home lover heart.

"Why that smile? You're on setres because of Jansen?"

Uhuk..Uhuk.. Uhuk

I almost choked to death thankfully Pian sprightly gave me my drinking glass.

"Buset, I almost mokad because of you!" Loudly but restrained I glared at Pian who casually spooned the rice into his mouth.

"You're almost, not really mokad."

Pause for a moment before he continued again, "Lo too, time because he heard the name of the Jansen immediately sprained. Still just hearing the name, what if I hear he's married?"

My appetite was instantly gone, me, I was stirring up my food.

"I feel guilty!" I said then quietly for a while.

"It's okay if he cheats on me, but I'm sad because my mom and dad also trust him a lot."

"Emang Jansen, what's your name?" pian asked while looking at me.

"cheating?"

I shook my head, I didn't know what to describe.

"Just because you are eating two families together and there is your boyfriend there too, does not mean they are cheating you. Who knew it was just an accidental meeting?"

I'm shaking. That's not a coincidence. Anyone who saw the formation would be aware that it was no mere coincidence.

"Lo is stressed and feels guilty for something uncertain. Waste of energy," continued Pian.

Am I in a hurry to draw conclusions? What Pian said is true.

"Lo has to improve, Yu. Your thinking is still far below the standard for a girl who is about to get married. I heard that Jansen wanted to marry you immediately, but seeing you who immediately concluded something without hearing an explanation, I'm sure you will not be able to undergo marriage later. Had you married Jansen, would you have been like this every time you saw Jansen with another family with a daughter?"

He paused because he wanted to continue eating.

"Jansen was a businessman, his parents were too. So naturally they met with families that have girls. Eat together and look good. It can all be just camouflage of entrepreneurs because there is cooperation between companies. My advice, the same tabayun Jansen and also to improve your mindset in the future. Don't like to draw your own conclusions. Because what the eyes see, it's not necessarily the truth."

Which inspiration comes from? Why go to Pian?

I'm nodding. The age of two three almost two four turns out not to guarantee a person's maturity. Reflect on myself and the Pian in front of me.

What he said was true, that I concluded myself. I didn't even ask Jansen why he could be with Mira.

...****************...

Jansen P:

'You busy?'

'P'

'P'

Silent phone sounds and shakes make me not know ad incoming messages or not unless I'm holding the phone or put it right in front of the eyes on the table.

Me:

'Slightly.'

Trings

A reply to the message entered seconds later. Is he not busy?

Jansen P:

'Let's have dinner together and keep watching, there's a new movie.'

It's an ordinary invitation, but somehow I'm starting to feel awkward.

Me:

'Sorry🙏'

Jansen P:

'Really?'

'I'm a little disappointed because I was hoping to be with you.'

I kept the phone out of front of me.

I still can't master the mind even though I've had enlightenment from Pian.

There was something in my heart that whispered, that to this day Jansen's parents had not actually accepted me even the proposed requirement was a weapon that had secretly asked me to retreat. Somehow I feel that Mira is still the winner in all of their hearts.

My bad mood I brought home. It was evident when we had dinner at home.

"Say people, if the food is salty like this, it could be the person who cook it already wants to marry, even kebelet."

Mom spoke casually but kept the clear vegetable out of her presence.

"Thankfully, I have not poured the sauce," he said, staring at the rice dishes that were still dry.

"Are you married, Yu?"

"Mom, eat first, if the preoccupation does not need to eat," lerai Father while continuing to eat. Salty vegetables said the mother remained at the father's meal without protest.

I scooped up the vegetables and tasted them.

Oh god, how many spoons of salt did I put in?

I saw my mother snorting at me as if saying, 'uh, han?'

I smiled silly and apologized.

"I'm sorry, Yuyu wasn't tasting earlier."

We ate in silence as was our custom all along. No talking while eating.

"Where's your job, Yu?" ask me when I'm done with the rest of the dinner. The old plate I lifted into the sink.

"Safe, Sir. Yuyu likes!"

I saw father nod.

"She's heard there's a cpns vacancy opening this year, don't you try?"

"You, Sir. Later if the official announcement has come out I look for yanga da majorsku.

Sir, what if Yuyu wins but leaves the island? Kalimantan?"

"Emang able to stay away from the same Mother Father?"

There's a mocking tone there.

I opened my lips to reply to my father's words.

Be capable? well be able, my mind. My demon soul smiled as I remembered I would not get mother's nagging again.

"You never have!" my answer reminds me last year I interned and chose a boarding house near the internship office.

"It's still one city, not another island. If you go to Kalimantan, you must be rich first and then you can go home to your mother's father. Far!"

Sambar mom suddenly. From the sentence I can catch that mom doesn't want me far away

from her.

"Find the open near here, see your brother, the island across, but come home only once a year." Mother sneered at my brother who was always proud of me yesterday.

The three of us ended up chatting about work especially being the one my mom loved so much.

"Jansen how are you?" ask the father suddenly.

"Well, he said" I replied.

"What is ad-"

"Sir, ma'am sorry, if Yuyu---" I cut off my father's words but even my words could not be finished. My mom and dad just kept waiting for what I wanted next.

"Yuyu, Yuyu, ... We better not expect too much. Yuyu doesn't want to father the same mother hurt later if too hope for Jansen."

"You guys got into a fight?"

"No, just, ... Yuyu was not confident. Moreover, her parents could not accept Yuyu yet."

"Is it still?"

"Yes. Maybe Yuyu will give up."