MY BOSS MY HUSBAND
80. OKAY, I GAVE UP TOO

~JANSEN POV~

*****

    I can't say anything more now. 'Our sentences are courting but like not dating' still bothers my mind. My brain is lacking or Ayu's brain is excess? What a difficult sentence to digest.

Our status is courting, but if I feel like I fit in with someone else, I can date him too. Wow.. very sophisticated brain. He's very sincere, huh? Does that mean he's allowing me to cheat so blatantly? Oh.. God is awesome!

    I wonder what Ayu is doing right now, has she realized and has remembered everything she said to me?

All right, he's depressed because of my family. But does it have to be that way?

You guys, who wants to be my girlfriend? Come date me and we join hands in front of my girlfriend Ayu as well. Even to say my girlfriend and boyfriend is also my lips are shaking.

    After dropping off Ayu, I went straight home because she also did not offer to stop again.

"Thank you for tonight, thank you for the treat" he said, making my eyes pop.

I paid for the meal, but she never thanked me. The way I said it to me was also very awkward as if I was someone else who was even new to the know. Fortunately, he did not look down like a Japanese.

    "I have a great PR. Yuyu, you have the heart, huh." I'm talking to myself. If we were all right, I could've called him while driving like this. He said first, so that I wouldn't feel lonely and alone in the middle of the night.

    "Darling, good night, I'm still on the way." I sent her a voice note, hoping she'd melt a little.

    "Maybe this is if I have an older sister, hehehe" I seem to be crazy sudha. I talk and laugh alone.

    "Look at it, Yu. You will melt with this firmness of my heart!"

I drive with music. I deliberately chose skirt music to keep me literate.

The lights are gone and the house is gone. I turned to the big wall clock in the living room, Eleven o'clock in the night. Quick, everyone is asleep.

I was preparing to go up to the second floor, but my steps were forced to stop as my mother called out to me.

    "Why is it so late?" I turned my head and found that my mother was holding a glass teapot to take to the room maybe. Reading glasses are still attached to his face a sign that my mother has not slept since.

    "Yes, dinner's over with Ayu." I don't want to cover up everything about my relationship with Ayu except for what just happened.

    "It's Sunday, don't be too forced to meet. Far away. In addition to the danger you are also exhausted tomorrow. Tell your boyfriend not to ask to meet constantly. You have to realize you live far apart. That's why mama said you're the same Mi-"

    "Ma, Jansen rest now. Mama too, it's late. Tomorrow we continue again." I cut off the words of mama that almost offended Mira.

    "Ckckck, right, your boyfriend is carrying a bad influence on you, look now! You even dare to cut mama while talking." Mama shook her head with a look like she was disappointed in me.

Am I wrong to judge my mother too much?

    "Mama told you, you fit in with Mira. Both grown up, living in the same city. If you want to meet at any time without tired body." Mama grumbled loudly until papa came out of the room and asked what happened.

I sighed softly, right said mama, my body was tired, my mind was also moreover added to her scolding just now.

    "See your son. All this time he never defied. Even when I introduced Mira. He just smiled and did not reject my matchmaking proposal. But since knowing that Ayu, look! He's good at answering now." Mama pointed at me with her index finger. His blaring voice woke the entire house.

    Looking at me who was still complete with work clothes this morning, I think they can already guess where I am from.

    "Mama, calm down. Why you should scream." Papa seems to be upset also because of the voice of mama.

    "Jansen, isn't there another day to meet your girlfriend? Why do we have to do this on a weekday?" Papa's your number one supporter, if mama says a should be a.

    "I'm sorry, next time it won't be again. I'm sorry."

I set foot up the stairs to my room.

    "The same as this boy. Adults can still be in the kibuli girls. In what love he is the same Ayu ayu that is why he became a dissident. Lookie! whenever I don't get it."

    "Huh, I gave my best for her but she wasted it on chasing after the girl. What special is he. My age could be drastically reduced from constantly thinking about this matter. I had to suppress my shame on Ermina because of your son."

    "Have calmed down, let's sit down!" Dad led me to the sofa. I also finally came down again. I could not bear to hear Ayu who was always blamed for my rejection.

    "Papa should be able to be more assertive to Jansen. Even give those poor conditions."

    "Already, Ma! Weanke-"

    "Ma." I cut my parents' words again. If it was mom, now papa. If once again I cut the words of this family member, maybe I will be fired immediately and scribbled from the list of family members.

    "Me and Ayu, we..." How to tell dating but like not dating?

    "If Mama really likes Mira. All right, just continue. I accept what you're gonna do to me. I'm gonna be a submissive dog starting tonight. Ayu has also let me go. All for the sake of the happiness of my mother and brother Jo and all of you here. He won't take away your happiness with Mira. Please start this second, no one to blame or vilify Ayu here."

"......"

"Thank you, Ayu also said thanks for yesterday trying to be friendly and accept it. In the future please do not force yourself. If you don't accept it, just say it. Your pretense only adds to your heartache."

    I saw you shake like you didn't accept what I just said. Everyone is silent. Were they surprised because I was dumped?

 "No party this year, I think it's just papa's booze, it's just temporary dopamine for me. The meaning must be very deep. And the request of papa who wants to take care of all the marriages without involving the Ayu family is really very underestimating the family. Not appreciating."

    I stepped back towards the stairs. 'Okay, if I have to be with Mira, I will go. But everyone, please don't get lost later. Especially you, Yu!' whispered to myself. I left my parents and brother Jo there still gawking at the decision I just made.

    I don't know how long, but I've spent a long time under this shower. My fingers are even wrinkled. During the shower, I realized everything I said to my family.

I made a decision with emotion. What will I tell Ayu if this is the case?

I also remember everything he said. "For us to know how strong we are" Is this a signal to see who is most loyal?

*****

    Everyone is busy with their own thoughts. No pleasantries as usual. It's like eating at Ayu's house. Silent!

    "Jans-"

    "I'm done, I'm sorry." To hell with politeness. This morning I cut my mother's words.

I don't care what he wants to ask. When and how the party he wanted, just made it like that. Why protest if they finally have to accept their will.

    I went from home but not to the office, I instead circled around in an uncertain direction in this city. After I got tired, I booked a hotel room. I refused to go home even though I knew everyone was busy outside. I broke my body as soon as I entered the room. Not long before my eyes closed. I feel peaceful when I sleep. No one disturbed my mind.

    I woke up because I was hungry. When I woke up I saw a clock on my wrist. Seven o'clock at night.

"I slept for a long time" I murmured.

I ordered food and planned to stay here for a while.

    "I should have taken the apartment yesterday. If this is how I can move to sleep."

I grabbed my phone and saw some messages from Wulan. There was a call from mom and dad too. I just ignore it. I don't want to be disturbed right now.

"Mama.I think to death, my life will run according to your control only.

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Please like well pemirsah, although the feeling is less dapet..

Original. mood again down. Hours wanted to upload, but the bright idea vanished.