MY BOSS MY HUSBAND
84. MISS YOU SO BAD, I'M NOT LYING

~JANSEN POV~

*****

    The situation at home is the same. Still blazing cold flames on each other's heads.

I've been cold in the office lately, just like at home. Eat together in silence, after which return to the room. I never got involved in family chats again in the living room like we used to.

    Just like tonight. I just got home from reconnaissance, arrived home at seven o'clock and everyone was having dinner.

    "Jan, have dinner first," asked my older brother who was first aware of my existence.

    "Later on, Ka. Take a shower, get hot." I stepped up the stairs without greeting others including my parents.

    I do not know if my attitude is included in the list of the category of insubordination or not. But, even though I realized that this was not a good attitude, until this moment my heart has not been moved to talk to papa's mother.

    I lay my body on the mattress with my legs hanging completely with shoes that I have not yet taken off and then reached into the phone from the bag of pants. I opened the chat room and reread my chat with Ayu.

    I smiled like a fool as I read it, remembering his grunts as he sat behind me at the cafe. If I hadn't heard that firsthand, I would have believed that he didn't want me to bother and I would have been sure that he had let me go. Now I am grateful to have the thought of following him.

    "I Miss You So bad," I said as I stared at the mobile phone featuring a sweet smiling photo of Ayu as her wawa profile.

    "Based on women, the prestige is exorbitant, is it hard to say I miss."

I stroked his face on my phone screen. My eyes are sad because until this moment there is no bright spot for us. My mother has returned to the original setting, she has started insisting on Mira again. Totally insensitive to me. Several times have offended Mira, whether I have met or not. My answer remains the same. Later. I don't know when exactly, this 'Later.

    I put my finger on the phone screen.

    Me:

    'I'm home, tired of it. Need vacation.'

I'm fishing for Ayu, I hope she's sensitive. If he takes me on a vacation together, I'll be gone by then.

Let alone a vacation, just to meet, I must go.

Trings

    Yuyu Love:

    'Sending Pict'

He sent me a clean and very beautiful beach photo.

    Yuyu Love:

    'Later sometime we come here, find a lot of money first.'

Did he send it wrong?

Is this a signal that we are better and are dating again?

Uh, we did date even though it was like not dating.

    Me:

    'You Serious?'

    Yuyu Love:

    "Duarius,'

    Me:

    'Weekend want to?'

    Yuyu Love:

    'Monday work, I still include onions, can not leave2 now."

Hahahahaha, the onion he said. Six months still an onion?

    Me: 

    'Bone Sunday Afternoon.'

I'm more excited now. Hopefully he will, leave Saturday, go home Sunday afternoon. I think it's enough to take off the kangen.

    Yuyu Love:

    'That's the beach in the Maldives,'

Oh, God. It should be at least a week and it should be less.

    Me:

    'We go to a place close first, which is far away when2,'

    Yuyu Love:

    'Halalin me first, Bang!'

Although he sent the emoticon laughing out loud, but there is a meaning of the sentence.

'Can't go on vacation together if it's not halal.'

I want anything, I have morals too.

    Me:

    'As soon as possible'

    'Waiting, yeah,'

    Yuyu Love:

    'Jansen, Miss you so bad, I'm not lying'

I immediately pressed the video call button and it was rejected.

    Yuyu Love:

    'Don't call'

    'I can't hold to see your face'

    Me:

    'Miss you too, dear.

    'Pls stand there for me!'

I kissed my phone more precisely the face of Ayu who was on my phone screen. 'Darling, I thought you'd given up, I was almost desperate, ' my inner self.

    Me:

    'Honey, Thanks for taking me back'

My spirit instantly improved. Since at the cafe earlier, my mood has indeed improved, if someone can see the aura, maybe they can clearly see how I was and now must have multiplied.

*****

    I walked slowly, down the stairs. Since coming home this afternoon, I didn't leave the room and now I seem hungry. It's ten o'clock at night even passed, surely the residents of the house have slept.

As I was about to turn towards the dining room, I heard people talking, I tilted my head towards the voice and it came from the living room.

    Like a thief, I turned my gaze in all directions before slowly stepping towards the source of the sound. From his voice I could tell it was Brother Jo and Mama.

What were they talking about this late? Are they reviewing soap operas?

Or did they turn into impromptu directors?

    "Don't push it too hard, Ma. Jansen said so because he was already desperate." That's Jo's voice.

    "Despair how do you mean?" ask Mama.

    "When I went to her room, she said, Ayu saw us at the mall yesterday with Mira and Aunt Er, and kept going

     Ayu feels insecure because we look so happy. That's why she told Jan to break up, let Mama be the same

    your brother and the rest of the family are happy and do not feel compelled. Jan felt dumped and broke up

    asa. That's why he became insolent with Mama, against mama and did his best. Sampe blurred."

I heard Brother Jo squealing because of my childhood nature yesterday.

I heard my mother breathing heavily.

    "Jansen's a good boy and a hard worker, mama thinks he'll fit in with Mira. After these few weeks, mama thought mama was forcing her too much. But to accept Ayu, it seems like mama can't yet. When I met yesterday, I didn't see his wife" said my mom and I felt like I had found a bright spot.

I smiled in silence. 'Mama is too quick to judge, Ayu is too, it seems like you guys are a match, Ma, ' my inner self.

    "Mama has only met once, Try it many times. I am the only one who can fit right away. Just that I was a bit sad yesterday, they both accused me of pretending. I guess it's Ayu's thinking, seeing us at the mall." Brother Jo still seems disappointed in us. Has he not met Ayu again as he muttered back then in my room?

    I turned around, stepped into the kitchen and looked for something to eat.

I ate the food left for me. I feel like this food is really good now. So greedy, I did not realize that the two women who were gossiping were already on the doorstep of this dining room.

    "Jansen?"

I raised my eyebrows, looking at the two of them flatly like the previous days. I have to ekting pretend to be flat and indifferent. I don't want them to suspect that I've heard their chat.

    "Tumben's eating at this hour." Brother Jo approached and pulled the chair in front of me. Mom walked up to the cupboard and picked up a glass and filled the water. I thought it was for her but I saw my mom putting the glass in front of me.

    "The color I'm hungry. Why?" I said to Jo's sister.

    "Thank you, Ma" I said as I grabbed the glass and took a sip.

The two women sat before me in silence.

I didn't know what to say, but I was at peace to see my mother sitting in front of me. There was no cold flame in my head.

    "Jans-"

    "Sorry Jansen, Ma."

We both fell silent and then smiled amusedly as we spoke together.

    "Yes, it's late, Mama is sleepy. Don't go to sleep after eating."

I clapped with a happy twinkle towards mama. God of peace, thank you for being in this house.

    "Happy?" ask Brother Jo with raised eyebrows like a mock.

    "What?"

    "Happy eavesdropping?"

Whats? How does he know?

Brother Jo stood up and prepared to leave,

    "There's no need to pretend to be surprised, I can smell your perfume earlier,"

    "...." - ".~Auto sniffing own body.~