Not a Curse
54. Sarah's Request

"Sarah??"

Erland looked at Sarah who was just silent contemplating on the balcony of her room.

"Mas, are you home??"

"Whatever what?? It's cold outside, come in!!" Sarah approached her husband. Helps release the coat that has been attached to the stocky body all day.

"What are you thinking??" Ask Erland again.

"Nothing" Sarah answered lazily.

Erland noticed Sarah's lazy-looking, uninspired face facing him. Sarah sat on the bed behind him.

"Sarah, actually I want to ask you. What do you mean to say like that Viola?" Sarah was tense not to look at Erland.

"Ma-you mean what is Mas?? What did Viola say to you??" Sarah tried to hide her nervous face.

"You know what I mean by Sarah" Erland sat next to Sarah.

Erland obviously wanted to know what purpose Sarah had told Viola, if Erland only wanted a child in Viola's womb.

"Me, me.." Sarah is confused about where to issue her defense from.

"Why are you that same as Viola??"

"Telegion did you say??" Sarah looked at Erland with guts.

"Telegs you said Mas??" Sarah laughed at herself.

"Have you thought you were in my position??"

Sarah's face began to change. Who had been staring at Erland sharply. Now it's receding and it's starting to get cloudy.

"Sick Mas!! Just try to be me for a moment and feel the pain!!" Little squash began to come out of Sarah's lips.

"Hiks.hiks.."

"Sarah, I'm han..."

"Why am I always wrong in your eyes?? I always give up, I must let you marry another woman, then share my love let alone willing to one roof with my own honey, what is still lacking?? Many times my emotions are not controlled it should be natural right Mas?? Who's the woman who can stand it like this??"

Erland just silently listened to Sarah's angry expressions.

"Then now Viola easily got pregnant just like that when she had been in contact with you for a while. While me?? I've been looking forward to it for years, that I've made many efforts, but I wasn't given a chance at all. Do you think I'm not jealous of you?? I'm really jealous of Viola. Now he is loved more by you and your family. While me??" Those tears must have been very indicative of Sarah's hurt feelings in the marriage.

"Now, please if you're angry with me for what I said to Viola. I was the wrong place. So I'll take it"

"Sarah, I'm not mad at you. Earlier I just wanted to ask what you meant to say to Viola. But now I know exactly what you've been feeling all along. I'm sorry, it turns out to be fair it's still very far from my shadow. I still have so many flaws that I hurt you so much Sarah. I'm sorry" Erland pulled Sarah into her arms. If you think about it, it is true everything Sarah said.

"No Mas, you can never be fair because now Viola is pregnant with your child. All your attention will surely be poured out for him as well. While I'll be the audience behind you. Watch your intimacy. I also feel that your love for her is different from your love for me Mas"

"You never call me sweet like Viola. You even call him dear, and call yourself Brother. While with me, you didn't do it, did you??"

"Sarah, for that you're wrong. I'm sorry" Sarah shook her head with her tears coming back.

"Can you give me Mas's room??"

"M-you mean??" Erland was afraid that Sarah would ask for another farewell from him.

"I need an impingement to throw away everything I can when I'm at home. I need something to forget all this. Please help me if you still want to see me hanging by your side. Because honestly, a full day in this house makes me feel even more sick"

"Is that Sarah?? What can I do for you, to reduce the pain I'm giving you"

Erland grabbed Sarah's hand. Grip them both gently.

"Say!! As long as I can, I will definitely do" Erland said solemnly.

"Are you sure Mas?? My request will not be heavy. But I'm sure you'll think twice about it" Erland grew curious about what Sarah really wanted.

"Say first I can decide"

"Mas, would you like to make an effort for me?? Or realize my dream of making a restaurant??"

Sarah could see Erland's eyes widen slightly as she must have been surprised by Sarah's request.

"Maybe that way, I can forget a little bit of my heartache with the busyness that takes care of the restaurant. I will not be at home all day which will make it harder for me to hold back the anger which is always uncontrollable due to jealousy. Do you want to obey my request, Mas??" Sarah caught the doubt in Erland's face.

"I'm sorry if my request is too grandiose. We'd better forget it, maybe it's my fate to be faced with the pain of every heart"

Sarah just pulled her hand out of Erland's. Rubbed his tears violently and stood in front of the window of his room.

"I'll give you the capital to set up your own restaurant. How much do you want??"

"What Mas?? You want to make me a restaurant??" Sarah turned back to look at Erland.

"As long as you can be happy and cheer you up for my mistakes"

Erland had no idea the decision he had taken was right or wrong. Given Sarah has absolutely no experience in managing a restaurant, even Sarah alone can not cook.

But if Erland thinks again, everything Sarah said just now is true. Here Sarah is also hurt by Erland in the past. Forced to accept Erland's marriage alone should have hurt Sarah so much. But now Sarah still survives when Erland's other wife is pregnant.

"I-I promise you. I'll use the money you gave me to create the restaurant of my dreams. You don't have to worry because I'm not experienced in this. Because I'm going to ask my friend for help to take care of everything" Sarah assured Erland.

"Okay, I believe you"

"Thank you Mommy"

Sarah rushed straight into Erland's arms. So happy is Sarah at this time, because her dream of having her own business will soon be realized. Sarah has a husband like Erland. A real man never wants to hurt his wife. But perhaps because of his great love and responsibility for them, Erland was also so foolish as to not be able to see if there was a mist that was clouding his eyes.