Port of Love Ekklesia
The White Ash 10 (Your cold attitude)
Three days have passed, since Johan and I have been completely silent. He has not contacted me at all, nor have I.
To lose? A miss?
That's all I feel. I miss her sweet greeting in the morning, I miss her crazy SMS messages so I laugh at myself and I miss the romantic good-bye that she always sends me. These three days, I didn't get those things at all. It felt like something was missing from inside me.
"Are I really in love with her? Is this what he called falling in love? Is it just this admiration I feel? Or out of habit so I feel lost?" This is the question that keeps fluttering in my mind.
"Er, Johan seems angry with me...." I said to my sister who was busy with her book at our study table.
"Can't you, brother?" Ask while looking at me.
"I think he's jealous...."
"Jealous why? wuahhh curious..... Don't-don't you guys already??????" He asked increasingly curious, as he walked towards our bed.
"Husshhhh. I haven't told you yet. You.....!!!!" I said to my sister while patting her pretty strong shoulder.
"Awwwww.sick tau sis. Just a story at once. So that I know the problem. Who knows if I have the solution" said my sister in a snobbish tone.
"Okay, I told you. But don't be noisy. Ntar Mama's excited" I almost whispered.
"Okay seepppp. Can this co-operation" She almost whispered.
I finally told my sister all the stories, which is where I told her.
"Oh that?? So you've SMSed him yet?" Asked my sister who slept sideways and facing towards me by supporting her head with her right hand.
"Yet...." I took back the novel I put down because of the story earlier.
"Why not in SMS? My sister can explain to him. I think he is really jealous brother" said Erika who was getting excited.
"I'm confused. Because every time we met at School, he always tried to divert and even sometimes pretended not to see me" I replied in a sad tone and this time I faced my sister.
"Oh brother, his name is also male, yes use logic. He definitely wants an older brother to call first. Just try it, it will be answered. And brother knows.kayaknya brother Johan really like the same brother. Cie..cie...." My sister directed me excitedly while continuing to tease me.
"Rarely?????" I asked for a frown.
"Related" answered my brother optimistically. Erika is more experienced about this, because actually my sister is more slang than me. So even though I am older than him, I do not hesitate to ask for solutions from him. But only in terms of love and friendship. If in lessons or other things he dong who is just like me. (Broast bite. Hihihi) 😄
Then I did what my sister suggested.
Greas
"Johan's? 😄" This word became the first word I sent to Johan via SMS.
Ten minutes I've been waiting for a reply from Johan with anxiety.
"He didn't reply" I muttered as I checked my HP.
Ting....
The incoming message on my HP reads.
Johans
"What Ra???"
Greas
"You're saying Jo?" Reply pleasantries.
Johans
Greas
"Well, too Jo. You again what's Jo?"
Johans
"Just sit around Ra"
"Wuahhhh.he cuek very. I think he's still angry...." I muttered while continuing to look at my HP screen.
But instantly my smile expands seeing the next message.
Johans
"What are you doing?"
Greas
"Magain sleep Jo"
Johans
"Oh"
Greas
"That's doang?
Johans
"Continue?"
"You're so cold, Jo. I didn't expect it to be this long" muttered me again who had put my HP.
"Huh, that's it. I'm tired. If the soulmate is not where. How am I talking soul mate anyway? Remember neng, still High School" I said inwardly with a fickle expression. From sad, to happy and then ending again with sad.
Ting....
Johans
"Have you eaten?"
I did not reply straight away, three minutes I looked at the HP screen confused by Johan's attitude.
Greas
"Have.you?"
Johans
"Already"
That's how it happened during our SMS-an on that day. He always ended it with his cold attitude. I actually wanted to melt the atmosphere, but due to his cold demeanor, I undo my intentions.
"At least he replied to my SMS. Maybe he needs time to get his heart set. Maybe he needs to string words together when someday, he asks me directly. Or maybe he just thinks I'm a friend. Iyeakah? Friends?"
At that time I was raging with myself and I was certainly confused by all of that. Because for me, it was all my first experience and it was definitely my first story.
I have to how else? 😔
~Cold will be an undesirable season. When the degree, it is already at an inappropriate stage~