Port of Love Ekklesia
The Ash White Mass 14 (Steel)

It's been almost two weeks that my communication with Johan has not been smooth. Let alone smoothly.

Whether he is busy, or I am lacking understanding, I really do not understand.

For me at this time.

Though it does not have to call dear, but with good communication it is more than the real affection, without having to indulge it.

Maybe because we don't have any status, hinting that communication isn't something that should be.

But for me, this is the first story. I was scared because of this incident, got me hooked and finally had an impact on the next story.

"Not a romantic word you want to hear, ears,

It's not the music I want to enjoy as a token of love,

Not the affectionate call I hope to be the benchmark of a relationship, though,

It's not the status of a girlfriend that should be the bond between me and you

That's not what I want.

As simple as a feeling of comfort, when you say Hello as a sign you are still on earth....

That's how simple my wish is about you,

It doesn't have to be more....."

I wrote that paragraph in my Diary, as a sign that right now, I was so upset with Johan.

He is like a seasonal fruit that appears at a certain time.

I do not deny that I am currently in puberty, a time when I expect more attention.

I hope when it starts, if you want to end it. Because to me, any relationship is not this joking.

Now I'm really struggling with my own feelings. I want to shake off my anxiety. But I think I'm a woman. And people know how it is women.

After I poured out how I felt right now into my Diary, with a flash of lightning I threw my body onto my soft bed.

"I want to master all this...." I said in my heart, kneeling my forehead that was not sick.

"But what should I do?" I thought for a moment to stop my movement.

"He called me dear, but he confused me this way. Basic....!!!!! all men are the same. Huaaaa..it hurts...." I stomped my feet and shook my body slowly.

That night I was really nervous (Anger, Calau, Merana). If I don't remember wrongly, that's the day my estrangement with Johan began. Distractions in anything.

And I, selfishly, did the same.

I never asked her how it was.

"Let's be it. If indeed the soul mate is not going anywhere. If he can be quiet.... Not only is he a man'

With pride I said that sentence. Then I rested my body in my hut because one day was tired.

••••••

"Where is your communication now Gre???" Niya asked as she leaned her head towards my desk. He was right in front of me with his bag still on his shoulder.

"Sit down first.... Aren't you tired????" My orders to Niya while moving my chin towards the seat beside me. The seat was still empty because Levi had not yet arrived at the school.

"I'm sitting down" Niya moved as fast as lightning to the spot she was in, impatiently hearing my answer.

"Where's Gre???" The question returned so curious.

"I was also confused to answer how our relationship was. Because I had nothing to do with Johan. How I am with you so much with him. There's no difference at all. In fact, I'm closer to you than he is. So in conclusion, I have nothing to do with him" I replied firmly but in a soft tone, while still focusing on the sketches of the book that are not clear.

"Gre's cooking....??? though I thought you were getting serious..Why did you conclude it was so Gre?" Niya asked back with an expression so serious as if introgating me.

"Seriously Ni...swear to Ni!!!! Don't lie to me" I'm sure I'm so serious as I hold my two index and middle fingers together. And I kept coming back to doodle after saying that sentence.

"Ah...I'm not coyo Gre..from the storytelling of Johan all this time, it's not possible. Seriously deh Gre I do not lackin and also do not addin" This time Niya who changed brandishing the five fingers of his right hand.

"Then he couldn't possibly not contact me Ni. Want as busy as it is" Imbuhku with an annoyed tone.

"He hasn't contacted you as long as he's in City A? For these two weeks Gre?? seriously yet??? Ah cook the hell Gre?" Niya exclaimed almost without spacing, like rapping.

"Iyadagakadamengkontakuni" I said faster than Niya did. I'm even more unpacked.

"Hahaha.... What the hell is Gre?!!!! I'm not ngeh. Very fast" he chuckled while widening his eyes. She was shocked by the way I spoke that I had never done before.

"He..gak..ada...meng....hu....bungiku...." I cut off my words to Niya so gently.

"Now care Johan.this is the name of the estrangement of the relationship before it starts. I'll let him in the head if he comes back here...." Said Niya annoyed as she clenched her hands.

"Back off before it starts, is that a proper word to attach to this relationship?"

T.P.S.G