Port of Love Ekklesia
Grey White Mass 20 (Finale for Finale)

Greas

"The spirit is Jo.... I can't come to attend the farewell. I made a promise. I also want to take a picture with you as a memory. But whatever my day, there are conditions that make me unable to attend. I'm now in C Jo City, and I'm going to take an exam to get into University. Actually it's not exam time yet, but because my parents need something, so I have to get here early. Sorry again Jo. I hope one day we'll see each other again, wherever Jo is. The spirit for your show today is Jo.... "

After sending the message, I thought back to the words....

Finish before starting. That's a suitable word to be pinned to my current condition. I don't think we started yet but we've got to end it. Which I asked.... Is Johan thinking the same thing? I don't know.until now I have not found the answer.

Johan did not immediately reply to the message I sent. I sent it in the morning right, but until noon I waited.

Facing all of this reality, it made me feel like I was suffocating. Plus the quiet atmosphere of the house, as if giving me the way for me sobbed lamenting my fate.

I opened the bathroom door, and in a corner I opened all my sadness at that moment. I was sad not to see him, because I did not meet my friends for the last time or because I could not attend the farewell, I don't know for sure. All I know for sure, I was dying to cry until I really sobbed. Until it made me go around my memories of High School and meetings that were beyond my expectations.

"All those stories I can't repeat anymore. My High School is over. After the Ending I never thought of. The story sheet that I wrote in High School, I had to hang with one blank story sheet. I'm very sad at the moment.... I couldn't meet all of them, some of the people who decorated my teenage years. And I couldn't attend that last party. Party as our last day in adolescence or High School. Should it end up like this? Is this the ending I want? I think this is too sad..... Hiks. hiks. hiks. hiks" My cry broke even more as I continued to record it in my HP recorder. I squeezed the chest of my shirt, this time I was completely helpless. Lamenting my High School period which ended so miserably.

If only I had wings to support my sadness at that time.

Half an hour later, I was in the bathroom. Aware of my demo stomach, it dawned on me that the clock was showing at 15:00.

"Damn. The stomach doesn't understand what's going on!!????" My grumbling in my heart while looking at my stomach that was rumbling.

Grokk.

My stomach kept asking for a demo to be filled, so I had to get up from my speech.

I washed my face and I pointed it at the glass painted next to the bathroom door. In the reflection of the glass I saw my pitiful face, bleaching and swollen eyes.

"Dumb me????" My mind while gently rubbing my eyes, to slightly reduce her swelling.

Ting....

At 16:15 a message went on the air on my HP.

With a sag I got up from the chair and took out my HP which was located on the Table.

Johans

"Oiya Ra???? I deserve you to look for it, but nothing. I wandered around but didn't find you. I was reluctant to ask Niya, because she was busy as well. I just saw your message. And during the farewell I was really confused as to why you didn't show up. And it turns out that this is the reason. Yes, it is Ra. Have a good spirit for the test later. Hope you graduate to the University you want. And you'll be a great woman. I'm still proud of you, Ra. Grab your ideals. The matter of Photographing, if He wills we can definitely meet again. Again the spirit. I know you are sad. Since you can't attend the farewell.... "

Hiks. hiks. hiks.....

The message I got from Johan seemed to contain an onion, making me even more complacent with my grief.

After reading the message from Johan, I no longer reply to him. Because I thought, I didn't want to further spice up my sadness, which would eventually become endless sadness.

At that moment I lost my direction. I was reminded again....

My adolescence ended miserably

I don't want to blame anyone. Because no matter how hard I think, finding out who's wrong, I won't find it. Because I realized that my life journey, I did not write. I'm very aware, I'm on stage and I'm just a player.

"This is the end, and I must end it" My mind stared at the cloudy sky, as if it knew what I was feeling.

"Start a new journey. Because a new story awaits. Yeah, a new story that you don't know what it looks like"

T. P. S. G