Port of Love Ekklesia
Ash White Mass 16 (Difference)
The weather is so bright today. Plus my heart is blossoming because, my communication with Johan these three days is so smooth and so adorable as other ABG-ABGs feel. Moreover, last night which was Sunday night, Johan who was in City A with his message singing a song for me.
So Sweet the kebangetan.
Maybe for others it's normal, but for me it's something really incredible. And that incident, too, made me have trouble sleeping, reminiscing about the sweet events.
Crazy one? it could be yes. Because it's all beyond what I'm used to. To the extent that even for some time, I forgot about the novels that made me seem to drown in the Bermuda triangle. Not appearing before anyone, because I drowned him.
And I think Johan's figure made me forget my hallucinatory world.
Replaced with the sweet world with her. That's how I felt at the time.
Looks like love has blinded an iceberg girl like me.
But the dilemma, all of that I only felt for a moment. Because the differences soon dawned on me. Differences that my logic and my feelings cannot ignore.
This morning in her spirit I replied to a message from Johan, after I heard Ting's voice airing on my HP.
Johans
"Good Sunday Ra....What else is it?"
Quick and swift, I replied to his message. Definitely peppered with my sweetest smile.
Greas
"Happy Sunday also Jo..again get ready to worship"
Johans
"Ohhhhh.. Happy worship Yes Ra"
Greas
"Okay Jo's. Thanks yes. Let's pray for each other Jo. Oiya, what are you doing Jo?"
Johans
"Okay Ra's. Worship also Ra..ini again wait for friends to go to the Monastery"
Degs.... Instantly my heart was about to jump from its place reading Johan's last reply.
"Oh my goodness.... What the hell is this? Why did I forget? Am I so overwhelmed that I am not aware of this difference? It just blew my heart.... For a moment I forgot this contrasting difference" I sat limply from my standing position.
Right now my mind is in turmoil, and I can't think clearly, given the difference between the two of us.
I put my HP in my bag and didn't return a message from Johan again.
I bow my head weak. But I keep trying to keep the people around me unsuspecting.
And my sister who noticed the change in my expression suddenly hit my back gently.
"Why you brother? you're all right?" He asked while leaning his body and tilting his head to look at me who was sitting to his left.
"Hmmmm, Gapapa deck" answered me trying to pretend to be okay.
"Seriously?"
"Yes, the deck is relaxing"
"But brother looks limp, even fragile"
"Hahaha, am I a cracker?" My canda was looking for an excuse to cover up my current grief.
And luckily my sister believed.
"Yes, focus on the front. You are Singer today. Soon you will be called ahead. Because his worship has begun. Get ready, brother...."
"Okay!!!" My reply while upholding my body from what was previously empty.
••••••
Johans
"Sore Ra...."
I didn't reply immediately, because I was still reminded of what happened this morning. And it felt like my fingers were a little silly to type a few words in my HP.
Disappointed? There must be at least. But I don't want to blame anyone. Because I was wrong, just realized all the differences that exist in us.
🎶
In my heart is only one name
which is in my heart sincerely desire
Beautiful loyalty is unparalleled
you are but one fairy of my love
The fort is so high it's hard for me to reach
huuuu
I'm for you, you're for me
But all of what may be our different faiths
God is one, we are not the same
I should leave even though love cannot go
The fort is so high it's hard for me to reach
huuuu
I'm for you, you're for me
But all of what may be our different faiths
God is one, we are not the same
I should leave even though love cannot go
Doesn't love give me a chance
I'm keeping him whole soul oooh
(i am for you, you are for me
but all of what may be our different faiths)
God is one, we are not the same
I should leave even though love can't go
(i am for you, you are for me
but all of what may be our different faiths)
God is one, we are not the same
I should leave even though love can't go
🎶
This song sung by Marcel, became the song that accompanied my current turmoil. I repeated it a few times. And at this moment I realized, how our differences were not easy to achieve.
"Is it true that First Love never works?"
T.P.S.G