Second Change
Chapter 21's

Two days before the wedding. I went to college to say goodbye to Cindy. Cindy already knows all my plans. He was worried about me and advised me to give up. But I can't. Better to fail than not to try. The only thing Cindy didn't know was that David kissed me in my sleep.

I still often imagine that incident. There was a strange feeling appearing every time he remembered the incident. I've tried a thousand times to ask David why I kissed him? But I don't have the courage.

Cindy hugged me and left me sitting on our campus stone chair. I finally had a chance to call Tony. These few days David's been watching me closely. Otherwise, I would have been accompanying Emi shopping or helping Emi pack her things.

Today I was allowed to go to college on the grounds of collecting assignments. I just want to be alone in an unsupervised place. Now is the time to call Tony.

My heart is pounding. Will Tony answer my phone?

"Hello."

Tony answered. I fix my seat.

"Tony. I'm Lia."

"Gue tau's. I memorized Lo's number." he said.

I'm glad he memorized my number. My heart is getting excited.

"We run away." I said directly "On the wedding day, I'll pretend to faint and then you have to quickly carry me into the car. Then we go."

"Lia stop. I thought you understood."

"When I said you still love me, David didn't deny it. If you still love each other, why should you split up?"

Tony took a long breath.

"Gue used to always be tricked by girls. Every time I want to seriously Ama girls, it turns out they just want my money. Trus one day my friend Farhan was discussing the idea for nyamar to be a poor guy and a girl who wanted me. I found Ama Lo. Thank you very much for loving me sincerely. Just this time I was truly loved without any money interference. But finally, I have to go back to my life again. That's it, like it's just a little splinter in my life. So you understand?"

"What are you doing?"

"I'm sorry. I don't know how you want to be better. I hope you can escape me, live your life and reach your goals. If you need help, I will help. That's all I can do for you."

"But I want to try again with you." I sobbed.

"Gue's getting married, Lia." Tony snorted "It's okay, I want to work."

My heart hurts so much. I want to disappear from this earth. Why Tony is so brave for me. Why did after choosing me he have to throw me away again? Am I that bad? Am I not worthy of being loved? Is it because I am an orphan and have nothing? Why is life so cruel to me?

Where can I go now? I don't even have a place to live anymore. My parents' house is for sale David. David's apartment which he said was my residence also turned out to be his residence. I remember David once saying that after the wedding, I would be returned to where I came from. If that happens, then I will be in the wine and humiliated by the people in the neighborhood. I'll be whipped, cheesy, shameless and then I'll be whipped to death.

I cried while hugging my feet. Poor lia. You may not be expected in this world. The world is expelling you. Don't you have to go?

Right, maybe the world is kicking me out.

It crossed my mind several ways to disappear from this world. Is it time to decide my own life?

I've been here too long. It's time I left. But where am I supposed to go? Tall buildings, railroads, pharmacies? I don't know, let this foot take the road where I'm going.

My phone kept ringing but I didn't want to pick it up. I was drifting to myself. I don't know how long I've been walking and where I don't know.

Suddenly someone pulled me into his car. The car that always drives me everywhere. The person in front of the steering wheel was nagging but I didn't want to hear what he said. I closed my eyes and drifted into my mind again. I'm replaying my childhood memories. Lia was the happiest at the time. After Papa and Mama died, all that was left was a painful memory. I twisted all those painful memories and let the pain one by one hit me.

The car stopped, the car door opened and she carried me. The voices in the house that sounded panicked slowly moved away as he hurriedly carried me up to his room. Then I sat on the couch.

I opened my eyes and looked at him. His gaze was difficult to understand between anger and worry. It should be time for me to have mercy on him, please forgive me for not being returned to where I came from. I should have cried while asking for mercy. But these tears won't come out. But my heart still felt a lot of pain. Are my tears dry?

"If you want to kill me, what will you do?" askaku.

"I won't kill you" he said

I smiled bitterly. The way you're going to use it is to borrow people's hands to kill me.

***

My biggest advantage is having a big heart and an optimistic mind. I can quickly get up even in a bad state.

The death of my parents was the biggest blow and I still had the strength to get back up. I don't know if other people are like me or not.

Exorcised and slandered I've been through. But even so, I still got a decent and comfortable place to live. But the problem didn't stop there. Right now I have to try to get up again after being betrayed by Tony.

I wasn't sure Tony would do that to me before and thought he was leaving me for whatever reason. I don't know why this time I'm sure and won't put any more hope in him.

Not bad to live alone. After their marriage was over, I was no longer needed by David. It's all over, I'm gonna start a new life again and forget all this.

The makeup artist is putting on my face beautifully. My eyes became bigger and brighter. I should have been happy because this was my first time in bridal makeup and my first time in a long dress. I stared at myself for a long time in front of a long mirror. The assistant makeup artist was endlessly praising me until constantly taking pictures of me.

But my heart cannot be happy at all. My smile was forced too. Maybe because I knew this short day was coming to an end. So there's no point in me being happy.

After today, I will forget them all and believe that this is just a long nightmare.