Sunset Mentions on Paradise Island
Lonely Since Childhood

my name is sun, my father says I was born at sunrise in the morning, warm up, always bright and cheerful

but I was like a sun that was always alone and lonely

because my mother should have accompanied me, she was gone when she gave birth to me

sometimes I think I'm my mother's killer, because my mother gave birth to me, my father had to lose his love

but dad always said, it's his destiny

so, since then I was cared for and raised by my father alone

bathe me, take care of me, keep me, , greet me, entertain me when I am sad, play together in the playground near my house, and teach me what life means

Sometimes I think, is the warmth of a mother's palm the same as that of a father ?

we are both very happy, sometimes I think it would be better if it continued like that

dad always took me to mom's grave, every dad misses her, then prays, then tells me in front of mom's grave that we both live very well

but since I was 7 years old, the sunshine has slowly faded because my father always left me to work

working non-stop, working without regard to his health, said the father if he was a little quiet would be remembered to my mother, that is because his father became a workaholic to divert his mind

to get rid of the bumps in my heart due to loneliness, I could only take my time to practice the piano after my mother left me

so often I was lonely the more often I played it until I was very good at playing the piano of my mother's legacy

my father said, When my mother lived, she was also very good at playing the piano

Dad said, when I pressed the piano one by one it was exactly like my mother

from childhood I could only play alone , go to school by myself , even in school I did not have too many friends , because I was jealous to see my friends who always came with their mother's father

while I only have a father who is always crazy about work and also an aunt, namely my father's cousin who lives not far from my house to occasionally see me to deliver food, and I look after all my needs at home

yes only occasionally because of the condition of his family also can not afford if added burden with me

sometimes when I am free, my aunt will take me to the front gate of my school

it can be said in my life at that time, I only have two people closest, namely father and aunt only

in my not-so-big house, in the corner of the room where my father put my mother's piano

there was one of my mother's favorite songs that I always played, as I remember when my memory as a child began to function, the tone and the notebook were already located on the piano

if I miss mom, I'll play slowly closing my eyes to feel her presence

and wishful thinking !

it would be beautiful if the three of us could be together, my mother and I, when in the morning my mother would cook my favorite food, then build me up to go to school ,my dad had breakfast and then left for work

My life continued until I was an adult, and I decided not to continue my education

after I grew up dad got older, but he was still the same, which is still crazy working

as my father's only daughter, I was the one who arranged the finances in the house

I've been used to it since I was 8 years old

the crazy result of my father's work, I was able to renovate the house, buy an electric motor, and buy some piano sets for me to open piano lessons in my own house, then the rest I keep in my savings

my father is getting older and older, his health is not like it used to be, I just hope that after dad quit his job, dad can rest at home comfortably and safely ,then I'll live it up to my teaching piano lessons

after three years I teach piano lessons , my Pidupur² is growing and increasing one by one

the result of my work for three years, I can enlarge the room teaching my piano lessons

while father, he had stopped working and spent time in my mother's hometown to eliminate his longing for mother

in that very cold mountainous area, Dad said he first met my mother

very dear, I always think if I am not there, surely my father is still with the woman he loves so much

now I'm at home true² only friends lonely, but not during his quiet because there are students² me cheerful who always accompany me, but not during his quiet,it's just that I had to separate from dad because dad chose to spend his old time in mom's village

now I have reached the age of 26 years, the age that has matured to find a life partner

I met a man, who was very special in my life

must be a special man after my father

the first time I met her, when I was invited with my student² to perform a piano performance at the annual party in my city

when I played the piano, I saw a light in his eyes

from the corner of my eye, I saw that the foreign man continued unceasingly to look at me

but I can only reply with a smile

after the party was over, and sure enough, the man came up to me to get acquainted

he said the name of the ferry

we also exchanged phone numbers

from then on, we exchanged news, were friends and very close

as time went on, the feeling of warmth grew bigger between us