Sunset Mentions on Paradise Island
He's Not You
In my life, in my mind
where I make the storyline of my life all the time, and I pretend it didn't happen what², from when I was little I was left to face the world alone
the way of life this last time, I have found a stranger filling my life, and I am so proud that there is him by my side but he has gone, he has gone !
the way of life this last time, I found a stranger coming at me again, I'm so happy, but he's not you !
he's not you !
he will never be you !
darkened
it feels dark this life
it's cloudy all the time
I knew the darkness was going to end and I was going to leave, but I didn't want to get out of this darkness
in this darkness I can feel the ferry with me
my eyes are heavy to open
my heart has no passion to rise, I keep my eyes closed and keep dreaming
dream² is beautiful with her
I don't know if I keep my eyes closed if I'm gonna go and see her
do I have to try to get up and live this world without her
I could live without him
the ferry took me away from this world
the world is cruel, right ?
I'm sure you must feel the world is so cruel to us
ferry you've met God, tell God take me away too
mommy ! you have met God, right ? tell God to take me out of this world
I don't want to live anymore, Mom
ferry do you know what I like most about you ?
everything about you I love !
I like it so hard to forget
again² I met ferry , and mom
mom and the ferry have calmed down in her paradise, but I have to go through the trials of life and death here
god ! if I am aware, please let go of my burden
if I have to undergo this test I want you to take me to live a life in heaven with my mother and the ferry
but in a dream I saw mom and the ferry leave me
lost with the bright light
I finally woke up from my coma
I feel something wet on my cheek, my cheek is so cold
it turns out that as long as I'm in a coma, I don't stop crying
I felt pain in my legs, I saw a foot full of white bandages mixed with red blood
the weight in my breath, the oxygen hose in my nose, I tried to open it
after a while my ears and eyes have just worked correctly², apparently there is already a fiki and his family
there's mom and dad ferries and also her grandparents
they looked at me with pity, and waited for me to come to my senses
I'm glad to see them because they're members of the ferry family
I was eager to get up to greet her but helplessly my body still felt limp
fiki said I've been in a coma for 10 days
why is there a family waiting for me there because the fiki has told all the events that befell me to his family
mom and dad are very good
my grandparents were very good too
it is a pity that the ferry is not among them 'if this happens but the ferry is still there
I'm gonna be so happy
ferry's mother cried, regretting just knowing my relationship with her son now
father, mother, grandfather and grandmother just found out I got into this coma to realize the dream of the ferry
they said if he knew from the beginning, he wouldn't make me suffer like this
her mother was very sad just like me after the ferry departure
I thought I was the only one who suffered the loss of the ferry, they turned out the same
moreover, her mother
her mother promised me that she would look after me like her daughter, and even more so I was her son's soulmate
when I saw the face of the fiki I tried to get used to it that he was a fiki not a ferry
I before her couldn't accept if the ferry had gone
now as time goes by I should try to clench it
so that the ferry may be quiet in God's heaven
long ago, my father once said it would be nice if he saw the exact same woman his face had with my mother in this world, to dispel her longing ,but my mother was not a twin, so no woman looked like her
so I can only look at the photos
and now I use my father's word² as my motivation to rise from this slump
now I have to get used to it and have to be grateful there is a fiki twin of his ferry , maybe when miss to the ferry I can see myself
but I still have to treat fiki as a fiki not a ferry
because he's not you