Sunset Mentions on Paradise Island
A Point of Life Expectancy

the ferry never let me accompany her at her last moment

I don't think my legs are boned, I'm standing up, I don't even talk

I'm right² broke , my wing broke in two

I close my eyes to remember being with her

I closed my eyes until, until I imagined the breath of the ferry touching my skin, hugging the wind imagining myself hugging her, I imagined it coming at me, grasping my hand ,hugged myself

in the dark I smiled very happy to see the ferry coming at me with a smile on its face

but the instant I opened my eyes it was just my imagination

my smile is gone again, tears are coming back

this is the ninth day I learned the ferry has gone , during these nine days I stayed in the guest room in the fiki house, for these nine days I have not eaten , not drunk , ' he said ,no shower and no sleep

I was so limp, I locked my bedroom door

occasionally fiki comes to my room to bring me food but I just pura² says I will eat it , 'when that happens I throw it in the window

my appetite is no, I'm helpless, I don't want to live anymore

I don't want to live anymore

the scenery is dark, the more days my vision is blurred, to move the fingers was helpless

it sounded from outside the room like someone was screaming, like someone was trying to break down my door

after that I don't know anything anymore

darkened

in the dark I dreamed of a ferry, while with her

ferry came with a smile on her face, with her favorite outfit, the light on her face so bright

he took me to a beautiful place, a place I had never seen before

is that heaven

but immediately in the dream the ferry said that I should live well, live well even without it

the circle of light in that place grew bigger and bigger, swallowing the ferry along with the light

the ferry shouted that I should live well

the light disappeared and swallowed the ferry

until I realized from the dream, then I woke up apparently I was already in the hospital

my head hurts a lot, I want to get up but I'm helpless

fiki came to see me, with a very anxious face

he said if I'm okay² only, whether I'm aware

fiki said, I've been asleep in the hospital for three days

the doctor said, I'm mentally stressed because of this incident

not eating, not sleeping, not drinking for nine days makes me sick like this

fiki was upset with me, he said if anything happened to me what he had to say to the ferry later in heaven

two days later, I felt a slight change in my body, because I forced myself to eat and drink what I didn't want to swallow

fiki said, that the doctor has allowed me to go back home

fiki brought me back to his house

after arriving at his house he asked me to rest back in the room

but this time he didn't let me lock the door

he hid the door to his room, he was worried that I would lock myself up again after this

fiki helped me take care of myself

but the food and drink he gave me was never spent because no appetite came to me

this morning the guest's fiki from a notary , the notary said that before the ferry died 'he had bought a house on the opposite island 'but he had only paid half of it

he said, the house is very large, located in the city

the notary also gave me a letter, which in it contained the inscription ferry

I was so happy to see the letter, however it was self-written by the ferry when he was alive

even though the person is gone, seeing his handwriting slightly eliminates the longing in my heart for him

in the letter he said, that he would like to buy his dream house for me to live with, marry, and then have children live in that house

even the ownership letter of the house, the ferry prepared with my name

but his dream was not until he carried it out, because the doom had already come to fetch him

the notary told me and on the fiki that the ferry before him had only paid half the money to buy the house

his arrival met fiki and me to explain if the house was not paid until paid off he would sell it back to someone else ,while the money the ferry had entered it he could only return half of it

I'm so happy to hear there's my last hope of achieving the ferry dream

having that dream home

I told the notary to give me time to pay off the house

there is little hope in my life 'if I can pay it off I'll stay in the dream house of the ferry despite having to live with her shadow alone

but this time I was very confused to hear the price of the house, a very expensive price

because the design of the house was designed by the ferry itself

I don't know where to find that kind of money to pay it off

although very much of his money I have to pay off , so that I can make the dream of the delayed ferry , what else the design of his house is made by him

the notary gave me two weeks to pay it off

during that time I had to raise five hundred million

while my savings combined with my father's workaholic savings are still less too much

fiki tried to help me by lending me her savings money, but I refused her

I thought that with my own hard work I would be more satisfied to have the house