Sunset Mentions on Paradise Island
Growing In My Heart

Ferries don't go ! ferry don't go !

in a dream I saw the shadow of the ferry fading back, momentarily lost with the light

the smile I miss so much

but in my sleep outside of my dreams it was like someone was calling me and building me up

it was just like the sound of a ferry

whereas in my dream I screamed into the ferry so as not to leave me

but there was someone who built me from that dream, the voice was the sound of the ferry

hearing that voice I was shocked and very happy, I woke up and saw that person was right he was a ferry

I hugged her tightly, saying never leave me again

hugging her so tightly didn't want to let go

but the ferry said and yelled at me to wake up, be aware !

he said, he's not a ferry but a fiki

I finally woke up and remembered that my ferry was gone

the man in front of me is a fiki

instantly I cried sadly & apologized to her because again² suspected she was the ferry person I wanted to meet

fiki stroked my cheek, wiped the tears on my cheek, said it was , 'already !

he said 'if by thinking of himself as a ferry he could take away my longing and heal me from the wounds of staying dead by the ferry he would if he had to catch the ferry by me

he willingly if he had to pretend² and continue to be a ferry in front of me as long as I recover from this virginity

I asked her to hug him for a while, I miss the ferry so much

fiki allowed me to hug her for a while and to brand myself as a ferry

fiki brought me some new clothes, and some food and medicine

he said he had to take care of me and look after me because of his promise to the ferry

but I refused him 'if only because of his promise to the ferry he wouldn't have to do all this to me

I told her, if she had to, she can't do this to me, because I don't like to see other people being forced to pay attention to me

fiki is just a mangangguk

her smile was just like the ferry, I asked her to leave my house immediately because the more I saw her face the more I couldn't bear to meet the ferry ,no matter how he is a fiki, he is not a ferry

fiki understood my heart, she understood that I didn't want her to appear before me because her face was the same as the ferry

if he shows up then the sadness and longing on the ferry will be even greater on me

at the end of the day, he left my house

it didn't feel like it was 1pm before 7pm tonight to work back at the disco, I went out to find extra work

just realized by me turned out to decide education at a young age is a mistake, at the time I needed a job rata² they were looking for educated women ,while I after graduating high school did not continue my education prefer to open my own business, which is opening piano lessons

I walked to a standstill in a rice stall, my stomach was hungry again too, but the appetite had not yet come to me ,but I have to make it hard to eat something even if it's just a bite so that I don't get sick anymore 'if I get sick then I can't work and fulfill the dream of the ferry

at the rice stall I stopped and bought a rice spring with fried fish on top of it ,I only ate a few mouthfuls after her au feel nauseous and dizzy because it forced her to enter when there I have no appetite like that

from a distance I actually knew that the fiki didn't go, he was following me

actually if not for the promise that must be kept, I'm willing to be friends with her ,it's just that it was because of his promise to the ferry I guess it was a bit of a force to take care of me

I prefer to be friends sincerely, not because of a promise to someone, I am afraid that because of a promise he will be burdened by me

fiki kept following me, but I didn't pay attention

the rice stall was pretty rame, I heard from the owner of the tavern that his maid's day off because of illness, I initiative offered myself to help them

who knows can add to my income to collect the rest of his money, besides also working at the discotheque there is still about 6 hours left

the tavern boss ended up using me to replace her maid temporarily because there was no one else who could help her because her stall that day was also quite crowded

I do it with great pleasure, without any coercion

it's all for the ferry

even though he's gone, the ferry grew in my heart

he always cools me in my heart, wherever I go he lives in my heart