Sunset Mentions on Paradise Island
Change Without a Cause

But I felt that his self was a little different from the old one, which was so romantic , now turned into a very stiff man

his words were very awkward and stiff, like the one who had met me for the first time

he's like a guy who has a double personality, so I kind of repeat to get to know him again

her changes were very obvious in my eyes, but I could only wonder in my heart

tonight I stayed at his house , I told him that I would come back five days later, I do not want to rush² back home because my longing for him has not been completely lost

he just said that I could stay there as long as I wanted

the house is big, like no ordinary person

then I interrupted her talk, saying why wait three more years to propose to me, not if my age was enough to establish a household with her,moreover, I see her now has a very clear job , like her position was not main²

but he just smiled, not answering my question

I was very surprised at her, when I was with her in the inner hometown to the lonely existance of both in one room for sure she would be very romantic on me ,but now in to a border like this he was very indifferent to me

I wonder if he doesn't love me anymore

I did not dare to ask him, fear he will be angry at me, then he instead encouraged me to leave, maybe he was upset with his work this late² is so tiring

On that night , after I tidied up my barang² in the guest room , I saw him lying on the sofa in front of the tv like thinking of something ,I tried to get close to her and sat next to her to talk and make out with her just like before

then I clasped her hand, soft kiss her fingers

her strange cheek scalis flushed, her palms heated up, as her blood boiled

Then he threw my hand out, as if he was making out with me for the first time

she went to her room and left me alone in the tv room

I tried to hold back his footsteps, but he still left

I asked² in my heart ,why he so , just maybe the end of this² he was in the sport with his work that made him become upset

he sat down slowly eating the breakfast I made for him

his attitude was cold, no longer praising my cooking, now he turned into a little talking, and a little smiling, but often frowning

I told her that it was my best breakfast after five months of not meeting her, during those five months I didn't eat well because I was always thinking about her,often even get sick

but he remained indifferent, at that time if he heard I was not feeling well at all he immediately drove me to the doctor to check my health

this time it was different, he just nodded with a bland smile, and his conversation was so sloppy

after she finished eating her breakfast, she said goodbye to me to go to work

before he went to work I put his hand on him, got his collar on his shirt, and then I kissed his lips gently

I did that first to take the initiative so that he returned as he had always been friendly to me

he closed his eyes, with very red cheeks but at once he pushed me, saying that I was so presumptuous and disrespectful

I fought him, said why he was like that, not the same as that, how could he say that I was disrespectful, not that we were lovers ,why did he say I was so presumptuous, actually he considered me what

I wonder why, he said that, I feel that now he has changed so much

I can't take it anymore, finally saying everything in my heart, that now it has changed like never before

I said that I miss very much the one who used to always spoil me, who always paid attention to me

now he's right² changed after going across this

I was very surprised again, seeing him so angry at me, by pushing me so hard

I wonder why he turned into such an emotional person

he used to be a very nice person, cheerful, always pampering me, and warm , even if he was angry he would just be silent ,why now he turned into a very emotional , cold , ' person ,and indifferent like that