The Love I Don't Miss
Part 108 (KENZO POV)

My name is Kenzo Adhitama, the eldest of two children. Yes, I only have one sister, she is Gilang Adhitama. The figure of the man who had made an uproar at the wedding of Zio and Zahra.

Apart from the story of Janne yesterday that I can realize that in her heart there is still me, let's talk about me only. About me with a complicated past and it's not easy to go through and it's embarrassing. But everyone has their own destiny line, and it must happen too, right?

Everything that was said in the beginning is true. And here I will tell myself that was not too told at the beginning - the beginning of this novel.

Me, Kenzo Adhitama is not the lead in this novel. Unless I appear in the middle of the episode as someone who helps the female lead. It was as if I was a hero to the female lead, who was now my wife.

So I did have a close and quite important role for the female lead. Then cleverly I took the hearts of many readers about my presence. They don't know what I've done.

Now I don't know, I'm confused where I should start my story, all about my life that was told yes it was like that.

But if you want to know the full story of me that came along in the middle of the episode, let's start with my friendship with Janne, then continued with my first meeting with the figure of Calina Agasta who stole my attention. Until I established him as a wife and mother to my children.

Janne and I have been friends since we sat on the bench of Kanak - Kanak Park. At that time I only considered Janne as a friend with one other male friend. And from my friendship with Janne, it continued with the friendship of Mama Nuritha and Aunt Nayra who indeed drove us to school every day, even waiting for us until we returned to school.

From childhood I considered Janne to be my best and closest female friend. But who would have thought the more we age, he began to show an attitude that should not be done by a friendly relationship between men and women.

Care, it has to be. As friends, we should care about each other, right? But Janne? he cares about me too much, but he doesn't care about other friends.

He chose to get hurt because of me. He brought me lunch every school and so on. And that's just for me, it doesn't apply to other boys' friends. It continued until we were in Senior High School.

On the bench actually I started to get uncomfortable with Janne's attitude which I thought was excessive. Always stick around, and it will make girls who like me deter and back off on their own. Without actual violence, but also not without any action.

Although I know, his attitude shows that the girl has feelings for me, but I remain indifferent. Not that I don't care about him anymore. My time here is about his love for me, because I don't want to destroy friendship with a single word of love.

When he graduated from school, he first expressed his love for me. And the first time I refused it. And our relationship remains close. Because what I refuse is his love, not the friendship we built since childhood.

In order to avoid her love from growing on me, I decided to study in Australia, my grandmother's home country. Incidentally there is a company there that does need me or Gilang to manage it.

Janne was going to come with me, go to Aussie majoring in Designer like her dream. Although I know, the main goal is to get back close to me. Of course I can't say no, but I don't want to either.

Lucky at that time his parents did not allow, because it coincided with his father was sick. The mother does not want her children to go too far. And luckily, until the day I told you Janne's father was still in the world with Janne and her family.

As I said, Janne has deep wounds or injuries that are difficult to heal due to helping me. Don't ask how guilty I feel about her, because I wanted to cry when I saw Janne's pelvic X-ray. Which bone itself shifted because it helped me. And cracks in some parts.

I don't know, even if it was all Janne did for me, I still couldn't accept Janne as someone more than my best friend said. Even as Janne moaned at the Hospital outside the city due to the injury. My heart remained untouched by the love Janne gave me.

The blonde-haired girl with the length of a boat that I was guarding at the VIP Class Hospital at that time was Janne. My dear friend, but I do not love. I just love and appreciate his presence. Honey doesn't mean love, does it?

My love for him is pure affection and care as a friend. Not to have each other. And I took care of him 24 hours when it was my responsibility, because he was hurt while helping me.

You certainly remember about the Hospital outside the Capital I was referring to. Yep! The hospital where I met Calina and found out how complicated Calina's position was in the life of my employee, Zio Alvaro. Until Zio cheated in the office.

Now, let's turn to the sweet figure, which I know is beautiful is pure real, without artificial sweeteners or plastic surgery. She was my wife, the village girl I loved half to death. It taught me to love and be faithful. It is also a life as it is.

That night, I decided to take a walk on the motorbike to enjoy the night air after returning from the Aussie. I can't get on the bike anymore by my parents. But I was desperate to buy a silent motorbike, and I kept it in the parking lot of the apartment.

If you have gone to take a motorcycle, my lifestyle also I go with the motorbike I wear. Simple life alias and what it is. My bike is pretty big. I bought a bell for a good price in class.

I intend to stop at one of the simple coffee shops on the outskirts of the road. I'm used to doing all of that when I'm busy motoring.

But before I got off my red bike, I had a chance to look ahead. And I saw a girl pushing her bike, and the next second she seemed to stop pushing, and then sit on the sidewalk.

With all my humility, and leaving the Adhitama appendage attached to my name, I certainly did not hesitate to approach the exhausted-looking girl.

I was surprised, why of the many riders no one approached to help him?

It was as if the girl was invisible to their eyes, when at first glance they were not blind. Because some riders just see it or just pass it. It was already midnight and the capital was never empty.

From the way he rubs the sweat, I think he's pushed the bike too far. Finally I approached the girl and asked her address.

And from that first meeting, I never forgot what that pretty girl's face looked like. A natural face I've never seen before.

Or maybe it's a lot but I never pay attention around?

I don't know, what's clear to me is that the girl who claims to be Calina is different. But the girl's face was clearly drawn in my memory. I can't forget to see him again. I firmly believe that.

The one that was my problem at the time... It turns out he's married! And I hate that fact.

But it turns out that good destiny is on my side. The company birthday party that I was actually very lazy to come, finally I came because of the coercion of Mama. Moreover, I have not been serving a year as CEO at Adhitama Group. This is a good time to introduce yourself to employees directly. I don't like interacting with a lot of people.

In the company, it was only the officials I spoke to. It's just about work, not personal. It is up to a lot of subordinates who do not like my way like this.

Back at the party that night. I stepped in with my parents into the hall that was used for the company party. It is located on the third floor of the Adhitama Group building.

When I stepped on the red carpet to get to my desk, it was common for employees to greet us by standing on the edge of the carpet. But at that time there was one person who made me take my eyes off the front. He was clearly visible by the tail of my eye.

Yes, even though my eyes are always straight ahead, but my tail never comes out of observing around. I can still watch it through my eyes. Even those who are dossier-kuk are always visible to me.

But I'm me, I don't care much about what other people talk about. Even if it's a phrase if they don't like me, I don't care.

The one who made me turn my head was the girl I helped that night, Calina. A girl who has married. I never looked at anyone, but I couldn't help but look at Calina.

Back then, my heart was pounding very hard, yet I was very good at covering all with a cold aura on my face that seemed to have been thick. Even when our eyes met for the second time. I don't seem to have any feelings for him. That smart I covered my feelings.

The face that had been vividly drawn in my mind for the past few times, was again visible in front of my eyes. She looked so beautiful that night. It was lucky that the man had it, I thought.

But what is he here for?

Or... Her husband works in this office?

My mind wanders with questions that I have not yet found answers to.

And for a moment I was surprised, when I saw the man who was standing closest to him was Zio Alvaro. A name I know very well as General Manager of my family's company. I really didn't expect that girl to be Zio's wife.

And I was more and more shocked when the party clock ended. Calina and Zio were still in front of the lobby, not coming home because Zio was drunk. Behind my indifference and indifference at that time, I was actually dealing with Calina. For that I asked my personal driver to drive him home.

If it's another employee, of course I don't care if they turn over, whatever. Who told you to get drunk until you were unconscious. Troubles his wife.

The fate that I thought would make me live without a partner turned out to be wrong. I, who had never been close to any girl until I was three in the head, found Calina back in the middle of the night in a state of her running away from home.

After our closeness at the Hospital, I increasingly found a wide way to get to know Calina further.

Without a second thought, I just took him to the apartment I rented. Before there was a land crocodile like Zio who caught it.

It was the dirtiest thought I ever had. But all for what?

Yes, of course now you all know the reason!

A soul in God's hands. I'm just trying to get. Got it good. If it fails already. You cannot be too disappointed in God's will.

Time passed, Calina who wanted to divorce her husband, as if a fresh breeze for me who was still at home this single. I don't hesitate to pay expensive lawyers though. The important thing is that Calina's goal, which is my silent goal, is easily achieved. That is, Calina and Zio get divorced, then Calina gets widowed.

Wicked! what a evil thought I have! Also very sneaky. Forgive me, Lord... But as I said in the beginning, I don't care what others say about me.

And maybe this can be used as a lesson for all of you. Never tell your household problems with the opposite sex. Because if your confiding friend is a silent person - silent likes you, he will not make you think logically. It leads you to the abyss of farewell. Then he caught it himself.

Forgive yourself for what turned out to be so bad. But I can't not do it. It all just happened. Moreover, after all this time we met every day, I realized that I loved Calina very much.

I purposely never said love to Calina, nor did I ever offer Calina a marriage. Because I'm worried that Calina is considered to be asking to separate from Zio because I already have me who is considered Calina's affair.

Especially after knowing if it turns out Calina is pregnant. Can - can people will assume if it is the result of cheating on me.

Nah! I don't want Calina at such a bad grade.

All I have to do is keep Calina under my watch. So that no one else approached him. Including asking Clarice to call me Daddy. So if it's outside, people will assume that Clarice is really my son, and Calina is my wife.

You know, how grateful I am when so many people say Clarice looks a lot like me? I was so happy even though that little girl wasn't my masterpiece with Calina.

Even so, I love Cla very much with all my heart. I don't even hesitate to join the night if Baby Clarice fusses at midnight. And since the baby, he often sleeps with me. Maybe that's what makes Clarice have my face line. There was no blood flowing in her body.

The older Clarice gets. From the first day he was born I always took the time to hold and pet him after work. Until Clarice's first birthday. Birthdays in the title are simple by inviting the nuclear family only. No exception I asked both my parents to come.

It was at Cla's first birthday that I proposed to Calina officially. Asking her to be my wife, and mother to my children. And I promise to be a good father to Cla.

Obstacles and obstacles before the wedding day are always there. But I always managed to convince Calina that everything would be fine. And we'll stay together no matter what.

Even Janne, I try to stay away from me. I did a search about the best treatment for my childhood best friend. Until I finally found a good recommendation. One of the hospitals in America.

Luckily Janne who I knew loved me didn't turn down my offer. Even if it's like throwing Janne away or throwing her away, I don't care. I want Calina to calm down, and I also want Janne to heal as she is. So that my guilt does not continue to haunt the desire of Janne who always told me love.

I don't know where she knows if I hid Calina in one of the apartments in the same building as ours.

Whatever he knows about me and Calina, I'm relieved when he's ready to go. And when he didn't come back for a long time, I was confused. Why did I arrive - arrived like I didn't care about him. He has not been back to Indonesia for five years.

Leaving Janne, one thing that makes Calina always think again is, she thinks that we have different degrees. I never cared about that.

Two months later I brought Calina, Clarice and Mama Shinta to Aussie. My only goal is to marry Calina in the Kangaroo country. In order not to be sniffed by the media, also for the convenience of Calina who was not ready to appear before Zio.

Marriage in Aussie is also not so lively, because Calina who refused to marry in a luxurious way.

I don't care about the festivities all I want is for Calina to be happy with me. Whatever he wants, I'll try to do.

One by one our life stories, we went through as told. We lived happily, until I finally had my biological son from Calina. Then Clarice finally had two pairs of parents.

Time passed, and now our son will be three. One girl and two boys.

Our lives continue. We are happy with what happened. Everything seems to have its own values, lessons and philosophy.

Our third child was born at Gilang and Kayla's wedding in a very luxurious title by Papa and Mama, both in Indonesia and in Australia.

When Gilang and Kayla's party was over, my wife was heartbroken and ready to give birth to our third child.

The second by second we went through while waiting for our third child to be born, was a thrilling time. Every second we always pray that Mother and child are all healthy and safe.

Until the cry of a tiny little baby was heard echoing throughout the room. I kissed my wife who was struggling to give birth to our third child. There's no word I can say. Only these tears just dripped.

Our third child is Pradygta Adhitama. We call him Dygta.

This little bit is the short story of our lives being a small family that hopes to always be bestowed with unparalleled happiness and joy.

Greetings from me... Adhitama Kenzo.

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