The Love I Don't Miss
Part 44 (I Will ... )

Leaving the Hospital with mixed feelings. Calina's heart was like the impact of millions of meteor rocks from the sky. Not his will, but God's will.

Sitting in the front passenger seat. Calina stared straight ahead, piercing through the thick clear glass, with only occasional flashes.

His lips were unable to say words, let alone throw words - his usual fastidious sentences made Kenzo upset himself.

Yes, only a few months to get to know each other, Kenzo can already recognize that Calina is actually a chatty and talkative girl.

He was silent all along not because he was quiet. Except for having a husband who does not want to recognize himself well. The cold husband made her freeze in the atmosphere. So that he cannot express his true self.

Calina recalled what the Obstetrician had said in the examination room earlier. When a tool called Transducer moves slowly on the surface of the skin of his stomach that still looks flat.

"Congratulations, Madam... Miss Calina is pregnant!"

Calina closed her eyes deeply, when she heard the words the Doctor said. It felt like he jumped down from the patient's bed and did not continue the examination. Then run as far away as possible, to end up dropping himself off the top of a steep cliff.

But his instincts said, all that he would not be able to do easily. Killing an innocent baby is an unforgivable sin. After all, ending a life is not the best solution to solving a problem.

How does your mom feel in the village?

What if the Creator rejects his presence in the Hereafter?

Calina froze with mixed feelings.

"Madam's gestational age is 16 weeks and in good health!" the doctor said again with a friendly smile.

The words of the Doctor made Calina recall that night. The most horrible night he's ever had. Last night before both of her parents had an accident.

He wants to hide, but it feels free. It won't make him feel calm. Or reduce the problem.

After checking, the doctor immediately cleaned the remaining gel in Calina's stomach. Quickly Calina lowered her clothes because she did not want Kenzo to see the open part of her stomach longer.

Kenzo looked at the two women with his arms wrapped around each other in front of his chest. His eyes were flat but very intimidating. Of course Calina felt very embarrassed and nervous. Although Kenzo doesn't look at all perverted or anything like that.

I don't know what's on that guy's mind. What is clear is that Kenzo did not speak at all, after snapping at one of the Doctors at his Hospital.

Back to the cold atmosphere in the car that is getting longer and more quiet. There was no conversation, or even the sound of music kicking from the sound in the car.

"Why you?" asked Kenzo to take a quick look. Try to dilute the atmosphere with small talk, if possible.

"Hem?" calina replied also turning Kenzo a glance. But he doesn't really have the right answer to Kenzo's question. His gaze was even blank as he turned to Kenzo.

"Why silence?" Kenzo clarified the question.

"I'm just confused..."

"Why?"

Sighing heavily, "Can I possibly raise this child alone?" calina replied muttering. "I am a kara in this town. No husband gives me a living! While if I work, who's gonna take care of this kid?"

"If I go home, what can I do there? I can't depend on Mama who just relies on Papa's retired money." he muttered continuously. "I also can't garden like Mama... Finding a job is hard. And what I fear the most...."

"What?"

"If I stay in the village, Mas Zio will come at any time! Then he'll see there's a child between us! Then what will he do! What if he took my son by force? Or even make this child a tool for him to ask for a referral? I don't want to!"

He continued to unravel various questions that seemed to be clogged in his mind since then.

While Kenzo still faithfully put up an ear to hear every complaint Calina. He let the girl untangle the complicated thread in her life right now.

"Stop calling me 'Sir!' my ears are so uncomfortable hearing that word!"

Calina opened her eyes, and glanced to the right. Staring at Kenzo through the tail of his eyes with a glance filled with question marks and wonder.

"Then what do I call you?"

"Yes..." Kenzo seemed to think. What was the right call for her from Calina? "Anything from sir, Father! I'm not your boss! Enough of your ex-husband to call me 'Sir' got it?"

"What's the right call?" calina Mumbles. "Sister? but we're not brothers!" muttered. "Mass?" calina asked looking at Kenzo who was focused on looking straight ahead. He observed the face of the Indonesian-Australian blaster carefully.

Unaware of Calina, when he mentioned the word Mas, Kenzo seemed misbehaved. And keep a red hue on his handsome face.

"Huhahah!" gelak Calina later. "Your face is a little bule, which is worth calling Mas!" calina chuckled.

"Damahihi!" Calina continues to giggle at the thought of calling Kenzo Mas.

"Mas Kenzo? Ahahahahaha!" calina's gelak is getting tighter. "It's funny! Ahaha!" calina's laughter was unbearable, so I had to hold her stomach which was aching from excessive laughter.

Truly, just this time Calina was seen laughing. The past year was a life full of wounds that obliterated his smile.

Kenzo was upset that Calina was laughing so hard. Thankfully in the car. Only the two of them heard. If in a public place, Kenzo will certainly silence Calina's mouth as much as possible. Or even put duct tape in his mouth.

But when he glanced at Calina through the tail of his eyes, another sigh flowed within the deepest recesses of his heart. Consciously or not, there is something that he does not want to interpret.

When he saw Calina laughing after his confusion earlier, Kenzo felt relieved. At least the girl could let go of her anxiety even if it was only for a moment.

"Happy?" kenzo asked as Calina's laughter began to shrink and almost disappeared.

"Hehe! Pardon me! Because it's so funny!" calina answered trying her best not to blow her laughter back.

"Don't think about work!" kenzo. "I'll be in charge of that kid!"

...🪴 Happy Reading 🪴...

Eng ing - eng ....

Kira - think how Kenzo is responsible for the child in Calina's womb?

God can easily turn a human heart back. What we think is impossible becomes possible.

Seperi love...

We don't know when it's coming... We also don't know who the feelings will be.

But what about the parable...

How does your back miss the moon?

Can the back reach for the Moon?

Can those who are ordinary achieve the extraordinary?

Wait for the story of Calina and Kenzo in the next episode .... 🥰

Greetings, Lovallena 😘