The Love I Don't Miss
Part 24 (Two Names)

Dawn has greeted the Hospital area. The sound of the morning prayer rumbles, waking the eyes that are still asleep in sleep and beautiful dreams.

Calina blinked her eyes. I can never sleep comfortably every night. Because the bed is made up of chairs, and everyone passes by, instinct says the person must turn to him. Making sleep can not be sound.

He opened his eyes open, the first thing he saw was Zio who was still sleeping in a chair sebrang. Heads down, hands wrapped around each other in front of the chest.

Calina got out of the chair, before going to the mosque she took the time to look at the mother-in-law in the ICU room.

"Is there no sign yet of Mama coming to her senses, Sus?" ask Calina pas the Sister who is watching.

"No, ma'am." replied Sister, feeling sad. He knew how tired someone would be to stay in the hospital for 24 hours.

Calina went to the musholla to perform the morning prayers. Then back to Zio who was still asleep.

"Mas, it's morning. Don't you have to work?" calina slapped Zio's arm.

Instantly Zio gasped, rubbing several times his eyes that still felt sticky. Look to the left right to awaken further. He looked at the time on the clock that was coiled around his left wrist.

"Fifth hour?" mumbled wailing.

"Yes, Mom!" calina Sahut. "Journey to the office from here is over an hour, isn't it?"

"Hem.." replied Zio turned Calina who was sitting on the chair. "I'll take a shower at the office!"

"Not change clothes?" ask Calina.

"Naura brought a change of clothes for me."

"Oh!" answer Calina flat.

Calina turns on her phone, puts a face on Zio who stands up and walks into the ICU room. Looks like a farewell.

***

The hour hand kept turning, Calina took a shower in the Hospital bathroom after Zio left. Then breakfast and now he was just busy with a cell phone after checking his mother-in-law's condition.

Her thumb was agilely dancing on top of her flat object screen. Move up, down, then press - squeeze something. Until he goes into one of the photo and vidio sharing apps.

He remembered two names that still stuck perfectly in his memory. Two names he knew a while ago. Yeah, Kenzo and Gilang.

On a whim he entered Kenzo's name first in the app's user search link. Quite a lot of Kenzo's name appears on his phone screen.

"Kenzo Reza's... Alfian Kenzo... Kenzo who is he?" muttered. "There are no photos that look like him!" his grunts looked at Kenzo's name one by one.

He opened one by one account without a profile photo of someone's face. Until he found an account with the name @kenz_1 with a profile picture of Sydney Harbour Bridge.

Given that Kenzo previously lived in Australia, he believes the account belongs to someone he was looking for.

Taps!

He touched the name, and the signal immediately showed the homepage that had the name. Calina shifted the screen straight down. To find the account owner's photo.

But all he found was photos of natural beauty. There is only one photo that shows the owner. A photo of a 5-year-old child standing behind a baby lying on a table.

"It looks like this is his account." he murmured softly.

After being sure to find Kenzo's account, Calina changed the name in the account's search link. He typed Gilang's name there.

A photo of a man with black eyes, with a white hat standing on the beach, shows the beauty of the beach in the profile photo of the owner of the account.

Although the photo of the person is small, Calina can recognize the body's gesture. Very similar to Kenzo's posture. Moreover, his name is very familiar.

Soon he opened an account name with the name @gilang_adhitama.

"Truly similar!" he said softly after observing the number of photos on display. "Excise also seems to be this Gilang.." he muttered with a funny smile.

Various poses are real on the screen. From cool, cool, macho to hilarious poses are there.

"It looks like they have different personalities!"

Again - again Calina made chuckle by posts Gilang. Various reels appeared there.

Until Calina fell silent on one post. Yes, the same post as the one on @kenz_1.

"That means right! Here they are!" said it. "I found you!" he was happy with the restrained cheer. "Lost one question! Who helped me that night?"

Calina thought hard enough. In view of Gilang's post, it is true if they have the same posture. Gilang's post also showed several times he posed on a motorcycle. It just seems to be abroad.

A full day on Calina to find out more about the two names she really wants to know. To find out exactly who helped him that night. To him, the man was an angel whom God had sent for him.

***

The night returned, for the umpteenth time Calina ensured the condition of the mother-in-law. He sat in a chair next to the patient's gurney.

"Ma? if you want Calina to remain your daughter-in-law, wake up." said Calina Lirih. He didn't care if the Sister on duty heard what she said this time.

"Mama must know, what Mas Zio's attitude is really like to Calina." he continued gently rubbing the back of Mama Reni's hand that was not attached to the infusion hose.

"Mama must also know, if Calina is just a disaster for Mas Zio.." he continued increasingly bitter. "Calina's presence only destroys Mas Zio's happiness with someone, Ma..."

Without feeling a drop of clear liquid flowing from his eye fertilizer that has been wet since, without being able to bend again.

"If it wasn't for the two Mama that Calina had, Calina would have left, Ma... Calina's tired... Calina can't take it anymore... Every day Calina tries to get Mas Zio's attention, but what does Calina get?" ask Calina miris. "Just disappointed, Ma.." he continued sobbing.

"Mas Zio never considered Calina's presence. Every day he talks about someone else. Every day that he uploaded always the people he loved." said Calina. "What's wrong with Calina feeling tired?" tanyakanya. "What's wrong if Calina gives up?"

Tears still keep dripping. A few sheets of tosu were already wet in Calina's grasp.

"Calina's just an ordinary woman, Ma.. Calina also wants to be happy.. Calina also wants to feel loved by the man Calina loves..."

"Calina did not regret this match. All Calina regrets is that Calina failed to achieve Mas Zio's love."

"Wake up, Ma.." - Calina. "If Mama wakes up, at least Calina still has a reason to stay with Mas Zio."

Calina's tears are getting worse. I want it to feel like he has a place to confide in like his two Mama. Not only his best friend who knows the life of grief that he has experienced so far.

The sobbing sound that had filled the ICU room, slowly disappeared. Replacing with silence. Because without feeling Calina fell asleep with her head leaning on her arm attached to the patient's bed.

The night was getting late, white-skinned hands creeping on Calina's sleeping shoulders. The girl was tired of crying. Crying over a fate that never lived up to his expectations.

"You deserve to be happy, Calina." said the owner of the hand.

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