The Love I Don't Miss
Part 32 (Pov Zio)

My name is Zio Alfaro, with all my faults for Calina from the first day we got married until I lost both my parents, I will not be forgiven even if I give him a mountain of gold. Moreover, Calina is not a materialistic girl who pursues male possessions.

The most difficult mistake I ever made was the one I made that night. When I was without any excess intention trying to snatch her chastity.

Religion and law, I am entitled to him, right?

It's just that at that time I seemed to force with the aim that no other man could get his holiness other than me, her husband.

Disgustful? Some people will think like that. But what I had in mind was that Calina was my wife at the time. I deserve to be fully himself. All this time I always gave birth to him.

I don't know what thought got into my head. Until I drifted into a union that Calina, my second wife, did not really want.

From that day on, my feelings of guilt for her began to grow. I often think about it in silence. Until the fateful incident befell my parents in the afternoon.

My heart grew increasingly troubled, as he willingly and sincerely guarded my comatose mother in the ICU room. Fight the fatigue of standing guard at the Hospital, until Mama died.

A few days after Mama died, I tried to reconcile with her. There is no better place for me than Calina and Naura. My two wives whose positions I have not been able to match. Although I can't deny it, if Calina starts stealing my attention.

One afternoon, as work was approaching, Naura and I were asked by Mr. Kenzo for a meeting with a client at one of the restaurants in the Mall. After finishing and the client went home, I continued to have dinner with Naura there anyway.

After our dinner ended, I went straight home with a meal for Calina from the restaurant. After taking Naura home of course.

When I got home, my forehead creased. The house is still in complete darkness. Which means there's no life in there.

' Where is Calina? '

I asked in my heart, while opening the gate to enter my car. I lyrics to a watch given by my second wife that I have started wearing often for one month. Time shows at half 10 p.m.

I went inside the house, and turned on the light switch one by one. And yes, the house is completely deserted. Calina was not in her room.

I went to the bathroom and changed clothes. In my heart, I'm sure Calina hasn't come home yet. I decided to go back down after the shower. I turned off all the lights in the basement. And I sat on the couch. Waiting for my second wife who was then out of nowhere.

My heart was upset at that moment. Hopefully when I will go home will be welcomed as before, at the beginning - early we get married. But in fact, he is not at home. By 12pm, Calina had not been seen.

Until I finally heard the sound of Calina's motorbike, and she seemed to enter in a way to settle. And I finally shouted at his arrival.

From that incident, it ended with me kissing her lips forcefully. Not without reason, because actually my instincts began to be interested in kissing the lips of my second wife.

And from Calina's revolting kiss, my passion actually grew. I want to raise him with the same gentleness when I raise Naura.

But the situation says no. Calina was angry because I kissed her forcibly. And scolded him night - night.

The next day, I went down the stairs early in the morning. In hopes of being able to have a casual chat with Calina to discuss the matter overnight. And I'll apologize for all my mistakes. For a year over our marriage.

Preparing myself, even I forgot my hobby of waking up during the day off work.

Tap tap tap!

The sound of my quick footsteps coming down the stairs roared inside my quiet house. And I immediately rushed into the kitchen. I know Calina always gets up early and cooks in the kitchen. Sometimes the smell gets into my room on the second floor.

But what I saw in the kitchen left me stunned for a while. The kitchen looks clean and clean. There are no dishes, former dishes, or any ingredients there. Even those who used to use the kitchen were not there. Everything stays the same as last night.

"Calina?"

Call me in a wiry. I walked towards his room, which was the guest room in my house.

Tok tok!

I knocked on that white door. But there is no answer at all. Three times there was no answer, I finally had to turn the handle and push the door inside.

Slender.. My wife's room looked quiet. Even the lights are still dead. I press the main switch and see what's in there.

Calina's bed looked very neat. Nothing is a mess. I looked at the bathroom door. I came closer, and there was no sound in there. I opened the door and it was empty.

"Where's Calina?"

I asked myself. But my brain can't think anymore. Only one is on my mind right now. Calina left the house.

I turned to Calina's dresser, and sure enough, there wasn't much stuff there. Last time I went into that room, the dresser was full of some makeup tools, even though I knew Calina was not a hobby of makeup like Naura.

Quickly I grabbed the closet door and shifted it. Empty, there are only a few worn out clothes there.

My chest was tight at the time, my mind was not mindless. I'm starting to believe Calina's gone. I'm sure Calina has given up on me who might think she's like a Zombie who just wants to make herself a prey.

"Calina.." - I cried with regret.

I turned the body around, I saw the king-size bed. There, up there I took her chastity. Up there I charmed him solemnly.

Although I used to say that she was not a virgin, I actually knew that she was a virgin. And that night I took it. I acted like a jerk that night.

Regret now remains regret. Calina is gone. Where should I look for him? I don't see the nightstand under the sleeping lights. A piece of white paper was there with a ballpoint pen.

I snatched it right away, I'm sure it was a letter from Calina. I'm sure Calina will leave some news.

Dear Mr. Zio Alfaro...

You know the lotus flower that used to be in the pool of water?

Lotus Flower is ugly.

I am just a lotus flower on the water.

Which moves in the direction of the water takes me.

While you are a white cloud that is always in the blue sky.

It won't be possible, won't the lotus touch the clouds?

If that happens, it's all an illusion.

Imagination without reality.

One more year, this ugly lotus is trying to take your heart, even a tiny bit.

But that year also the ugly lotus got nothing.

Besides the rain being hurt.

Sir, you certainly do not forget, if I ever surrender myself to you one night.

I hope you don't forget!

From that night, sir! Sometimes I still think about staying afloat so that no more men touch this ugly lotus.

But from that very night, I thought, that all was compulsion.

The lotus did not know this self, forcing the white clouds perched in the blue sky to descend and touch it.

Where might it happen.

Right, Mister?

Tonight I weigh in...

I thought hard tonight.

Go or hold?

One thing made me choose to leave.

I remember, if Mr. Zio ever said.

If Papa Raihan and Mama Reni die, then you will throw me away.

Now they're gone.

There's no reason for you to defend our household.

There is no reason to keep fighting.

I will eventually be thrown out...

Goodbye, Mr. Zio...

Congratulations on your perfect life.

May the life of Mr. Zio with Mrs Zio be filled with happiness.

There are no more lotus flowers that become a burden.

No longer want to earn a living born or inner.

I don't know when you'll read this letter

Because I'm sure, Master will never look for me in this guest room.

Clearly, I wrote this letter, coinciding with the Master forcibly kissing me.

I'll make that kiss, as a farewell kiss.

Calina....

The words Calina wrote made my heart collapse.

I, Zio Alfaro, deeply felt, say, I am sorry. I'm sorry to say it all. I regret doing so crazy to Calina.

Rice has become porridge, now he has gone somewhere. I don't know where to start looking for it.

"Fuckin' chalina!" I shouted with glassy eyes.

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