The Love I Don't Miss
Part 28 (Same Disappointment )

The sadness and disappointment that lingered in the chest, making Calina not care about the dark night. He sat alone behind the hospital. Forgot already he will be various horror stories in the Hospital that are widely circulated.

All he wanted right now was to find a quiet place, where he could be content to cry. Putting out all the stuffiness in the chest.

Putting her face between her arms and chest, Calina cried out with a slight hold back. Of course because no one wants to hear his prank.

Even so if he could, he really wanted to scream as loud as he could. Yelling at the world that he thought was not on his side at all. A world that never shared his love.

"Pa... Calina wants to go home." he said softly in the sobbing. "Calina's tired..hiks!"

The soft sound of a sigh was certainly faint - a faint can still be heard from one of the nearby hallways. Although the hallway looked desolate.

"Fetch Calina, Pa... Take Calina with Papa." The crying is getting sliced. "The world is too painful for Calina.hiks!"

The roar upon the patter of tears continued to drench the smooth cheeks of the village flower. Although the tears continued to slide, but it did not seem to reduce the pain in his chest.

The wound was too deep. It won't be that easy to treat. Especially with just words, satisfied crying.

"If Papa knew.hiks.. If Papa knew what Calina was experiencing in the Mas Zio family... Surely Papa will ask Calina to come home.. Just get Calina, Pa... Ask God to take Calina from this Earth..."

A deep sense of disappointment added to despair, and feeling unappreciated, makes anyone might choose to die rather than survive with heartache. Leaving a world full of ruse.

Tears keep dripping. Being a silent witness how much pain a Calina Agasta. Maybe if they could talk, they'd say they'd be tired of being silent witnesses, without being able to testify to the judge.

Until the time showed at 9 p.m., Calina was still daydreaming behind the white walls of the Hospital.

And finally without feeling, his tired eyes fell asleep there. Passed by the rest of the tears that began to dry.

***

"Mas, where is Calina?" naura asked Zio after leaving the ICU Room.

"Either.. I don't know either, honey." replied Zio wailing in the hallway of the Hospital.

"It's impossible if he gets out of the Hospital area, right? It's night." asked Naura to come see - look at the hallway of the Hospital.

Naura sighed, then sat down in the waiting chair. Staring softly at Zio who was still standing looking around.

' Should I stay away from you, Mom? '

Naura's mind is so deep.

' I don't think I can bear to see Calina as she is tormented every day by you! '

' But I love you so much, Mom... '

Naura lowered her head, confused by the circumstances she was facing. Loving the same man is hard enough to get through. But that is one of the risks of loving.

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Time shows at one in the morning. Calina wakes up from her sleep in the back of the Hospital. Looking around very quiet, Calina moved. When the heart was not as crowded as before, it felt he began to be afraid when he realized he was only alone there.

Calina walked into the hallway of the Hospital which led her to the ICU Room. He saw Naura who was sleeping lying on a chair. Zio was lying in the other seat.

There were only two chairs, so he could not find a place to sit or lie there.

Calina stared softly at a husband and wife who made her life unbecoming. Want to be angry, but feel inappropriate. Wanted to leave, but went back to thinking, who would look after her mother-in-law there.

What if at any time the mother-in-law was conscious and looking for her child?

Sad not to wake up from a long coma, and find no one to look after us?

Calina finally chooses to enter the ICU Room. He will sleep as usual. Sitting on a chair, and making his arm as a pillow in the gurney of the patient who occupied Mama Reni.

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Dawn is ready to greet the Earth. Zio woke up at exactly 4 a.m. The first thing he wanted to see was a chair. To see his first wife, Naura Azalea. The woman is still in sleep mode. Still continuing dreams that are either beautiful or ordinary. It could also be a nightmare.

Zio got up, then walked into the ICU room. He found Calina still asleep in the position he had seen before.

Satisfied heart. How sincere Calina is in taking care of her mother. Calina was tired in the hospital. Because keeping someone in the hospital is certainly very tiring, right?

Moreover, there is no bed that is really comfortable like at home.

Zio stepped slowly, his heart trembling every time he saw Calina's beautiful natural face falling asleep. He wants to mean it, but is afraid that it means love.

In his heart, he could love no one but Naura. It was determination within the chest as he intended to marry Naura first. Even his determination when sitting in front of the ruler, and the bride is Calina Agasta.

But now it all feels like a lie. His heart that used to look at Calina with embers, kin always looked at Calina softly.

Stopped right beside Calina, reflex hands raised. Want to form a thick black hair that began to fall apart. Only two inches away, but his hands suddenly stopped. Doubtful to gently rub Calina's head hair.

Finally the hand should wipe the hair, just grasping and lifting. He closed his eyes deep. Don't want anything else to happen. He tried hard to dismiss the strange hissing that was getting stronger.

' She's crying? '

Ask Zio inwardly.

' Why? '

' What happened in the cafeteria? Isn't that common? '

Zio began to feel guilt. Finally the hand that had moved away, now turned around. And really touched the soft back of Calina's head.

' I'm sorry, Calina... Maybe I'm like an angel of death to you.. '

' But I also don't want you to just leave... '

' Sorry... '

Calina's head moved, quickly Zio withdrew his hand and took two steps back. Calina squirms, stretching her muscles - muscles that feel very stiff because of an uncomfortable sleeping position.

He bent his head to the right and left still with his eyes closed. He opened his eyes slightly and was a little surprised when he saw Zio standing at the end of the bed staring at his mother.

Disappointed Calina refused to say hello. He chose to take his phone and check what was inside.

"Cal?"

Zio's voice began to be heard inside the ICU room.

"Hem?" calina answered without looking at her husband.

"You don't want to go home?" ask Zio lirih.

"Are you on holiday?" ask Calina back

"If you're off and willing to keep Mama Reni here, I'll go home!"

"Tomorrow on Saturday, tomorrow I'm off. You can sleep at home for two days." replied Zio.

"Then Naura? You'll let a woman as beautiful as Naura sleep in the Hospital? Sleeping in the hospital is exhausting!" continued Calina with a slightly satirical tone.

"I know!" answer Zio. "Naura will not be coming. He'll take me home! To sleep comfortably."

DUARR!

Hearts that have been broken, as if in a bomb throw. How not to hurt? If he is allowed almost a full week of sleep in the hospital, but Naura is not allowed to sleep in the Hospital during his off days.

' This is unfair! ' cried Calina in heart.

Wanted to cry, but it felt free. Zio would not be sensitive with tears streaming down his cheeks.

"Well, I'll be home tonight, after you arrive!" calina replied reluctant to argue. Especially in the ICU.

Calina came out, letting Zio who seemed to want to interact with her mother.

Outside, Calina found Naura who had woken up. Sitting alone with eyes that seem sleepy.

"Calina?" naura lirih.

"Hi, Ra!" calina answered approaching. "I went to musholla first, yeah!" pamit Calina's. I still feel reluctant to talk.

"Oh. Yeah, Cal!" answer Naura pasrah. He really wants to talk four eyes. But it seems Calina deliberately dodged.

***

Calina exits Musholla after dawn prayers. He chose to sit in front of Musholla instead of having to go back and see a couple making out.

' Can't you just try to love me a little, Mom? '

' I hate and am disappointed in you.. But I thought, there's still heart for me! '

' I was wrong, you will never see my sincerity! '

Calina came back daydreaming, expecting something she thought was very difficult to achieve.

"Why daydream here?"

The sound of barinton made Calina gasp and turn to the source of the voice.

"Sir Kenzo!" calina stood up from her seat.

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