The Regrets of the Child and Husband
PAS 30

As planned, early in the morning Amar had returned home. Since Aliyah fell into a coma, Amar has become more attentive to her children. Even every morning Amar came home early to take care of all the needs of his children including providing breakfast. Although there was his mother at home, but Amar did not immediately give up all household affairs to the mother. Slowly, he began to realize how hard Aliyah's task had been.

Amar returned home before dawn. When he arrived home, he collected dirty clothes and washed them. Amar sighed tired. Washing clothes was not as easy as he thought. There was no washing machine in the house. He washes using his own hands. Just how many days to wash clothes, the palm of Amar's hands was already uncomfortable.

"How can Aliyah do everything herself?"

Had he realized earlier, perhaps everything would not have become like this as he finished every work. Starting from washing clothes, sweeping and mopping the floor, washing dishes and dirty glasses. For breakfast, he would buy at a stall not far from their home. There are various kinds of food ranging from nasi uduk, lemper, risoles, pempek, omelette rolls, bakwan, and others. Amar had no cooking basics so for the food he would buy. But because some days there is his mother at home, then for lunch and dinner his mother is the one who cooks it.

"Am, let the mother bathe Amri and Gaffi. You better get ready soon. It's almost 7 o'clock. Didn't you have to go back to work today" the mother said as Amar was about to reach Amri into her cradle for a bath.

Amar glanced at the clock on the wall, confirming the mother's words.

"Bathing is the same as it used to be, honey. I have to get ready to go to work immediately" Amar told the child. "Abang Gaffi too, son. No papa, right?"

"Anna's mom's dad? Abang Affi hayu's mother," Gaffi's great-grandson with a sad look.

Amar then lowered Amri and grabbed his second child into his arms.

"Mom's still sick, honey. Brother doain mother yes so that the mother will recover soon," said Amar softly while rubbing the cheeks of Gaffi who is not as tender as before. What a tightness Amar felt in his chest. It turns out that the absence of Aliyah not only made him confused, but his children also felt the difficulty. The mother is a lamp in a house. Mother is life in a family. The absence of the mother will make the house feel empty, cloudy, and lifeless. The difference is obvious. Undeniably, Aliyah was the life in their home. He really needs an Aliyah. Not for himself to make babu as before, but to make lamps for his household.

'Awake, Al. Wake up. We needyou. We missed you.'

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Amar has arrived at the office where he worked for almost 10 years. Yes, Amar has devoted himself almost 10 years there. Amar had tried several types of work from minimarket cashier, goods driver, store employee, to warehouse guard, and only in this company he can survive for a long time. Besides because there is a career level, the salary obtained is good.

Amar has started working since he was in college. He could not bear to burden the mother who is a single parent to finance her college.

When asked what about his father?

Did he not give a living at all for his living expenses during this time?

Then the answer is no. Even he just disappeared after his mother sued for divorce because it was found to have been duplicitous with his own coworkers.

Amar was only 13 years old, while his sister Amara was only 10. His mother was widowed. So ruthless. Amar and Amara hated their father. Somehow now, they don't know and don't want to know at all.

Amar entered the office with a cold face. There was no smile on Amar's lips.

Amar sat his ass down on his desk chair. He immediately turned on the computer to see a list of jobs he might have to do.

Seeing Amar's whereabouts, Budi and Nafisa are shocked. But in an instant they changed their facial expressions. Just act ordinary, as if they accidentally came together.

"Mas, you've come in again. Mercifully. You know, our division feels very quiet because of your absence," said Nafisa enthusiastically. Don't forget his big smile as if so happy to see Amar's whereabouts.

"Fisa's right, Mar. Ah, you know, I'm really troubled because you're on leave. Almost all of your workers were poured into me. I was also involved in several meetings with clients. It feels good to meet clients as well. Especially if the meeting in a fancy restaurant, really fun," said Budi happy.

Suddenly Amar turned with eyes squinting. But in an instant that gaze he turned into a happy twinkle. He pretends to be happy with what he is doing.

"Well, looks like someone's going to step up!" amar said with a big smile.

I can't cover her happiness. Amar's absence in the company turned out to be so profitable. He began to be trusted especially after giving a report that the boss wanted. The result is very satisfying to make the boss so give confidence to him to take part in several meetings.

"Mas Amar kok from earlier cuekin me anyway?" nafisa sulks with pursed lips.

"Ah, yes, sorry. How are you, Sa? Sorry, I never responded to your messages or your phone. You know, I'm really busy. Since Aliyah was in a coma, I have to do everything myself. Including the children's business. This is a good thing there are mothers who defend staying at home so they can help keep the children. If there is no mother, somehow with the fate of the children."

Nafisa's expression instantly changed grimly, "sorry Fisa's still childish nature huh, Mas. Mas anyway, should have told Nana to be able to behave like before to Fisa. Fisa is willing to take care of them. Uh, they're like that. Fisa believes that Mas's son became an enemy of Fisa because of Nana's influence. Mas should be able to convince the children to be able to nerima Fisa. Fisa is happy to keep them in a coma" Nafisa tried to convince Amar while seeking sympathy.

Amar smiled faintly making Nafisa's cheeks instantly blush.

"I don't want to repot you, Sa. Moreover, taking care of the child is not easy. I just found out about the kid's affairs apparently serepot it. Sometimes eating is hard. Just wanted to eat, uh the kids yelled to get a pup, climb the window, I swear the water, play soap. Anyway really bother. I even salute Aliyah, all this time she always takes care of everything with her own two hands. Although sometimes complaining to make me angry, now I realize his complaint was only to share the story. He did not demand that I intervene to help him. Just want to be heard. That'sthat's all. But I foolishly ignored it."

Amar's face changed.

I don't know why Nafisa was upset by Amar's talk about Aliyah. There was a sense of gratitude when Amar seemed to praise Aliyah so much.

"His name is also a mother. It's his responsibility to take care of everything" Nafisa's responsibility accordingly. But his tone sounded a little shaky. Amar can feel it.

If he were the old Amar, he would have justified it. But now it's not. He was upset when Nafisa said whatever she wanted.

Fortunately, the working hours began. Everyone is busy with their own work. But when he was about to do his work, Amar's forehead frowned. Some of the data on his computer was lost. Amar believes someone has sabotaged his computer.

Amar was confused, he had to start investigating from where. Want to request a cctv recording of that room with the company's IT team, unfortunately can not. Everything must be according to the instructions of the superior. Without his permission, no one may request the company's cctv footage. Amar clenched his hands. Looks like someone really wants to drop him in that company. When asked who, he only suspects one person.

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