The Regrets of the Child and Husband
PAS 45

"Assalamu'alaikum" said Amar interrupted the cries of both mother and child. Actually Amar has been standing in the doorway since a few minutes ago, but he does not want to disturb the heartwarming moment between mother and child. He also shed tears when he saw a scene that could crush the heart of anyone who saw it.

"Wa'alaikumussalam," said Aliyah and Nana in unison with a nasal voice and a little hoarse typical of someone who had finished crying.

Amar immediately took off his shoes and put them in place. If in the past he always put anything out of place so that Aliyah had to bother to clean it up, then since Aliyah was sick, Amar began to take care of nothing himself. Do it well according to what Aliyah often does.

It turned out that the pain of Aliyah gave its own wisdom to Amar. Starting from realizing his mistakes so far, his mistakes, his love that turned out to be intact for the perfect woman of his life, and how to bother and exhaust the duties of a mother and wife.

After putting down his shoes, Amar immediately walked up to Aliyah and Nana. Then he thrust his hand at Aliyah. With a reluctant face, Aliyah greeted the hand and kissed the back of her hand. Although hateful, but he does not want to exemplify something that is not good in front of his children. Remember, the first madrassa of a child is his parents, especially his mother, so as much as possible Aliyah will set a good example. Although the character of children is not necessarily formed from the family environment, because the outside environment is also an important factor forming the character of children, the, but at least he has tried his best to set a good example for his children.

After the back of his hand was kissed, without any awkwardness let alone timid meow and prestige, Amar dyed Aliyah's forehead long enough. Looking for opportunities in narrow-mindedness. If not in front of the children, his wife would not want to. This is all Aliyah has been throbbing. Luckily Aliyah did not get angry and hit him. Although it doesn't matter if he wants to do it. Amar will willingly accept the blow after the blow that woman gives.

After that, Amar took turns to extend his hand to Nana. Soon Gaffi and Amri ran into his father's arms.

"Abang, adek, later ya! I just got home from work, this smell. Uh, dad's son hasn't had a bath yet? Take a bath with dad yuk!" invite Amar who was greeted by the happy cheers of his children.

"You, Dad, want to. Yeay .. " cried the two boys Aliyah and Amar.

Unknowingly Aliyah smiled. He had been waiting for a moment like this for a long time. Since a long time ago, even since Amri was present, Amar became more indifferent to his children. It makes Gaffi and Amri ride no one close to his father.

But the scenery this time successfully made Aliyah smile full day. Especially when he saw the father and son walking towards the room while telling a story. More precisely Amar who listened to the two boys chattering ria.

Suddenly Amar whispered to Gaffi. Gaffi immediately turned his body to face his mother, "Mom, would you like to join Brother just as adek bath baleng no? bial father all bathe," exclaimed Gaffi made Aliyah's eyes glare sharply. Meanwhile, Amar seemed to smile at Aliyah's adorable expression.

Ah, had he never played crazy or behaved as he wished, it was certain that his current household would be very happy. Have a beautiful, gentle, and caring wife. Beautiful and handsome children are also slipping away. But regret is free. This is life, full of trials and trials. But for sure, Amar will always try to fix what he had damaged.

Although during the illness, Amar was the one who helped him to take a bath, but still he felt awkward and embarrassed.

Since then, Aliyah noticed how Amar was so painstaking in taking care of Gaffi and Amri. Despite the two boys acting out, Amar seemed to be so patient in treating the two of them. Amar not only helps to bathe, but also helps both of them to dress.

Indeed, Aliyah was quite surprised by what Amar did because as long as they were married, Amar never wanted to take care of such things. When Nana was born, Amar only helped as necessary. Luckily Naima's mother with light hands to help Aliyah take care of little Nana because Aliyah's health has not really recovered. But when Gaffi was born, Aliyah was completely alone. Because at the same time, Amara, Amar's sister was pregnant. She could not be left so after giving birth, she immediately did her job alone. And so was Amri born. In fact, his problems many times because he handled not only Amri, but also his two brothers, Nana and Gaffi.

There was a sense of haru enveloping Aliyah's chest when she saw that scene. A sight he had long been waiting for.

"Al .." call Amar.

"Ah, i-iya," replied Aliyah, because she was busy daydreaming.

"What are you daydreaming about, hm?" asked Amar who was already crouching in front of Aliyah.

"I-I'm not daydreaming about anything" said Aliyah.

Suddenly Amar clasped one of Aliyah's hands while looking at her gently, "i know, you're watching me and the kids right?" her question could be guessed from Aliyah's gaze. "I just realized, the task of taking care of the child is not only the duty of a mother, but also her father. All this time I feel my duty is enough to make a living and give up all household duties to the children to you. I've always judged the work of a wife and housewife to be easy. I always scolded you, pressured you, blamed everything on you, really, I was a cruel and heartless man. Housework is heavy. More about taking care of the kids. I should have contributed to every household affair, not necessarily giving up everything to you. I'm sorry, Al. Really, I am a heartless fool. We've been married for a dozen years, but never once have I helped ease your work. What I have is just troubling you. Really, I ... really feel guilty. I am an irresponsible husband. I am a cruel husband. I'm a cruel husband. I'm .. a jerk's husband. I deserve to be hated. I don't deserve you to forgive. Hate me, curse me, if you need to hit me as much as you. I accept. I don't matter. As long as one .. never leave me again. Don't leave me. I beg. Stay by my side. My law for the rest of your life until my life is uprooted from my body. I don't matter."

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