The Regrets of the Child and Husband
PAS 7'S

The more days of the closeness of Amar and Nana with Nafisa increasingly become. Even as routine, Amar always take Nafisa to his contract. Not infrequently they spend the afternoon until late evening together. Obviously, this raises Aliyah's suspicion on her husband.

"Mas, where are you going?" aliyah asked the husband who was combing her hair. The smell was so stinging that it came out of the husband's body. This obviously raised Aliyah's suspicions. Her husband's daily behavior alone has sparked her suspicions, especially with his current behavior. Not only because her husband looked so neat and fragrant, but also because it was a holiday. If usually Amar just spend his day off with a lie while playing his mobile phone or watching television, then this time he was just getting ready to go.

Amar, who was humming while combing his hair neatly, suddenly fell silent. Then he glanced flatly at Aliyah who appeared to be wearing her robe. There was a split question mark as to why Aliyah was now always wearing her loose clothes and hijab despite being at home, but the question was not thrown from her mouth at all. He chose indifferently and resumed his activities.

"Mas, did you hear me?" ask Aliyah again. As much as possible he spoke softly so as not to ignite the debate.

Amar clucked bitterly, "can't you really not go to my business?" delik Amar is upset.

"Astaghfirullah, Mas, why did his wife even say kepo? I forgot, I'm your wife. I have a right to know where and with whom you want to go" Aliyah said, shaking her head. She was completely inexhaustible with her husband's current behavior. The more the day, the stranger. Even their relationship is now bland. There was no warmth at all. It felt like Aliyah wanted to give up the situation, but ..the thought of the fate of her children made her try to continue to survive.

Amar slammed his comb violently and then snorted.

"I want to go with my friend, why?" ketus answer.

"With Fisa?" shoot Aliyah unable to hold back her curiosity anymore.

Amar looked quickly with wide eyes. His heart was somehow suddenly beating violently. There was a speck of worry undermining his nerves, but it was quickly pushed away from the taste.

"If so, why?"

"Mas, who is he? Why do you spend so much time with him? Even you're involving Nana in it. What do you think of me, Mas?" ask Aliyah lirih. As much as possible he could bear the rumbling in his chest. He could not deny, the pain was really stifling his heart and soul. Her fragile soul became even more devastated knowing her husband would spend the day with another woman.

"He's my friend" replied Amar indifferently while taking his car keys. Then Aliyah quickly held Amar's hand making the man who was just about to open the door immediately stop his movement.

"Mas, you know, this isn't true. You're married. Do you want to cheat?"

"Would I cheat or not, it's none of your business. Blame yourself for not pulling in my eyes anymore. Look, your appearance, really ... " Amar clucked.

Hearing that scornful phrase again coming out of her husband's lips made Aliyah's heart an immeasurable fairy. But Amar could not understand a little of his position. It doesn't want to be like this, but it's all done alone. Not to mention the really mediocre finances make it have to rack the brain so that everything is enough. Even for the sake of meeting daily needs, Aliyah secretly took the wages to wash clothes of her neighbors. Aliyah hush. She didn't tell her husband at all. She was worried that her husband was angry and scolded her.

His worries made Aliyah choose silence. The head becomes the feet, the feet the head, whatever he does to make his family happy. Ignoring pain, fatigue, and sleepiness. Even Aliyah was willing to tie her stomach as long as her children could eat nutritious and full food. She also did not have time to take care of herself in order to prioritize her children and husband.

However, if all his sacrifices were reciprocated by double, how could Aliyah bear it?

If as long as he is ignored he can still survive, but if duaakan, then the collapse is all he wants.

Pain in the body can be treated, but pain in the heart? Aliyah could not resist.

"Mas, please don't go! No ... I beg!" melas Aliyah with tears that can not be dammed. Aliyah bit her lips while enduring the pain in her soul and body. The pain in his head that is increasingly becoming more and more creeping. Not to mention the pain in his stomach that affected his breath became tight.

Instead of complying with the wife's request, Amar grabbed Aliyah's wrist and let go. Afterwards, he left without a care for Aliyah's body which had sagged to the floor.

Aliyah's crying broke. Heart's broken. Her husband no longer cared about her.

Aliyah's head looked up, staring at the ceiling of the room that was blurry in her vision.

"O Allah, to whom else have I complained but You. O Allah, I beg you, strengthen me. Strengthen my heart. Give me patience. And ... save my household."

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Amar was in his car. I don't know why seeing Aliyah's face made her heart not calm. Like there's something different.

Amar stared at his palm, "why do I feel like Aliyah's wrist is bigger than usual? If his body is fat, it may be natural. But this ... I noticed, her body is getting thinner?" Amar muttered alone while pensively as the red light flashed. Make the car stop for a while. Until suddenly the call on his mobile phone broke his daydream. Looking at the name on her phone screen, Amar smiled. His heart momentarily changed. A big smile fell on his lips as the melodious voice across the phone greeted his sense of hearing.

"Hello, where are you?" ask a woman who has been close to Amar lately.

"Udah on the road. It's coming soon. Still a red light. Just a minute!" amar said kindly. Not like the way he talked to Aliyah who seemed cold and cranky. Very inversely proportional. A husband should not speak softly and warmly with his wife. But what happened was just the opposite. Othor was not exhausted pikri. Amar's attitude is completely beyond nurul.

"Yes, Mas. Be careful on the road! Bye ... "

Amar closed the call with a smile of his own. Too busy with his own world makes him ignore that Aliyah's situation is not okay. Even since Amar's departure, Aliyah had been lying unconscious on the floor without anyone knowing.

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