The Shadow Of Love
There's Always

My relationship with Risqi began to warm. Although busy working, but he always took the time to drive me to school. It is not uncommon for him to pick me up when he comes home. Even on holidays, we spend a lot of time together. 

He never left me alone. Especially when I am sad. Risqi's sister always tried to comfort me so that I would not dissolve in sadness. 

Without me knowing, I who was usually independent now began to depend on him. Whatever I do, never without his permission. However, today would probably be the first time I let down that figure who had always protected me. 

I don't actually want to lie to him. However, I was forced to do that because this time he refused my request. 

"Come, Brother. I want to watch too. Then the show in the village sister too, right?" I tried to seduce him to let me watch a reggae concert on a field not far from where he lived. 

"Because this is in the village of your brother so you can not watch," he replied firmly. 

"Why?" ask me with a disappointed tone. 

I thought maybe he had someone he should take care of, which is why he refused my request this time. For some reason, it felt unacceptable to think of him having another woman. In fact, I am not her lover. 

"Sister will be the event organizer, Dek. If there's a commotion later, I doubt if I can take care of you." He explained the reason, but I ignored the reason he gave. 

"I want to watch, anyway," my mind remained chuckle with my stance. 

"Kok, you're diem?" ask when my mouth is locked. 

I looked at his face that looked honest. However, I also wanted to be there to watch him. Let's say I'm selfish, but I just want to keep what makes me comfortable. 

"Silver don't want to take you, Dek. I'm just afraid I can't keep you there" she said gently. I know he's trying to make me understand how he is. 

I'm still tight-lipped. Not answering with yes or no. Of course, that frustrates him. 

"Sir, plis. Just this time," he pleaded. 

"Yes" I replied briefly. 

"Thank you, yes," he said with a relieved smile. 

As soon as he left. I actually broke orders from him not to come to the show. As usual, Eva and her boyfriend took me to the music festival. 

I hadn't gotten into the house yet, Eva, her boyfriend, and Fandy actually came to pick me up. I approached them as soon as Eva called me. 

"Where?" eva asked, she does know about my closeness to Risqi. 

"Not obtained. He will be a committee," I replied as if. 

"That's the reason, yes. Iha we will also be a committee but can still invite you guys, kok!" Eva's lover replied and compared them to Risqi. 

"Gue doesn't think that's an excuse, anyway. But Kak Risqi feels a big responsibility there. I'm aware of that, really!" I refute the words of Eva's lover who vilified Sister Risqi in front of me. 

"Just like me, Shay!" Fandy replied in a cold tone. 

I know, there is a dislike in Fandy for my closeness with Risqi. But it doesn't matter to me. He and Risqi are certainly unequal in my life. 

"Gue ain't the same problem lo, as long as you don't baper." I commemorated him for the incident he admitted me as a lover in front of many people. 

He locked his mouth tightly, but through his glances I knew he must be upset. Not wanting to cause a commotion as usual, Eva broke up. 

"Udah ah, if most debates later get the backmost place. I want to watch the distance of the decket mumpung host," he said that I only responded by plotting both eyes. 

I had to go with them. In fact, I really want to go with Risqi. 

The location of the event which was close to my village made our trip so short. It only took less than ten minutes, we had already arrived at the venue of the event. 

Without wasting time we immediately jumped into a field that was a little crowded. From a distance I could see Brother Risqi was also in that place. Lucky he didn't see me because he was focusing on his phone. 

"He's playing hape, but he's not ngabarin me." I grumbled inwardly as I watched Brother Risqi. 

"Why, see him continue, anyway?" asked Fandy who noticed my movements. 

"He what?" I pretend I don't understand. 

"Lu worried about Risqi. No, he doesn't care about you, either!" It seems like Fandy is trying to influence my mind and heart to get angry at Risqi. 

"He doesn't care, he just doesn't look at me!" my call does not accept. 

"Keep defending him, Shay. You knew me first, but even more closely with Risqi. Lo should be closer to me" he said softly, but I could still hear him. 

The show hasn't started yet, on stage there are a few people who are checking sound, making sure there's nothing problematic about the instruments. 

Instead of responding to Fandy's words that started going nowhere, I chose to take my phone in my pants pocket. When I turned on the screen, there were a lot of missed call notifications there. 

"From this time Brother Risqi called me as it turned out," I murmured softly. 

"Why, Brother?" I sent him a short message. Not long after, my phone rang, there was an incoming call from him. 

"Call him later, brother!" Send her another short message. 

"Why?" He returned a message from me. Perhaps, he was confused because I didn't usually forbid him from contacting me. 

"Nothing. How did the show start?" 

"Not yet, in a moment." 

"Oh, yes, I have. Big brother who's focused on being a security committee, yeah." 

"okay." 

Our messaging activity ends when the event starts. I saw that he also started to move on to do his duty as the organizing committee. 

Bands of the music genre began to show the action. The place that was still empty was now getting denser. It certainly forced us to move into the middle. 

Visible visitors are so cool singing and dancing to the rhythm. But I didn't enjoy the show. Worry if caught by Kak Risqi is more domineering. At first glance I look at Eva who seems very happy with her lover, Fandy also jogged with his friends. 

"Revelation, Va!" I cried when from behind there was someone who was about to touch the sensitive part of Eva. However, my exclamation was lost quickly with that person's movements. 

Eva's lover is of course emotionally burned when another man touches her boyfriend's body. They got involved in a fight. Eva, who was in shock at the time, was immediately embraced into the embrace. 

The quarrel between Eva's lover and the brash man is now starting to heat up as the two camps take part to show their strength. The Fandy fortress that is the host instead of breaking up, they just feel great and want to be considered as the king. 

They started to fight jotos. The atmosphere grew increasingly rowdy as the two camps attacked each other. I started to get confused and scared. At that time, something pulled Eva apart from my arms, so strong that pull made me fall. 

As much as I can, I try to get up. However, my feet were stepped on by another visitor. I hissed as my feet were stepped on several times. My mind is starting to get messed up. Unable to get up, I finally tried to cover my head with my hands so as not to be injured. 

When I began to despair and resigned if I had to be a victim of this event, suddenly there was someone who grabbed me. Protecting my body from the commotion. 

Although I did not see his face, but I very much recognized the fragrant perfume used by someone who now embraces me. I closed my eyes and buried my face in his chest. 

"Sister, I'm sorry, brother. I'm scared," I said in a frightened tone. 

"Here you go, let's stand up first. Otherwise, we could not be together here" he said, then help me to rise. 

When Risqi and I got up, I circulated my gaze to look for the whereabouts of Eva, her lover, and Fandy. But they are no longer visible there. 

"Who are you looking for?" ask Risqi. 

"Fandy" I answered honestly. 

I saw his face flushed red, his jaw hardened as I mentioned Fandy's name in front of him. Perhaps, Brother Risqi was angry that I did not obey the words of Brother Risqi that forbade me to come. 

"Sorry, Brother." 

Risqi did not answer. He pulled me to the edge to avoid the crowd. 

"Ris, where are you going?" ask one of the organizers to Risqi. 

"Gue's coming home, I'll be here again!" Risqi's sister shouted to answer her friend's question. 

He just kept pulling my hand out of the field. When it came out of the crowd, Risqi only realized that my steps were stumbling. 

"Why?" ask her with a flat tone. 

"My feet hurt, brother," I replied grimacingly. 

Without further ado he squatted down in front of me, then said, "Let's go up! Big brother you." 

"Gausah, Brother. I'm heavy," I quickly refused. 

"Don't argue much, Dek! Shucks!" This time he said in a slightly high tone, I know he's getting annoyed at me. 

Despite the hesitation, I finally climbed into his carriage. He kept walking out of the venue. Cross the street, then take me into a small alley. 

"So, where are you going?" many wonder. 

"Go home." 

"So don't you want to carry me to my house?" manywould be surprised. 

"Sister wants to hand you over to your future in-laws first. Let you be advised not to argue much with the prospective husband," he said in a cold tone. 

I locked my mouth tightly. Dare not to refute Kak Risqi's remark this time. If I always protested when she called me a future wife, now I let Brother Risqi call me as he pleased.

"I know you're angry, but thank you for always being there for me, brother." I sat in gratitude for having such a protective figure.