The Shadow Of Love
Start to Doubt

"Cie, who wants to be picked up by a guy," teases Sita after the call ends. 

"What do you mean, anyway?" many confused. 

"Cowok was going to pick you up, Sya," he replied lightly. 

"Hhhh!" pekiku. 

"Are you surprised?" he asked in wonder, when I had said that the man was a stalker. 

"Gue said that. That's a stalker, why'd you pick up, anyway!" I grumbled annoyed at Sita. 

"Well, I don't swear!" the cry was accompanied by a whimper. Ih, it feels like I'd love to snap his head. 

"Eat him, next time don't grab anyone!" I get more upset with him. 

"Excuse me, my God!" 

Not long after, Dewi entered the class carrying two black plastic bags in her right hand. My best friend put two plastic bags on my desk. 

He looked at us in wonder. Surely the Goddess was confused because I put on an annoyed expression. "What's wrong?" tanyanya's confused. 

"Tasya is angry with me," said Sita, I know he must need a defense from the Goddess. 

I only rotated my two eyeballs as the Goddess looked at me fixedly. He actually understands the most about my heart. Even though I didn't tell you. 

"Lo made Tasya keles for sure" he replied in favor of me. 

"Kok, Lo accuse me, anyway!" grunts Sita. 

"Gue knows exactly what your characters are like. So, if Tasya gets angry with Lo, it means you make a tantrum," said Dewi confident with his stance. 

"But! You like to think badly of me." Sita, who had lost badly, finally decided to shut up. 

"Gee! Even scowling. Mending apologized to Tasya, "proposed the Goddess who made Sita glance at me. 

"Udahlah, Wi. Gausah. I'm not angry, either!" I decided to break up my two best friends' debate. 

"OKAY. Yes, we'll eat first!" bring the Goddess to us. 

The three of us also enjoyed the batagor and iced tea purchased by the Goddess while joking. The annoyance with Sita is no longer I guess. Like whatever Sita's weirdness, she's still my best friend. 

The break was over, the lesson also began to continue. I started to focus on the lessons. My disappointment in Mom slowly began to subside because of the jokes of these two friends of mine. 

When I came home from school waiting for public transportation, it was surprised by the presence of someone who followed me last night. He sat down leisurely on the bike, staring at me with a smile adorning his face. 

I saw him playing with his one hand. But his eyes still looked at me. What he did made me feel uncomfortable. 

"It's just, it's people concerned about me mulu."  I grumbled in my heart. 

I looked to the right, where the public transport should have gone from there. However, there was no sign of any public vehicles crossing the road in front of me. 

Not long after my phone rang. That number again called. Because of Sita's actions, I was also forced to accept the call. 

"Gapain stood there constantly? Want me a samperin?" ask the caller who made me look around. No one other than the man who was sitting on the motorbike, it was seen that he was also sticking his phone to the ear. 

"Lo who, anyway? Why do you keep following me?" many frustrating. Now I understand, the one who always terrorizes me with a short message is the same person as the man who later kept following me everywhere. 

"I'm a big fan of yours, Shay," he replied briefly, but managed to leave me stunned. He knows my name, how can. However, I realized not even my name, phone number he knew. 

"Stop following me, or I'll be teriakin lo maling." I had to threaten him for my safety. 

"Squeak away. It's nothing, man! I was beaten up by people in the village to keep following you" he said, causing me to shake my head. 

"Based on a freak!" makiku with a soft tone. 

"You are free to call me by any name, just don't ask me to stop following you," he asked, from his voice he sounded earnest with his words. 

Increasingly uncomfortable with his words, I decided to end the call. I saw again the streets were getting quieter. If I knew it would be like this, I would definitely ask Dewi or Sita to take me home. However, it was all for free, the two of them had also returned home. Want to call them and ask to be picked up also does not feel good. 

I saw again the man started wearing a helmet, then started the engine. Maybe he was also caught off guard waiting for me who was waiting for this public transport. However, I let the man if he was going to leave. 

Unfortunately, my estimate was wrong. The man did not go and approached me. He stopped the bike right in front of me. 

"Let me take you!" bring me. However, I was still silent, reluctant to obey the man's words. 

He watched me who was still standing upright, silencing my mouth not to make any sound. "It's getting late, loh! Are you not working?" askinya. 

At first glance I glanced at the man while saying, "Holiday." 

"Well, cool, dong! Go, yuk!" take her with her face as bright as the morning sun. 

"Lo thinks I'm gonna want to? If I go home, what else do you take me for a walk?" ask me with a nyolot tone. 

"Why not want to? He said he never valued people by the physical." He insinuated me by discussing his physique again. 

"Gue has a girlfriend!" I cried with a pressing tone.

"So, I didn't have the chance to be friends at all, just because you had a boyfriend?" ask her in a tone that sounds disappointed. 

"Gue's just trying to keep my heart and my boyfriend feeling" I said straighten out. 

He smiled, I saw him smile. I know he was disappointed. But, he could still smile under these circumstances. My heart was touched by that smile. 

"That's lucky, yeah, that's your boyfriend. If I were your girlfriend, I wouldn't tell you to wait here alone for an angkot" he said, which immediately made me smile wryly. 

"The boyfriend doesn't need to be around all the time. The important thing is that he's trying to formalize our relationship" I reply that he doesn't speak ill of my lover. 

"You're sure he's in there no trouble?" her instantaneous asking made my heart doubt. 

I began to doubt our relationship. Although he always said he was trying, in fact he rarely had time to just ask about my feelings.

"ah! What, anyway? Why do you also catch the same words of strangers? He's a nobody, Shay. Don't mind him!" My mind seemed to awaken me who began to doubt my feelings with my lover.  

"You're silent because you doubt, right? I remind you, Yes. Don't be too fooled by the words of men who say there will always be, but in fact there never is. If your relationship is this cold right now, what about after marriage?"