To be the Second
Reckless Home..

Anna_PoVs

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After my husband left, I sat limply by Erika's bed, holding Erika who had begun to calm down in my arms. Why is my home life like this? I'm really scared of what happened a few minutes ago.

I began to realize when Erika started chattering, I immediately got up and brought my baby for me to bathe first after I fed her with the porridge that I had cooked this morning. In silence I continued to think about the incident this morning which until now still imprints in the heart and mind.

I have tried to be the best wife for my husband, but it seems that my struggle is now meaningless since Erika's presence in our lives. I knew she was the daughter I had born from my womb, but why did I feel so unfair and a little angry towards my own daughter.

Though I should not have done so, my little heart was very envious of him. The man I love has now changed a lot just because he loves his daughter too much and loves her too much.

I don't know for sure why she changed so quickly in the few months since the birth of our daughter Erika, she never said the reason. And this got me thinking, what if every day he gets angry just from hearing his daughter cry? And most likely what he did earlier could have happened again, even more than he did to me!

Though the name of a baby usually only cries, because it can not speak to express his wishes. Erika was only six months old last week. It was crying all she could do to ask her parents for something.

Just like that why Bang Kholil is not sensitive at all, cannot understand, if his wife is also an ordinary man, an imperfect man, many shortcomings. And also how can I tell a baby to be quiet calm not to cry at all?

It seems that for a long time I myself could not be sane to face him, if I follow all the wishes of my husband. Either whisper from where, my mind at that time also wanted to go home maybe it was whisper set4n or whatever it was, because this is wrong, it would be wrong to run away from the home of a man who is still legitimate to be my husband.

But as hard as I thought about it, it was the only way to be able to mediate it and be able to muffle my disappointment. In the village I can be a little quieter there because there is a Mother and Sister Anniyah who will help me take care of Erika, while here even though there is Mama-in-law I feel uneasy, moreover, I was not ready to meet my husband, I was honestly still traumatized by what he did to me this morning..

How can a husband put a celur*t on his wife's neck? It really took me in a big shock. Yes, I could have been killed by him one day, right? It makes it hard to think clearly. I quickly pack my clothes and also Erika clothes I put in a medium-sized bag, not all that matters is there is a change of clothes at home later. Without leaving anything to my husband, I rushed out of the house quickly by holding Erika and carrying a bag for fear of being caught by Madam Sum who was washing clothes behind the house.

I only brought my important things and savings that I had been keeping myself, without bringing my husband's belongings. Before long the online car I ordered arrived at the front of the house, I immediately went inside." Going to this terminal, huh Ma'am?" The driver looked at me from the front mirror.

" Yes right sir, please hurry up." Let me beg a little while looking around the house, afraid if anyone sees me. I am like a thief who is afraid of being caught.

" Good Ma'am." Slowly the car drove away from my in-laws house. As soon as I breathed a sigh of relief, the driver seemed to be astonished at me, occasionally peering into the rearview mirror, but I was indifferent and did not respond.

Up to half an hour later the car began to enter the terminal substation and stopped at the parking lot not far from the entrance of the counter, I immediately opened the side door to get down after thrusting a fifty thousand piece of money into the driver.

" This is the change!" He shouted as I got out of the car.

" Save it to you, thank you so much for driving me." I tried to smile at him, then walked towards the departure entrance.

" Let me help you with your bag, ma'am." The driver who followed me from behind.

" No sir, I can do it myself."

Soon we arrived in the bus of the city of my destination, and thankfully I got the bench sitting at the front right behind the driver because the bus had just entered the departure queue.

" Thank you so much, sir, for helping me, and this is for you." I said while giving a piece of money twenty thousand to him.

" Together Ma'am, uh no need to be loved again Ma'am, who just now Mbak's money there is still change in me. Then I say goodbye first, be careful Ma'am, hopefully until the goal safely, Aamiin." Refuse as he bids.

I thanked the driver again before he got down and went back to his car, saw that I missed my father. Even I put my money back in my wallet, breathing a sigh of relief, eventually I will leave this big city soon.

After waiting for half an hour, many passengers began to enter, and the bus began to drive away from the terminal. Along the way I continued to pray, may my intention not make my husband even more angry after not finding me and his daughter at home, and may he understand my current situation.

After traveling for approximately four hours, I finally reached my hometown, although the distance from home is still quite far from the bus stop, but in this market is quite close from home.

I walked towards the roadside ojek rolling." Can I anterin me to the village of Ringinjowo?" I asked the ojol.

" Come aboard Ma'am, let me anterin."

I immediately went up to the back seat, while my bag was placed in front of him. Immediately the motor ojol began to run slowly. I glanced at my daughter who was still asleep, fortunately Erika was not fussy all the way, just asking for breast milk.

After a while, I arrived in the front yard of my parents' house. After paying the fare to the ojol, for a moment I was silent to breathe as much fresh air as possible which of course always makes my mind fresh.

Afterwards I walked towards the terrace impatiently hugging all my family members. Everyone must have been surprised to see me coming. But let it be thought of later, the important thing is that I am relieved, already in my own parents' house.

" Openetrish..."

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