To be the Second
The Past 2

Nikmah_PoV's

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My body stiffened when I remembered something." Why are you out inside!" I snapped as soon as I realized the sense that made me lose my mind." How about I get Rojakk pregnant?!!"

" I'm sorry, you calm down baby, later I'll give you a pregnancy-preventing drug that I bought earlier in the pharmacy." His words were so calm with no sense of burden at all, irritating me. " I promise to marry you soon, I love you so much you know it's not!" His promise to me, inevitably I resigned, the important thing is he wants to be responsible to me. I also love him very much.

Since then, we have been doing this forbidden relationship, in some inns, in a quiet place, and we often do it in my house when my parents are away, yes segil4 it we did it without shame. Just because of a momentary demonic desire.

Rojak and I are increasingly unable to escape the snares of the devil, and fortunately we do not know any family. But a few months later, because of my carelessness, my mother found a drug tablet that I often consume, I throw in the trash can, which I usually put in a crackle bag first, yes, maybe that's how the creator revealed the disgusting deeds of both of us.

My father and mother were very angry, but they did not know my relationship with Rojak, so he sent me to the ponpes who were out of town and met me with Neng Atin. We became close friends even though I was two years younger than him.

For months, I focused on learning, repenting, and migrating in the name of Allah. I'm no longer in touch with Rojak, we just broke up without any clarity. I do not know where from one year later, he was desperate to come to the city where I went, but I did not intend to meet him at all. Until gradually the taste I have on Rojak was gone. Two years in the ponpes, I feel like I've gotten a lot better.

Until one day, I accidentally met a handsome man waiting near the gate of the ponpes, I kept watching him every time he came to meet someone who was in the same cottage as me, and it lasted a few months until I knew his name was Aziz, a much more perfect man than Rojak, I fell in love at first sight.

Looks like we were destined to mate when I found out he was the younger brother of my friend Neng Atin. Through Neng Atin, we finally met, gradually it turned out we were both in love. But her parents didn't seem to like me, and didn't approve of our relationship. A few weeks after I got out of the cottage, Aziz immediately menghitahku although without the blessing of his parents, before long we were married with the blessing of forced from both my in-laws. I don't care, the important thing is that his son loves me is enough. My mom and dad are so happy that I got married to Kiyai's son.

There was not yet a year of marriage, we were blessed with a very beautiful little princess, a sense of happiness enveloping our little household life. But when the news of grief approached me, both my parents had a single accident on the highway while going to the city of MD. My world is broken, I no longer have two biological parents.

It was in that moment of mourning that I was reunited with my cousin Rojak, as well as my ex for the umpteenth of old, which I left a few years ago, at a time when my father Rojak often came home, although I responded normally he still came and chose to chat with my husband. Wish he didn't tell me the shit, especially our dark time first. Until I had four children my life was happier.

After a few months, I got word, Rojak finally released his bachelor with Juleha who incidentally is his own sister, the biological child of both adoptive parents, it makes me extraordinary relief, as well as sad, it makes me happy, she has to be with her sister, she is married. I know Rojak does not have any feelings for Juleha, it's just that Juleha openly expressed her feelings for her own Adopted Sister.

Somehow she accepted this marriage, I'm afraid Juleha is just her use as her place of impingement. Until the peak when Rojak was drunk yesterday and did the disgusting thing back to me, maybe he was having a big fight with his wife until he was drunk.

~ Flashback off.

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And here we are, both of us, in the place where we first committed great sins. A deed that made me regret for the rest of my life, he somehow did not feel regret at all.

" You should be grateful, I didn't put you in jail. If it wasn't for Juleha, I sure wouldn't hesitate to do it, b******n!!" My fizz was sharp and also hoarse looking at him, even my face was puffy at this moment.

" I'm not asking you to set me free! And you should have done it, that I might not go any further than that, now accept the consequences." His leg while holding out a packet of tissue that he took on the dashboard of the car.

I became ignited to hear his words, "Why did you bring me here?!!" I asked to sniff without looking at her with tears that kept soaking my pretty face.

I know what he said just now, really if I could I just want to disappear from the face of the earth, or sink to the bottom of the ocean. Or I'd rather end my life not to deal with this spikopath. Either he loves me sincerely, or is it just an obsession?

Because I did not get out of the car, finally Rojak approached me, pulled me out and even carried me on his shoulder, like a sack of rice, I continued to thrash and shout, but whatever the power, what, no one around here can help me.

God save me. Aziz help me... I don't want to commit any more major sins, really help anyone. My screams in my heart, I kept praying, may someone help me apart from Rojak. I am really very scared.

Buuaatk..

I was slammed hard on the bed, really Rojak that I used to know is soft, now changed like a male lion that is ready to pounce on its prey. I'm getting scared of him.

" Rojak, please let me go! Have mercy on me, have mercy on my children, have mercy on Juleha who is pregnant with your children, your flesh and blood. Explain everything. This has become a path of destiny for us in our respective spouses, I beg you to pray." I mean it, I kept begging him to at least change his mind.

" What do you want to keep, with your wedding? Your husband is married to another woman, right?" He asked so calmly, but it surprised me, how did he know?

Degh!!

" W-how do you know?" My heart seems to be in the crumbs right now, how can he know, when only me and my taste know.

" That's easy. What I didn't know all this time about you. Now let's forget the pain between us, with pleasure alone." His words were only vaguely heard.

" Mmmpp."

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