We And The Unfinished Story
The endless longing

I have not seen the figure of Mr. Dimas here for a week.I had thought that he was avoiding me.We also did not send messages to each other.I have submitted my resignation letter to the center.Today I hand over my work with Emi, I will not accept my work with Emi,because Merry just waited for the day to give birth.

I promise I'll come when Merry's son is born.I hope he'll be born before I move to M city.

The rest of my time in this city is only two weeks away.This morning I see the sky is so bright.And later in the afternoon I plan to go home to the city of R, R,I want to talk about my move with Bang Rahman.My job today was a little relaxed, I just helped Emi work.Suddenly my phone rang, I saw Bang Rahman's name appear on the screen.

"Hello Assalamu'alaikum bang."

"Wa'alaikumsalam, Ren you are ready to come back here now yes.We have to go back to the city T." My feelings suddenly became unpleasant.

"Why bang?how sudden is gini?"

"Ren, papa ren, papa no longer exists." Duarrr. like being struck by lightning I heard from Bang Rahman.

"Innalillahi wainnailaihiroji'uun." for then only that sentence came out of my mouth.

I still can't believe what Bang Rahman just said.The subtle sentence my father used to say to the dead.

I was sitting limp on the floor, my phone fell out of my grasp.I can't stand it anymore I cried awkwardly.Karina who saw me directly approaching me.Rendy was straight out of her room.

"Why are you ren?"I hugged Karina.

"Our father, my brother, my father doesn't exist."I could not continue my sentence.I felt tight.Karina memapah me sit and give me warm water.I still feel this is just a dream.

Mr. Wiryo who just came from the city of R, ordered by Rendy to take me back to the city of R. I walked dazed to the car.Rendy unceasingly strengthened me.

Mr. Wiryo brought the car a little faster than usual.All the way my tears did not stop flowing.Newly a week ago my papa came to visit us.I never thought that it was our last meeting in this world.Should be yesterday I hugged my dad longer.

I feel like one by one my loved ones will leave me.Maybe this is a warning to me.

Within an hour and a half we arrived in the city of R.Pak Wiryo immediately drove me to Bang Rahman House.As soon as I got down from the office car I went straight up to Bang Rahman's car.I forgot to say thank you to Sir Wirjo.

Along the way the atmosphere was quiet.All busy with their respective thoughts.My father had long suffered from hypertension.But yesterday when he came to visit us he looked fine.

Luck sided with us, today the streets are not so crowded.In the time of four hours we have arrived in the city of T.Yellow flags fluttered in the yard of my house.House crowded with mourners.Papa is a person who likes to socialize, a,no wonder there are so many people who come to visit.

I ran into my mother's arms, she just kept quiet,there were no tears that flowed.There are those who said if it was too painful and the pain of tears could no longer flow.I know among all of us mothers are the ones who are the hardest hit and lost.

Papa is a man who is so sincere in love with his mother.Every time he goes out of the house even though it is just a reunion with his friends he will bring with him mother.Every afternoon he will take mom around with him on his motorbike.He will take mom shopping in the market.She massages the mother when the mother is sick or tired.Papa is a person who can treat women well.No wonder that at this time the mother will feel very lost.

Finish Ashar papa buried in a public cemetery not so far from our home.All feels so fast.Papa once said, the far in the world is the past, the past,and the closest is death.Young age and a healthy body does not guarantee we will live long.Papa I died at the age of 46 years.At age is still fairly young.

I was still at the funeral when everyone was gone.Bang Rahman persuaded me to go home.

"Let's go home, I love you at home." I nodded and walked with him.

When I got off Bang Rahman's car,I saw a man I knew standing in my house.He was wearing a white shirt and black pants.I felt like I was hallucinating.I shook my head repeatedly.But the closer his face became clearer.

"Pak Dimas." I murmured softly.So I'm sure that it's him I'm direct

squandered his hug.I cried as much as I could.She who this week I missed this time can be here.Pak Dimas gently stroked my head.

I let go of my arms and invited her into the house.Pak Dimas said that he got this news from Rendy.

"Have you eaten Ren?" Mr. Dimas spoke so softly.I just shook my head.I really don't taste anything to eat.

"You must eat Ren, if you are sick pity your mother.Now only you can comfort her."

"Sir Dim, this is like a dream sir.A week ago we still tell stories and laugh together.Losing people we love turned out to be this sick." I drowned my face in both legs that I bent in front of my chest.

Death is a long farewell.This longing will be an endless longing.The sudden departure of the father leaves a deep sorrow for us.Because papa is a figure close to his wife and children.

I was on leave for three days and for three days Mr. Dimas always accompanied me.He stayed at one of the inns not so far from my house.Fourth day after the departure of my father back with Pak Dimas to the city of C.Pak Dimas yesterday drove alone to the city of T. We decided to leave in the afternoon from the city of T.Pak Dimas said it was better to travel at night.

"Ren, are you planning to resign and move to M?" Mr. dimas opened our conversation.

"Yes sir and this seems to have been the way.if I move to the city of M I will visit my mother more often."

Mr. Dimas just nodded hearing my explanation.

The dimas who saw me repeatedly yawning told me to go to sleep.I closed my eyes and fell asleep.

Mr. Dimas patted me on the cheek slowly to wake me up.I woke up and I saw the sky was getting dark.Pak Dimas stopped his car in the courtyard of the mosque.

"You don't want to pray Maghrib first?I'm waiting for you in the car." I nodded and immediately went down to perform the Maghrib prayer.

Finish our prayers continue the journey.However not how long Mr. Dimas turned his car into a restaurant.She said we would eat dinner first.She did not concentrate on driving when his stomach was hungry.