When I Choose Silence
35.Part 2

I could only rub my rough face which seemed to have paled out of blood flow, because it felt jealousy that was either appropriate or not for me to do.

"Where dong dear, I can't walk without my cane?"

"Yes, then I just carry, later there must have been provided a cane or wheelchair, okay?"

Even I have never been carried, in the past even my dream was to be able to worship with Kalandra every day, in fact it must be a dream that never materialized, whether until when.

"Yes dear." Jenny replied with a big smile, she could have left her wand on purpose, so that she could ask for a sling with my husband, she was such a shitty woman.

Slowly Kalandra finally carried Jenny like a king's daughter, and to make me even more depressed, she smiled so handsomely, a smile that I wanted to see in my marriage all this time, but she never showed me, and she was so romantic and sweet with Jenny.

"Huf.. Are they married too? but when I was married, Kalandra was still listed as Single in the civil registry?"

Their relationship is still a puzzle to this day, and it is still a big question for me, if indeed they love each other why not just marry, if not, are they willing to come into contact secretly just because they want revenge with me? To me, the thoughts of the two of them were very short-sighted.

"Darling, I'm sorry I always bother you?" Said Jenny who hugged my husband's neck with her mesra.

My hands clenched instantly, as if I wanted to strangle my husband's neck as I remembered him frequently stomping his sword with me without mercy.

"Of course not dear, I will always be there for you, until whenever it is."

As much as I wanted to spit out my bowels over my husband's face right now, I was completely fed up with his words.

"Don't you ever leave me Kalandra, 'cause I can't live without you?" He hid his face in my husband's field, and I hid my body among the people who were there.

"Surely, because you are the most precious woman in my life."

It was very sweet, but unfortunately the word was not directed to me, at this time I was Kalandra's wife, but maybe I was the third party among them. Third parties as the target of their hatred.

"Thank you, love you."

Cup

Kalandra came back to shower the kiss on her aunt, it was like I was beating my husband's legs, so that they fell face down simultaneously, but it could not happen because my guts were not that big.

"Hmm.. we immediately check in yes, it looks like the plane door is open, we have to go in immediately dear."

Once felt strange, when Kalandra apparently did not reply to love from Jenny, has her love been divided with me?

Owh.. I dare not hope, because it seems impossible to me, the proof is that he is Kang Nyosor now, although he also often does that when the word ahh has come out of his mouth, but the difference is he did it rough when with me.

"Okey dear."

Right now my legs are completely squeezed, as if my leg bones can no longer support my body that weighs nothing.

My heart was so claustrophobic as I listened to their sweet conversation, even with a few kisses on Jenny's face without her having to ask for it and remembering it they did during my five-year marriage to Kalandra, it was as if my sacrifice was in vain.

I can't do anything, I can't eavesdrop on their conversation anymore, because I don't have my passport and other identity, and they seem to want to travel abroad.

"Why is this so sick to God? I feel like I can't anymore, hyks."

I even lashed my chest so that my breath would not continue to feel tight, but it was as if my punch did not make this pain less.

Though in my marriage I never ask for more, just understand each other, receiving each other, but if it is not strong anymore to survive, just let go of me, just let go of me, don't put my life in jail just because of their revenge.

It's okay if he wants to hate me, but don't continue to torment my mind like this, I'm also a man who does not escape from wrong and sin, God alone is Most Forgiving, God is All-Pardoning, then why do they keep hating me.

Grep's!

"Jeez, Mrs Carnation? where's your pants!"

Suddenly there was someone who hugged me and immediately enveloped my body, as well as my thighs which were quite exposed because the jacket I was wearing was pulled up when I sat on the floor.

"Sean? why are you here?" I asked while wiping my tears that were still dripping heavily on my cheeks, I was really surprised, especially Sean saw me when I was down like this.

"We're just talking in the car, before people see your body, ma'am!"

Right now my mind is completely in a state of turmoil, and Sean's coming may be a favor from God given to me.

He clenched this weakened body of mine, after tying his suit around my waist, while tightening his body so that my legs would not be a concern to the crowd there with a face so panicked.

Sean was the man I just met, but he seemed to care about me, unlike my husband who seemed to be a fool with my circumstances.

If time could I turn back, maybe I'd better hang out for life, so as not to bond with anyone in the world, also so as not to feel too much pain in myself because of an affair.

But yes, maybe this is a punishment that I must accept for my behavior that once ran away from problems when I was a teenager.

I can't imagine being Jenny who has to be helped with a cane and wheelchair every day, actually I don't have the heart, I feel concerned about it too.

But what makes me disappointed, why they have to treat me this way, why they do not just marry, if indeed they love each other should be willing to accept the lack of a partner, why should torture me first, why, what can't we coexist with the past, until when they have to live full of hatred and revenge like that, so that makes my life really look slippery like this.

There are some words of apology that we must always show so that our hearts can be calmer.

There are some events that though still revolve in memory, but we must control so as not to hate the humans in it.

Because living in the rumble of hatred and anger will not make us at the top level, because the tranquilizer of all hatred and anger is a SINCERE feeling in our hearts.

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