When I Choose Silence
53.I'm already Tired.

Not always retreat it loses, because in the game Pull Mine, retreat it is the Winner.

Give one lesson in life not only half-and-half, do it fully so that the results can be maximal, and that is what Carnations will do at this time.

After the incident at the hospital yesterday, Kalandra had not even returned home at all until this afternoon.

"Well, you're done packing yet, son?" Anyelir asked as Kanaya only pensively looked at her Suitcase which could not be closed due to fullness.

"Not yet Mother, my suitcase doesn't fit this!" Rengek Kanaya while slamming her body on her soft mattress.

"No need to bring all children, bring the important ones, the dolls do not need to be taken." Carnation immediately checked his daughter's suitcase which only contained dolls and toys.

"But the doll from Om Handsome is also important Mother, later if not brought I play the same who?" Kanaya begins to shake her cute lips as a place of protest.

"Well, can't you?" This daughter if she has the will cannot be banned.

"What is this doll from Dad?" The doll was bigger than his suitcase.

"Especially that, throw it away, anyways the Doll is no ngetrend, later Mother buy another new one, okay?" Because it was Kalandra's gift, as if she was venting her frustration to the inanimate object.

"But Bun---?" He seemed unwilling to take it off.

"Where are you two going!" Suddenly a loud voice came from the direction of Kanaya's room door.

"Aish... Why is he home? so this is not the story." Umpat Anyelir who seemed to be careless to see her own husband, but actually she was relieved also because her husband came home intact.

"Dad, Kanaya the same Mother wants to go to-" Actually Kanaya want to leave, but when she heard the word go Kalandra immediately rose blood.

"CAN'T!" Shouted Kalandra who immediately ignited emotions.

"Faul... It was horrified that his son would talk!" Said Carnation who could only sit languidly looking at the man who had torn apart his heart and soul.

"Nobody can get out of this house, understand you!" He shouted again, his voice was hoarse, even smelling the smell of alcohol there.

"It's up to you, but we still want to go!" Carnation felt lazy to respond to her husband's behavior.

"ENGINEER!" Kalandra immediately approached the direction of Carnation, but at once Carnation immediately inching back, as if reluctant to be touched by her own husband.

"That's my name from a long time ago, but don't have to say it, I still haven't lost my hearing." Answer the Carnation who immediately stood up.

"Anyelir, can we talk together?" Pinta Kalandra who seemed to be wondering about the incident yesterday, because it looks like his wife took part in the incident yesterday.

"I don't have time, because I have to go!" Answer the carnation with a ketus.

"Kanaya, play the same mama there?"Kalandra does not want her son to hear what they are talking about later, because this is not an example but a ban in a relationship.

"No, Kanaya wants me to go!" Carnations directly holding his daughter's hand, he was really reluctant to serve Kalandra at this time.

"Anjelir! You can't argue with me!" Umpat Kalandra while with her sour face.

"I'm tired of following all your wills, sorry I have to go, come on Kanaya!" Carnations still ignored the anger of her husband.

The praaangggggg!

Suddenly Kalandra immediately mengedang a vase in the corner of the room with one leg lunge.

"Then you will see that I am leaving, then you can leave!"

Cres!

I don't know what Kalandra's thinking at this time but she really loved the ceramic shards from the flower vase to her left hand to smash the red liquid quite rapidly.

"DAD!" Kanaya cried out who immediately screamed when she saw her father's blood dripping all the way to the Floor.

Drama let alone this God, I'm tired of all this.

"Here son!" Nakun Anyelir kept his daughter's hand and pulled her to stay by his side.

"But Daddy's bleeding Mother!" Jerit Kanaya is back.

"Kalandra, you can't just finish your drama, I don't know what you want in your life actually!" Umbat Anyelir who immediately snarled and sighed.

"You are still my wife Carnations, even MY LEGITIMATE WIFE! You should have listened to what I said!" Umpat Kalandra while affirming the words 'my right wife' so that Anyelir is self-conscious.

"I know, as a wife, I have to obey your rules, but if a head of the family is on the wrong path, I am no longer obligated to fulfill and follow all that you want from me and if it hurts yourself it is the right thing to do, do it! since it's your own decision, I won't care!" Carnations do not want to continue to be in the golden cage, he wants to fly freely if it is not considered appropriate for a wife in general.

"Okey, if you don't care about me anymore, and you don't want to follow, let my spirit follow wherever you go!" Kalandra seemed to give an ultimatum loudly to Carnations.

Kress!

"DAD!"

Kanaya immediately ran to embrace Kalandra when both of her father's wrists bleed alla so swift.

"Dear, I'm sorry, but enough you know, that I love you and your Mothers very much." Speak Kalandra intermittently.

Bruock!

Because Kalandra's blood had come out, his consciousness began to disappear, his body felt dazed and he finally fell collapsed on the Floor with a bath of blood coming out profusely from both wrists.

"Geez!"

Just in the mouth Anyelir felt annoyed, from now on he had been holding it, but when he saw her husband lying down so he also immediately did not have the heart.

Kraaac!

Carnations immediately tore his shirt into two parts, and immediately wrapped around Kalandra's wrist right and left to do first aid, so that his blood did not get out more quickly.

"DAD, don't leave Kanaya Daddy!" Kanaya shouted, which was immediately hysterical, because just this time Kanaya saw her father faint in front of both eyes.

"Your father has not left, he just fainted, you take care of me first, son, Mother call our personal doctor to come to help your father, do not panic okay?" Actually, Anyelir was panicked, but he pretended to be calm in front of Kanaya so that he did not continue to be hysterical.

"Mother's baby, Kanaya doesn't want to be an orphan." Kanaya's chirps with her cries.

Carnation deliberately did not take her husband away to the Hospital, because her husband's personal doctor will certainly arrive soon, she was indeed paid a lot for it, if Carnation took her to the hospital, the doctor said, afraid later the news even spread everywhere, what people said later if the news of her husband was included in the news, that 'a Young Businessman was determined to commit suicide in his own home'.

And the most terrible thing is that when netizens managed to find out the disgrace of her husband even to be revealed in public, she will also definitely bear the shame and will definitely impact their family company.

Carnations do not want both families to bear the consequences of their household rift.

When Carnation had confirmed the Doctor was on his way, Anyelir told his house assistant and also the babysitter from Kanaya to help him lift Kalandra to the guest room, because if he himself would not be strong to lift her.

Not long ago the doctor had come with some equipment and also an infusion hose in his bag, because Anyelir had informed the state of Kala when on the phone earlier.

"Mrs Carnation, the bleeding has stopped, thankfully you immediately tied her hands together." Said the Doctor after finishing handling Kalandra.

"Thank you so much Doctor, it's a good thing you can also come straight here."

"That's my duty Madam, but it seems Mr. Kalandra's condition is still weak, due to quite a lot of blood loss." Saying back.

"But things are getting better, right, Doctor?" Asked Anyelir who was also worried.

"Yes, when you wake up, try to eat and take blood-boosting drugs, surely the condition will soon recover." Obviously the Doctor was while giving some kind of medicine to the Carnation.

"Good Doctor."

"Then I say goodbye, if there's anything you can call me back."

"Thank you Doctor."

"Together."

After Carnation escorted the Doctor out, he again saw the state of Kalandra in the guest room.

"I'm sorry Kala, it's not like I can't take you to the hospital, but I'm sure you're okay, I just want to keep your good name, especially now, today, rumors circulating must be related to other things to be trending topics."

Carnations fix Kalandra's blanket and rub the bangs of her husband's hair dangling forward, for some reason she likes to style hair like a boy band boy, for example, who just shaved off the edges and let his upper hair lush with a hemisphere in the middle, but it did make him look younger and handsome.

"But I didn't expect you to actually commit suicide, or maybe because you broke up with Jenny, but there's no way she's really in love with that female crocodile?" When she remembered the woman, Carnation immediately touched her husband's forehead and also his forehead, when else could she do such a thing, especially if her husband was conscious, it would be impossible for him.

"Aish.. I don't know! I still don't understand how his mind is going, maybe he's frustrated, or maybe he didn't take the psychotes test the other time, so his mentality isn't strong, but why is it that if it torments my mind it looks so clever, as if it will live forever in heaven without fear of the fires of Hell, it doesn't even hesitate to do so." Babe Carnations that seemed to issue a tear in his heart.

"Mother, how's Dad doing now?" Kanaya immediately approached her mother with both eyes that had been puffy.

"Have Mother said, Your father is not papa son, he is still alive, do not be sad okay?" He smiled seeing Kanaya directly lie down and hugged Kanaya's body.

"I'm just scared if I don't have a father anymore."

God, may my son in the future not feel the same way as me.

"No Kanaya, because Father and Mother will always accompany you until you grow up, you will still have complete parents, although it may no longer be the same." As a mother, she really hopes her child can live a normal and happy life like a child in general.

"Does Mommy want to leave Dad when he's sick like this?"

"Mother actually does not want to leave Dad, but it seems your Dad does not need Mother Nak." Carnations try to give an understanding for the worst possible of his relationship with Kalandra.

"But Dad forbade Mommy to leave earlier."

" Dear, you are too young to think about it, one thing you know enough, that Father and Mother will still love you at all times." She didn't want her son to think too much.

"Hm.. Promise to Mother."

"Mother Promise, but if one day Mother and Father are forced to separate, Kanaya do not be sad, we just split the place Nak, but our love is still the same as you, will not change, will not change, okay?"

"Kanaya does not want to, Kanaya wants to stay with Daddy and Mommy until later."

"It's just a matter of place, son, you're free to come to the house of Father or Mother later, there will be no one to forbid you to meet anyone you want."

"But Kanaya wants Daddy and Mommy to be together, Kanaya doesn't want her house to be quiet."

"Maybe one day Kanaya will have a new Mother, so Kanaya has Mother two, and will not be lonely again right?"

"No want Mother, Kanaya does not want to have a new Mother, Kanaya wants you two alone, do not want the other, hiks.." Kanaya's cry broke again and it made Anyelir was not hearty and saddened.

God, what should I do, I don't want Kanaya to be tormented inwardly if we part, but if I stay in this position, I will continue to languish, I also do not want to be a barrier to the happiness of Jenny and Kalandra, if indeed they love each other and are never separated, I am willing to let go, I will retreat from their lives.

"Mother, why are you crying?" Kanaya asked while wiping her Mother's tears, but her own tears melted everywhere.

"Mothers don't cry, just glancing around." Answer Carnations back pretending to be tough.

"Don't leave Daddy dong Mommy, pity Daddy, he'll die." Kanaya's chirps are back.

Kalandra's son, if you say no use sensors.

"Don't say that, son, you take care of Dad first yes, Mother finish her suitcase to the room again, we go to her Grandma's house tomorrow."

"That means Grandma's birthday is postponed so tomorrow huh?"

The two of them were actually packing things to go to the house of Carnation's parents because of her Birthday Mama, she planned to stay for a few days while calming her mind, so that she would have a good time, but Kalandra must have thought that they would leave her for good.

"Sad... You are, not his birthday, we only have the impression tomorrow, he said to take care of Dad?" He grew even more anxious to see Kanaya who was getting better at talking.

"Okey Mother."

"Anje.. Carnation.don't go."

Suddenly Kalandra's mouth murmured slowly and called out the name Anyelir.

"Mother, I'm awake!" Kanaya screamed cheerfully, she was so happy when her father's eyes opened again.

"Huf... Back to Drama!"

Anyelir fell silent and closed his eyes for a moment to take a deep breath, because facing Kalandra drained his brain and energy.

There are things that you should just keep in prayer and heart, no need to reveal the rumbling in humans, because not all humans have the same thought patterns as us.