COLD REVENGE'S
Part 68's. Be My Date, The Only One Friend With Benefit
POV Emma's
Last night he said everything all of a sudden. I can still see his disappointed expression. It's not just him who's disappointed maybe I'm also disappointed I can't leave this behind.
This afternoon I delivered the data he requested to his house.
"Come in." Seeing it again made my feelings uncertain. Nothing yet I've missed his embrace. I was wrong to reject it.
"Give you. Or do you want me to send it to the courier, I can arrange it?" I'm looking for a conversation. Can't bear to think of me losing a nice guy like Colin.
He was willing to keep helping has been a gift to me. I didn't think of asking for anything more than to be his friend.
"Give it to me, I need to meet him in person."
"I brought you the lasagna you like." He smiled at me. Doesn't he hurt me because I rejected him.
"Thank you." He took my hand and surprised me. "What?" Suddenly he pulled me close to him. Makes my heart beat erratically.
"I want to talk." Why he made such a physical approach. Last night he just returned my embrace and took me off.
"Speak what ..."
"On last night. I don't accept your refusal. I know I'm wrong to force you to answer right now. But be my lover..."
"So your lover...."
"I'll risk waiting for you. If our relationship doesn't work out, it's okay. I feel like I've been trying my best. I'm not sorry anymore."
"Colin.. Are you sure? Everything you said last night was true. I'm fine if we're friends I told you." What if we don't make it.
"Emma, I'm not asking you to leave right now. You know this relationship is hard if one of us doesn't move on. You can forget everything that happened here after we tried to imprison Dench, Camilla and the DEA can definitely take care of this." He stands in front of me and confronts me now.
"I don't have a shadow that far. That's a big thing to decide for Colin overnight. I've never faced a serious relationship like you asked. You asked me to put all my trust in you... All my life I've never put my trust in love, in anyone else, I believe in myself. You're right our relationship is difficult. It's better as you say we don't start, I can understand all your reasons. You have a life in the UK, I have a life here. All I really wanted was friend with benefit. Moving to follow you to the UK wasn't part of my plan." I laughed, because that was what I was thinking. "But it turns out you're a lot more complicated, you're a lot better than me. Unfortunately I also have a lot of problems that become a burden to agree to your request. You've done a lot for me, but I've disappointed you..."
"You can't answer me that way. I'm not asking for your answer right now."
Now he hugged my waist, grabbed my nape and stole my kiss. I was shocked and looked into his eyes, didn't he say we better not start, then what is this.
"What are you doing?"
"I'm not asking you to answer me now, I admit I'm wrong to ask you . I assumed there was no word. I just wanted to be my date. I can't be wrong this time."
"What do you mean..."
"Why did you suddenly change your mind. You said...."
"I know it's not fair to you if I don't show my sincerity. On vacation I will accompany you on vacation okay. Besides, I'm going more in the USA early next year for the opening of a representative office in NY. So let's just say I'm trying."
I can't believe this.
"You said last night..."
"I'll be in the United States a lot next year. But after that I'll take you to London."
"You're talking like you already know this is gonna work." I grimaced. "What if..."
"I believe hard work will be proportional to the results obtained. That's the motto of life." I want to grimace and laugh.
"What about Julie?"
"Julie, why are you asking about Julie. I know who his girlfriend is. Julie is moving to the US to be with her boyfriend. They broke up actually, the story is more or less similar to ours, the lover said there are too many differences between them, ...." He told me the story of how Julie and a guy named Louis got together. It seems Julie is inspiring him not to give up so easily.
"Do you just want to make me a tool of revenge to Julie. Did you really take it off?"
"Me and Julie are just regular friends. It's obviously open because I want to avenge Julie. Be lover. I know you like me, we'll just go ahead with whatever happens. Why should you reject me now. You're expecting this, aren't you, from yesterday you're always luring me?" He seems to mean it.
"If we don't make it, you'll beat me. You're gonna hate me?"
"No, as long as it's said openly. We're still gonna be coworkers, even though maybe I can't help you so much anymore."
"Hmmm..." I still think long.
"My mom knows about us, she said I was wrong for forcing you so fast. When I was in London he wanted to get to know you and your Uncle and Aunt. I'm going to Paris."
"He wants to meet me? And Auntie? Isn't this too fast? You sure?"
"Yes I'm sure."
"But we're even new..." He cut again.
"A relationship that the family knows is definitely better. Let me be your lover." Does he intend to make my aunt his support. He's very serious about making sure I'm going to London.
"It's..." What should I answer.
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