Competing Love With Ustadz
Hearts Agility

Ning Faza arrived at the door, he was speechless to see Ustadz Adnan and his family in his house.

Let alone saying annul the marriage, Saying true feelings to Ustadz Andan alone He can't.

"Well it's Ning Faza." said Nisa who saw Ning Faza just standing still at the door.

"It's just that, son, come in here and greet the future in-laws" said Ummi who was accompanied by laughter from all.

Ning Faza nodded his head and stepped closer to them. Then Ning Faza shook their hands one by one with great respect.

"Ning Faza from where?" ask Nisa.

"From the mini market."

The two families again talked about their children's marriage which will be held less than a month according to agreement from both parties.

But instead of being happy, Ning Faza was even more restless with his feelings.

Ustadz Andan who was sitting in front of him watched his future wife who did not stop fretting over her fingers with her blank look.

Ustadz Andan took a breath and got up from his seat.

"Excuse me Mr. Kiai, may I speak to Ning Faza?"

"Yes please, Faza..." Mr. Kiai gestured for Faza to accompany Ustadz Adnan.

Faza nodded his head and followed Ustadz Adnan who led him to the terrace. No less than a meter They stand parallel to the gaze of each facing straight ahead.

"There are two types of diseases in a human being. The first is liver disease and the second is body disease. Both are mentioned in the Qur’an. As for liver disease, Divided again two types, namely (1) syubhat disease (understanding and distorted thinking) and doubt, (2) Orgasmic diseases (forbidden desires) Is Dek Faza experiencing one of these diseases?"

"Faza is not as smart and as ta'at Ustadz, everything that happens outside of Faza's wishes, If Ustadz objected to Faza's attitude, Ustadz could cancel this marriage before preparations began, Assalamualaikum." Ning Faza immediately left Ustadz Adnan.

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In his room Zayn was contemplating what he had done to Ning Faza. If only He had not thought of Ning Faza's honor of not wanting to be touched by his mahram, He would have hugged him tightly to slightly reduce the burden on his heart.

"Do I have to do the next plan? It seemed like if it was just silence waiting for Ning Faza, he would not do anything." Inner Zayn.

At his official home Ustadz Andan was also pensive thinking about Ning Faza's increasingly visible attitude if Ning Faza did not want this marriage to happen. But her love for Ning Faza did not allow her to just let go.

"Oh Allah, Sinner I want her as my wife." Inwardly Ustadz Andan could not master her feelings.

In the third night Ning Faza performed the tahajud prayer and continued with the Istikharah prayer two reka'at as recommended by the Prophet in a hadith narrated by Jabir Ibn Abdillah ra said:

"If among you want to do things/deals, then rukukuklah (shalatlah) two rakaat from other than fardhu.

Then pray: 'O Allah, Verily I ask You for the right choice with Your knowledge and I ask Your power (to overcome the problem) with Your power. I ask you for something of Your great grace." (CHR. Bukhari)

While slightly raising his head and raising both his hands to ask for steadiness, Ning Faza continued Do'a by expressing his disquiet to Allah SWT.

"O Allah Thou knowest all my affairs, I therefore ask the steadfastness of heart to make my choice."

If Zayn is good for me, For my religion, my life, and whether in the world or in the hereafter, then do not do Zayn for me, And make it easy for me and give me blessings.

If Zayn is bad for me, take Me away from him, and put Ustadz Adnan on me and lean on my heart."

The quiet night was filled with tranquility, making Ning Faza more solemnly draw closer to God.

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