Competing Love With Ustadz
Self Muhasabah

"Astaghfirullahhaladzim, Did I not intend to surrender all decisions to Allah SWT," Zayn's mind immediately threw away his bad thoughts.

Then he went back out to the mosque.

The lack of street lighting and lush trees around the house make the night feel increasingly gripping. But Zayn ventured and continued to step into the mosque which was only blocked by the not-so-extensive Salak plantation.

Once the Zayn mosque was immediately cleaned in the bathroom of the mosque which was only less than one square meter.

Then Zayn took ablution water and entered the mosque that looked so quiet, Only attended some worshipers who had aged twilight.

With a slight bow Zayn shook one by one their hands with respect, then performed the qobliyah prayer solemnly.

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Ustadz Andan, who had been told what had happened to Faza from Ustadz Azmi, felt increasingly pessimistic about his marriage to Faza, What is more until now Pak Kiai has not also talked about the preparation of their marriage as Pak Kiai said before leaving for the guardian songo pilgrimage. Making Ustadz Adnan express his heartbreak to the father who had also experienced failure before the wedding.

"So I have to how's Dad?"

"No need to worry about your soul mate later. The human soul is guaranteed by God. Allah guarantees to create all things with his partner. This is based on the contents of the letter Az-Zariyat verse 49, which means:

And from everything we have created in pairs that you may remember the greatness of God,

God has arranged the soul mate of man, so seek and pray to Him to be soon met with your true soul mate,

In QS. Al-Furqan verse 74 At once became Do'a pleading for a mate to Allah SWT.

ا لَنَا اجِنِا اتِنَا

Meaning: “Yes our Lord, Grant us spouses and descendants from among us as tranquilizers.

Trust me, Son, If you are not in a match with Ning Faza, God has prepared a good soul mate according to God for you.

You can learn from the failure of your marriage, God sent a better soul mate to Dad, Yes it's your Mother."

"But Dad doesn't love Bude Suraya and Mom is much prettier than Bude."

"God says: There is no creature on earth except that God keeps his provision, In this sense, We who are destined to marry in this life do have a soulmate. But this does not mean that one's soulmate guarantees one worldly happiness, for even the most loving spouse is a test of patience, so whether our spouse is beautiful is just a test, For eternal joy lies only in the paradise of Allah SWT."

"I understand Dad, thank you for making my heart a little calmer."

"Give it all to Allah Adnan, If even Ning Faza is not your soul mate, Believe me if God has prepared the best soul mate for you."

"God willing."

Adnan ended his phone call and went to the bathroom to fetch water.

While in her room Ning Faza was in a state of deep remembrance, she had surrendered to Allah SWT and would accept anyone who would become her husband. He will no longer follow his passions and humiliate Abi and his honor as a Muslim.

Abi who saw him from the door slit was pleased that his daughter had returned to worship solemnly and no longer daydreamed about Zayn.

Then Mr. Kiai left Faza's room and went to fetch water. After that Mr. Kiai went into the room and held a prayer mat to conduct self-muhabah.

🍃 Morning Day 🌻

Zayn who felt his stomach so mules felt confused where he should throw away his wishes.

"On the farm? In Bushes? That's not possible, Mau put where the face of Zayn Athalah Faraz Shaikh who is a famous model must defecate there? Oh No!" Zayn rubbed his face rough, His arrogance while being a model instantly appeared in his mind. But his body was getting cold sweat because it held the call of nature which was increasingly inexhaustible.

Zayn was forced to remove his pants and replace them with a sarong. Then he brought the wet wipes he was carrying and rushed out of the house looking for bushes like what Ustadz Saifullah said yesterday.

"It looks like it's safe here," inwardly.

Just crouching down, Zayn sees a star he has seen in his entire life. His soft and innumerable feet were able to make Zayn creep. He wanted to leave the place but his wish could no longer be held. The beast was getting closer together with the outflow of the great degrees that he had been enduring since. Zayn had not had time to clean with the tissue he was carrying, the Beast was getting closer to his feet and made him run straight in a storm. Not to lose his fear, Zayn is back in front with two local teenage girls who make Zayn lose face with his current condition.

"Oh Mr. Kiai, you really tested my mentality and faith." Zayn's mind then walked like a model on the JFW catwalk to cover up his embarrassment.

The two young women laughed at the behavior of Zayn who they had just seen in their village.

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