
🍃Living room🍃
Dika, Kinara, and Agra were already sitting in the living room. Aunt Ane had also served drinks and snacks on the table. However, none of them were touched by the three. I don't know, the atmosphere is indeed not favorable to enjoy the dish. Never be able to chew food, even a mouthful of water cannot be swallowed.
“I know I may be presumptuous, but can I talk alone with Kinara?” Agra raised her head, her eyes looking straight at Dika who was sitting right next to Kinara.
Dika and Kinara sat in the same chair, their distance was also quite close. Agra sat in the other chair.
“Is there anything important you want to say?” ask Dika.
Agra just nodded. His gaze was still not sidetracked from Dika. Dika looks restless, several times playing his fingers. “I ...”
Would I go overboard if I was afraid of losing you again, Kinara? Not because I don't believe in you, but I don't believe in myself. Can I stay in your heart after the reunion between you and Agra? inner Dika.
“Sa ..” Dika stopped his sentence. It should have said ‘sayang’ came out of his mouth, but he didn't want to hurt Agra. “Kinar, do you want to talk to Agra?” dika asked in a soft voice, she kept smiling. Kinara looked over, the two of them clashing. There was no anger in Dika's eyes, but there was clearly fear there.
“I ...” Kinara grabbed Dika's wrist. Agra immediately turned her face away, unable to see Kinara acting spoiled towards Dika. “I can't do it behind you, Mas. I'm your wife, I don't want to make you guess what I'm doing with other men.”
I was also afraid that you would act out of bounds like you used to, when you thought I was playing crazy with Agra, Inner Kinara.
The deg!
Agra lowered his head, his hands trembling slightly. Apparently turning his eyes away was not enough to keep his heart from getting hurt. Hearing Kinara speak meekly to Dika, Kontan made Agra's heart hurt.
“So, can't you give me a minute?” agra asked with a trembling voice. This time his eyes turned to Kinara.
“Kinara ...” Dika said softly while rejuvenating*s soft fingers Kinara. “I trust you, you have to take steps, you have to decide whether to end your relationship or start over. I won't stand in the way of all your decisions, as long as it makes you happy. I can take it."
Dika looked towards Agra and smiled. “I can give you permission, but I'm sorry that you guys still can't be alone. Aunt Ane will accompany you. How?”
Agra nodded. At least he could ask at length at Kinara without having Dika among them.
“Good.” He got up from his seat. Kinara grabbed Dika's fingers, looking up her head with a floating look. Dika nodded her head, gently stroking Kinara's fingers and letting go slowly. He immediately walked away. Before long Aunt Ane had already come and stood behind Kinara.
“Ken, after Kinara and Agra's business is done, you should tell me immediately. Kinara was still sleepy and very exhausted, let me carry her all the way up,” Dika said to Ken before he went into the room.
🍃Living room🍃
“Actually ... what happened, Kinara? You and Dika ..” Stop talking. “Have you guys referred?”
Kinara bit her lower lip, with trembling lips she said, “Iya, I decided to go back to her. We both have referred.”
The deg!
Like being struck by lightning in broad daylight, a reality that Agra never imagined in fact happened. Suddenly his chest ached, like being stabbed by a sharp object a thousand times.
“Why? Why, Kinara? Why is it that while I'm struggling to cope with everything, why did you choose to leave and run away from me? Didn't you welcome my hand? Why did you also brush it off? Even when I believe and try to hold your hand tightly? Why Kinara?!”
“I ...,” says Kinara disconnected. This was the first time Kinara had seen Agra so emotionally.
“Aren't you being too cruel to me?”
“A-I'm min-apologizing, Agra. Really.”
“Sorry you won't be able to return the heart you stole? You took away all the love I had, you threw away my love after you were with her.”
“I ...” Kinara. “I don't know if I should apologize or anything from you, I think it's true what you said. Sorry I said won't make you better. So I won't ask ma-maaf.” Increasingly sobbing.
“I'd like to let you know, if my engagement with Allen is off. But none of my messages were returned, no phone calls from me you never picked up. Do you have to be that cruel to dump me?! At least you owe me an explanation.” Bending head. “I've done it all, Kinara. In my own way, but what do I get? You chose to go back to him? To the man you said was more cruel than the devil?!”
Kinara grew sobbing hearing all of Agra's sentences. You're right, this is all my fault. I came to you, but it was I who left you, Inner Kinara.
“Stop crying and tell me why you chose it? Did he force you?”
Kinara shook her head quickly. “No one forced me to vote for him. I don't understand why I chose it either. Everything happened so fast. My feelings for her just came.”
Agra smiled bitterly. Just come by? “If your feelings for her come just like that, then what do you feel for me?”
Kinara. She herself did not know how to explain about her feelings to Agra.
“I ... For God's sake I'm really sorry, Agra. Aren't you too cruel to judge me?”
“Cruel? You said I was cruel? Who is more ruthless among us, Kinara?”
“I ... I'm the crueler, it's all my fault, but I also don't want us to end up like this.”
“I'm sure he forced you.”
“No! I told you he didn't force me! Didn't you see for yourself I don't feel pressured to be around him.”
Agra took a deep breath. Turning his face away, when his eyelids were closed, when the clear feathers fell past his cheeks and emptied into his trembling hands.
“Didn't there be a chance for me? You can ask me, tell me if you want to run away from him. I'm willing to take you away.”
“No! No, Agra! I don't want to run away from her .. i.”
Agra swallowed his saliva. This time it turned out that Kinara herself wanted to be beside Dika. “Do you love her?” ask Agra.
Kinara raised her head. Their black beads met, Agra's eyes wet. Filled with tears, so did Kinara. both sobbed, taking away the pain they had created themselves.
For a second Kinara opened her mouth. “I love him so much. Me ...” Kinara stopped her sentence. Never mind, the word sorry will no longer be useful. The thousand apologies that Kinara said even once would not make the wound in Agra's heart improve. Think Kinara.
Agra took a breath and exhaled violently. Repeat until his heart feels a little calm. “Good. Since I heard it directly from you, I believe that you do love him. Well, I've lost. And as a man, I should be able to take it with a chest. One last celebration, please look at me for the last time Kinara. Stop looking down and look me in the eye!”
Slowly Kinara raised her head. He tried to strengthen his heart as both of his eyeballs caught the male figure he had once hoped to fill his days. The man who was sitting with his body shaking. Her hair was already disheveled, kinara did not know when Agra was ruining her hairdo. A few minutes ago he still looked handsome with his hair on his back.
Agra rubbed her tears rough. Asked in a choked voice. “Tell me, have you ever loved me? Just a little?” Tears rolled free from her eyeballs. His chest rose and fell due to the heavy breathing. “Little bit,” flowed. Agra covered her face with a palm. His shoulders shook violently, there was a sound of sobbing coming out from between his breaths. “Say, Kinara. At least I should know how you feel about me.”
“Iya. I once loved you, but I don't know if it was real love or love because of circumstances.” Kinara said. Immediately after saying that he bowed his head.
“Certainness?”
Kinara nodded slowly.
Agra smiled bitterly. Tears are dripping again. “You mean because I've always protected you and been by your side?”
“Mu-maybe. I can't be sure if I really love you or not, but that feeling was once there for you. I once hung a dream so high that I could live with you. Who would have thought the dream had just crashed, I really never expected us to have an end like this" Kinara said regretfully.
“Enough, Kinara! Enough's enough! At least I know your answer. Me, not strong to hear other reasons.” Agra got up from his seat and extended a hand. “I know it's impossible for me to hold you, even if it's the last hug, but let me shake your hand. For the last time?”
Kinara woke up, looking at Agra with apologetic eyes. “I can't. Ii'm sorry. I will not give you any more hope. Right now I've given up my life for Dika.”
“Good.” Agra pulled his hand with great force. The bitter pill he had to swallow could not be spewed out. Like it or not, Agra had to accept Kinara's decision. “May you be happy. I'm saying Kinara.” Turn body.
I really wish you could live happily with her, thank you for having been in your heart even though it was only because of the favor. Whatever the form, at least I've felt you love me, inner Agra.
“Agra, after all this can we stay friends?”
You asked me to be your friend after getting rid of me so cruelly? Are you still the woman I admired, why are you so cruel, Kinara! inner Agra.
“We'll see if time can heal my wounds, maybe I can start over by being your friend. However, if time makes my injuries worse. I'm sorry, it looks like the friendship between us will never exist.”
Agra left Kinara just like that, after uttering a sentence that made Kinara sob with a hunting breath.
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Forgive mom, Agra 😭😥 Mom promise you will make you happy even though it is not the same Kinara.
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