Dream Womb
Goddess Helper

“You are truly my helper goddess,” said the man named Haris. He kept praising me to shame.

“I did nothing, just returned your card.” I shook my hand, dismissing his exaggerated thoughts.

“No, I'll have trouble without this card. I need it to be able to enter my work space,” he explained.

I nodded in understanding.

***

“Sorry, I can only reply with lunch,” regretted.

“No need to bother, coffee alone is enough.”

“I will not be quiet if only a glass of coffee.” A waiter approached us and gave us a menu.

Haris forced me to have lunch together as a thank you. I feel really sad because my body is not too big. Another case if I help you in a disaster maybe, even I will ask for more. Of course, it's just my essay. How dare I charge like that?

“Here is famous for its pizza, how? Want?” bargained for.

“Anything, I'm not a picky person.”

“Perfect,” he said cheerfully then ordered some menus for us on the waiter.

As the waiter left, Haris returned with a charming smile. I'm not used to talking

with the opposite sex other than with Mas Andre, moreover his attitude was very different. This guy treats me very well. Until it makes me awkward.

“By the way, I don't know your name yet?”

I was surprised by the shame. “Sorry, my name is Keysha!”

“Keysha!”

I raised my face because he called me.

“My name is Haris, it's better to hear.”

I pull out every lip that almost every day tightly clenched. I already knew his name. “Ya, that's better,” I agree.

***

Not long after our order arrived, various appetizing dishes were presented. Haris also ordered two snacks for dessert. When all orders have been collected, Haris invites me to eat them immediately.

We ate with wisdom, for some reason this lunch was so memorable. In addition to

the hindangan are delicious, maybe because I was accompanied by people as pleasant as Haris. I did not realize that I had spent 4 slices of pizza alone. Like I'm not the one who always has no taste when meal time comes.

“Ah, I am very full.” Haris rubbed his slightly bloated stomach and it made me chuckle amusedly.

“You want more?” tanyakanya.

I shook my head slowly. “No! I've eaten almost all the food. Sorry, must be embarrassing.”

“In fact I am embarrassed, it turns out we have been in the same poly and I did not realize it,” Haris said.

“Nothing,” I said understand. “Haris always come with his wife, huh?”

Haris face suddenly changed, the twinkle on his face dimmed slightly. “Almost every consultation.”

I clapped my hands. “I'm so envious of your wife.”

Haris who wanted to sip coffee just spread his shoulders. “No need? That's a normal thing.”

I nodded with a thin smile. “I always come alone, therefore I am very

it's nice to see a couple who always come together to poly. Because I can't be like you guys.”

Silent for a moment until Haris cleared his throat. He reopened the conversation.

"Seven years" I replied quickly.

Haris looked surprised. “Seven years? I've only been on four years. Must be very heavy.”

“Yeah, I'm trying to live as I can. Various treatments I have done, but have not produced results. I kept trying and trying until unknowingly seven years already

elapsed. Sometimes I feel depressed when I see my friend has a baby

through social network.”

Haris put down the cup and turned her look serious. “I understand how it feels, I have also experienced it until I close my account so as not to be affected by the outside world.”

I widened my eyes half believing. “So, even men can feel such a thing?”

“Of course you can! I often envy my brother or friends who have had children. Till

my boss once said that if we don't have children, we don't have a purpose in life and that pisses me off.”

I shut my mouth to respond to Haris' words, it turns out he was once that frustrated. “It was verbal abuse.”

“All will happen because we are one gender. Sometimes it hurts even more" he said with a crisp laugh.

We spent quite a long time talking about many things, until unknowingly the day had come late in the afternoon. I flinched looking at the clock on my phone and looked around. The sky began to show redness.

"Geez, how is this? Haris not back in the office? It's time to go home" I panicked.

"No problem, it just so happened that after the break I had no more work."

I breathed a sigh of relief hearing that. We also left the restaurant. Haris took me to the station.

"Thank you for the deal. It's been so much fun, I haven't felt this free in a long time."

Haris smiled while looking at me. "I should be thanking you." He rubbed his neck. "I don't have a lot of people I can talk to on this issue, I'm glad we're in the same situation."

I nodded then lowered my head. Just now flashed the face of Mas Andre who always wore a flat expression. In contrast to Haris who has since given a smile full of calmness. It was as if channeling life energy and, it made me happy and sad at the same time.

"This is really very fun," I said softly. "What should I do? This

too much fun."

I can't control myself because my tears are dripping without excuse. The emotions of my soul peaked unstoppably which even made my heart very painful. I heard Haris calling my name, there was worry in his tone.

"Keysha, are you okay?"

I'm shaking. "I'm on the verge of getting tired. Everyone around me has become a mother, and I? No matter how hard I try. She said that I was unworthy as a woman, If God said that I might accept it, until years passed my husband did not want me anymore. As a woman or as a man, I have no place in her heart."

There was no sound until I realized I was acting too much. I have just revealed my disgrace, my lack of it to Haris. I wiped the rough trail of tears that were still flowing.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't be talking to you about insignificant things" I looked away and intended to leave. However, Haris blocked my wrist. We too

face each other,

"Your life is worth a lot. You can ignore it, but since we know each other. I feel like we have something in common in many ways. Even today, the time I spent with you feels very special. And, honestly .. I'm taking you

for lunch is because to me you are attractive as a woman."

I was filled with all his words. Am I like that, am I really worth it?

"So don't feel inferior. Because you're special, Keysha."

Was Haris an angel in a past life? Because ever since we started talking, only good has come out of his tongue. No blasphemy, no hatred. There is only

a familiarity that makes me comfortable.

“Ah, besides that as my gratitude for having found my card,” he added misbehaved. I can catch a red tinge in his ear. That guy's embarrassed?