Dream Womb
Mother Shock

The POV Haris

Breaking into pieces to become the smallest parts, maybe that's how I describe my heart right now. Not just cracking, not just hurting from being betrayed, but getting hurt from being manipulated.

I survived being a real man who did not leave his wife while still pregnant, talking carefully that this household could not be continued anymore because it did not want Diana also to feel hurt, she said, but all of that was countered by him. Now he's giving me an unforgettable gift. The gift of betrayal to the man who has been physically and psychically violent to the woman I love.

Complete are all the strands of suffering, regret, and guilt that are now lodged in my chest. I go in no direction. I don't know where to take this foot. I'm not sure there's still a place to breathe with relief after all the madness Diana put in.

The best part of all this is that I can decide everything clearly now. No more doubts, worries, or wanting to walk backwards. With all my resolve, I have decided to leave Diana, the manipulative woman in our relationship who is arguably a toxic relationship.

My mind was programmed to drive this car to an old and simple house with paint that had started peeling everywhere.

I entered our courtyard, a house full of good memories, then suddenly I realized I had neglected this family a lot. The house whose paint faded is proof of my disobedience as a boy. Mother who fell in the bathroom is also an embodiment of indifference that happened because of Diana again.

It's already night time. When I knocked on the door, Santi opened the door and looked at me with a look of astonishment. The mother who was looking at me from the living room immediately approached.

"Haris, what's up, son? Why did you come alone? Where's Diana?" ask mother.

I hit him and hugged him tightly. Still implied a thousand questions in Mother's eyes, but she harbored it for a moment. Simply pat slowly on the back which represents the dialogue of the heart.

"This is the tea first," said Mother while putting a cup of tea that still reflects the smoke.

Without waiting any longer, I immediately sipped the tea to warm up. Mother sat looking at me with a worried look, but the noble woman's mouth was locked because I didn't want to tell her anything. After drinking the tea, I put my feet up on the chair and laid myself on my lap.

"Haris wants to sleep on mom's lap" I sighed.

Gently, Mom rubbed my head, then the peace slowly slipped into the chest. Mom's hand rubs kept me calm, and I ended up falling asleep that night after decades I went back to sleep in my mother's lap.

The next day, as the sound of the neighbor's chickens started crowing, the birds started chirping, and some little children playing behind the house, I woke up. The typical rural voices that I miss are starting to sound. I woke up feeling a little more relieved.

"Mom made you coffee, Haris. You didn't even get to eat last night. This is my mom making your favorite rice."

"Yes ma'am, Haris is drinking his coffee. Last night was not hungry, but this morning smelled the aroma of jengkol with rice sitting, worms in the stomach is already revolting."

Mom laughed and put the rice on the plate. I immediately sat down and ate the food that always tasted good on the tongue because the mother made it.

Mom nodded her head, then poured hot tea again into my glass. I'll finish it soon. It feels so full.

"Yes, it's okay. Diana's pregnant, so maybe she's sensitive."

Hearing Diana's name uttered by Mother, my face suddenly warmed. As if I could read the changes on my face, Mother again asked, "Why Diana? Why isn't he coming?"

She asked very carefully, as if she didn't want to hurt me.

"Mom, Haris has to say something. Haris will continue the divorce process."

Mother was silent looking at both balls of my eyes with eyes full of question marks.

"That child in Diana's womb is not Haris's, ma'am." I continued the explanation, making my mother's lips open so surprised.

"Diana's been cheating on me with a guy. She uses the baby in her womb to keep Haris from divorcing her. But this time Haris won't back down, ma'am. Haris is ready to divorce Diana."

"Ohhh Lord!"

I look so shocked to hear my words. Even the woman who gave birth to me immediately held onto her chest.

"Mom, Mommy... Mommy isn't papa?" Seeing the unexpected reaction of the mother, I immediately embraced her.

Mom's body is cold and very weak.

"Diana, no. This is impossible!" Mom's eyes were empty.

"Santi... Santi, come here quickly, please, I'm about to faint!" my yelling.

Tbc.

Diana was the culprit of everything. 🤧🤧🤧