Dream Womb
Want to keep but scared

I tried to escape Haris' sudden embrace. It's nothing, we're in my contract, what if someone else sees it. There will be slander and I will be the most harmed if it happens. This can't be allowed. All this time I've been tired of fighting matters of the heart, I want to live a quiet life does not want to add to the problem again.

“Please, release Haris!” I cried when the man still hugged this body tightly.

“I'll let go of this hug as long as you promise not to run again, Keysha.”

His words really made me helpless. Its sturdy body protects as if it is ready for the storm, and the scent of this perfume is a distinctive fragrance that I miss. Even just craving it I feel an incredible calm. So strong is Haris' charm for me.

“Promise first, Key, you don't run away anymore, okay?” I stared at my two eyeballs.

“Release Haris, later someone will see,” I replied in a firm tone. Inevitably Haris let go of the grip of his hand.

“You must believe my explanation, Alesha, Diana has been deceiving me all this time.” Haris still insisted, I finally let go firmly I took his hand and invited him to sit on the porch chair.

“Explain while sitting down, I make a drink first.”  

I rushed in and made a cup of tea. Now I need a little space to escape the enormity of the charm of this handsome man before me. He said the boy wasn't his son, then whose son?

Haris immediately sat on a simple chair on the terrace. My rented house is not equipped with a living room, only one small room is blocked between the room, kitchen, and bathroom.

While stirring the tea, I tried to calm this heartache. Meeting the handsome man I was about to drive out of my heart, was completely unthinkable in my mind. He should have gone all the way and we didn't get in touch again.I want to start a new life without any more guilt. But I can't deny there's a little relief that makes my heart feel comfortable. Meeting this man always ravages my soul and body like it used to.

After taking a deep breath, trying to put in as much oxygen as possible, I tried to neutralize my feelings that were still floating. After making sure my heart had calmed down, I brought the drink to the terrace.

“Please drink the tea first, Haris,” I said slowly. My hands trembled slightly as I placed the cup of tea on the table.

“They're really good at theatrics, Keysha. I overheard the two at the clinic where Diana checked the womb every month. Andre was trying to find out whether the child was his son or not, but Diana did not want to be honest. Andre then found out in his own way, until finally Diana could not dwell. Key, that kid Andre's son is not my son.” Haris' normally soft voice now rang out in an explosive manner trying to convince me.

"We're divorced, Diana finally let me go, it's not easy to get out of the shackles of this marriage, but look God always has a way of showing the truth."

I flinched half believing. I didn't think they could go that far. They also play crazy. Is that a form of frustration for Andre? I don't know either. Now I understand why in the Religious Court, Andre behaved normally. Turns out he's got things I can't give him. There is a little pain over this relief.

"I don't know what to react to, how can they go that far" I muttered in disbelief. Andre accused me of cheating, but he did it too.

Hearing a fact if Diana was pregnant with someone else's child, also Haris' divorce that has occurred. And even more surprising, it turns out that the father of the baby is Mas Andre really stirring up feelings. Between pain and relief, it is hard to describe. I unconsciously shook my head many times.

“Key, you don't want Andre with Diana?” Haris took a look at my expression and he concluded based on his assumptions. Of course it's not true.

I shook my head, I just felt like all dreams, and the universe gave way to the unexpected.

I smiled with relief because I now knew the answer.

“Haris thank you for bothering to tell me this yes, this news is a great relief. At least I'm glad that Diana and Mas Andre finally got a descent.”

“You said happy, but your face doesn't seem willing to. Keysha, don't tell me you're jealous,” Haris said as if unhappy.

He grabbed my hand without hearing my explanation again.

“So now there's nothing you need to worry about, right? I can't just part with you, Keysha, I love you.”

Haris kept looking at my face as if harboring such a deep longing. Again I must avoid this deadly gaze of hers. Now my heart's not gonna be okay.

“Why did you suddenly leave without giving an explanation, Key? Does the sense that is interwoven between us not matter to you?” saris's look sounded like a tone of despair.

Maybe he had been waiting for this moment for a long time, so when he met Haris directly demanded our relationship. I didn't get a chance to answer suddenly Haris spoke again.

“I also apologize to you for breaking your promise, Keysha. I was really confused back then and it was all because Diana set me up.” Haris took a long breath.

“I salute Diana who has a thousand and one ways to defend her household. Unlike me,” I said softly. Somehow I sometimes feel the only reason Mas Andre is united with Diana is to want to take revenge on us for being together at Puncak first.

“Your words still imply regret, Key.” Haris was not willing to hear my answer. Regretting a breakup with a man who is always condescending? Ah, it's not, Haris.

“What is clear is that I am not that brave to make your household also destroyed, Haris. I thought you went back to Diana. It turns out that all just a misunderstanding made by Diana.”

“Keysha, please come back to me, I can't live without you, dear.” Haris clasped my hand tightly and begged me to go back to her. This guy is very smart to make my body hot cold.

I was confused what to answer, although honestly my heart still exists. Should we start over? But I remember Haris' mother who didn't like me.

“Where might Haris be against his mother? From the story of Santi he is a very devoted child and very fond of his mother.” My mind is back on fire.

My instincts again reminded the logic to no longer be entangled in feelings that would only weaken. I can also understand and understand Haris' mother's attitude, so let's just say that this must be our destiny. Now, yes I think now is the right time to say goodbye to Haris in the right way.