Dream Womb
Broken for the umpteenth time

As the saying goes, the world is a stage. I was so happy to have a little sister. My life was filled with the presence of Santi. We become close naturally, nothing is made up, relationships just flow. He's someone else but he has a special place in my heart.

Tonight everything changed when Santi said one thing I never thought of before.

"Actually, Santi is his sister Kak Haris and mother knows the relationship of Kak Keysha with Kak Haris" said Santi in a soft voice as if afraid to break my heart.

Of course the news sounded like lightning in broad daylight snatching my face. I was burned to the ground, not just burning, but now I feel like I have no face left in front of Santi. I'm really embarrassed by the young lady I've been thinking of as my own sister.

It was only fitting that when Santi smiled, I saw the same smile I saw on Haris's face. They turned out to be brothers. How naive I was to never think that way.

Now I realize that I deserve bad treatment from Haris' mother. To them, I'm just an actor. Destroyer of the household.

Moreover, the proper mention for a woman who is in a relationship with a married man, so that Haris almost divorced Diana. This is the biggest stupidity I've ever done in my life.

"Santi, Brother is really sorry for this incident. It's true that Brother was in a relationship with Haris. But it's all over, Brother realizes this isn't true."

My voice was slightly stifled as I said my regret to Santi. Whether he wants to accept or not this apology of mine, which I clearly sincerely convey from the heart.

"Yes, brother, it's okay. Everything has happened, now Sister Diana is pregnant, so Kak Haris yesterday had come to the house. Before that Diana came to see my mother. Now they have returned to their homes again" replied Santi.

This time it was not only lightning that struck my body, but it was as if I was being dragged in a very swift roll of waves. The waves of reality that I inevitably have to face, even though it feels very painful.

"So soon, God changed the world. There was no reason for Haris to leave Diana. That woman is now the perfect woman because she can get pregnant and give birth to offspring" I thought.

I really need to bury everything. Now is the time to stand on my own two feet, expecting nothing from anyone.

"Thankfully, my sister is happy that they finally have a child, after years of trying the pregnancy program," I told Santi.

I don't have a better answer than this. Because actually the sound was almost stuck in the esophagus.

"It just so happened that we met at the same clinic, that's when we became close."

I let out a long sigh, as if disposing of the remnants of the grudge poison that settled in this chest.

A grudge? To whom should I be vengeful? Haris has done the right thing by going back to his wife, let alone having children.

Another better reason to re-unite the love that was torn apart because of my presence. Now I realize more and more how low I was once between their relationships.

"Because mom is fine, now you go home, Santi. Please apologize sincere brother to mother. Hope Haris and Diana are happy forever. Goodbye" I said with broken spirit.

I smiled, trying to hide the cut in this recess. Bemoan.

Santi drove me to the front of the hospital when the online motorcycle taxi driver came to pick me up.

I don't know what's on his mind. Maybe he was disgusted to see me. Once again, I deserve all the hate from the Haris and Diana families.

Cold air swept my face. Instantly the tears that were breaking on the cheeks instantly dried up. This time I have to thank the wind, where I can hide this cry.

The next day, I woke up with a very dizzy head due to lack of sleep due to hospital affairs. It would definitely be hard to concentrate on teaching today, so I decided to give a day's permission to the course institution where I work.

I need a little breathing room, so that this wound, pain, and burden of grief is lifted from the chest. Ah, I am a pathetic woman.

Tbc.

Come on reader, where's the sound? 10 Parts to the end. So enough.