I WAS CHOSEN
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I opened it slowly, I read it my hands were helplessly limp.This body felt dead, the paper fell down and tears unstoppable.

Instantly I was unconscious.

When I opened my eyes, I moved to my room.Mom was next to me stroking my hair.

"Mother...!"I grabbed my mother's hand and clasped her hand tightly.

"Yes nduk!"Hugged me.

"The letter is a lie!"I started not being able to control my emotions.

"Sir!You need to calm down, call it nduk!"Calms me.

"Mother.this isn't true!Adam's going home, right?"This time I completely lost my way and could not control the emotional overflow.

My crying really broke.

I hope about Mas Adam what is written in the letter is not true.He certainly came home, he still promised to express his feelings to me.He also promised to take care of me.

"Adel. I know you lost it but you must remember, everything in this world belongs to God!What is living will come home to Him!Adam was a very good boy, he loved you too Adam once revealed that he loved you to you! A good man he will ask a woman's heart to his father, for the first love of a child is his father!"I gently rubbed my back.

My cry grew even more after I learned that Mas Adam had asked my father, a man who really made me comfortable and kept my honor.

But now she's gone away from my life, won't come back.When I also start loving her now she's just become a part of the past that once made me happy.

"Ikhlas is he nduk, so that he is happy.Adam is fighting!the country would be proud to have it!"Strengthened me .

"Sorry Brother Adel!Excuse me first, there are some things I have to finish.Later to come here again!"Pamit Deni who was still here waiting for me to calm down.

I already do not understand how to face the days ahead.Many dreams that I wake up because of Mas Adam.Memories with him, making these tears can not stop flowing.

the flashback

Stopped at a photo studio.

"Kok here, what are you doing?"I was still unmoved when Mas Adam opened the door of the car where I was sitting.

"You watch dangdut!said you wanted to watch dangdut!"he smiled meaningfully.

"Ga akh no longer want to watch dangdut!I'm going home!"i reasoned.

"Do you go down by yourself or do I carry a sling?"she said softly.

I looked into his eyes, I knew that if his eagle eyes had been taken out, he was being serious.

I moved my body to get out of the car.

"We'll see them shoot photos let's know what a prewedding shoot looks like!"Adam with a sly smile.

"Oh so today I got bullied?"I walked away, but my hand was taken.

"Why does it keep going today?It's just kidding!"she's staring.

"Who's craving?"i melengos.

"This deh we used to photograph the newlyweds, then we will chat while eating, how?"he persuaded me.

I didn't answer.

"This time I promise!"thrusting his little finger.

He took me this time, and I followed him.

Flashback off

The last memory with her.The memory was repeated in my head.Smile.Suaraanya his ignorant gaze.Yes Allah I miss her so much.

"Eat first!your body is anget you lemes pale!"Mother persuaded me.

"Del..eat yes!Sister Restu bribe!"Brother Restu who came to the house after knowing Mas Adam was declared missing in the task.

I don't care about Sister Restu at all.

"Del you have to eat!pity Mas Adam if you know you are like this.You love it is the same Mas Adam?You must eat you must continue all the dreams of Mas Adam!"I know Sister Restu is often jealous of Mas Adam, but I heard this time she was very sincere.

Deni came to bring a doctor, because my condition was not possible.Thus I finally had to be rushed to the hospital.

"Assynnya!"someone knocked on my bedroom door.

"Gallaikumsalam!"My answer.

"Adel, can Mama come in?"Mama Sari looked into the room.

"Mama Sari!"Call me.

"What's your sick son?"Kissing both my cheeks.

"Adel's sick typhoid Mom!"Mother who answered.

"This is Adel's mother?"Staring at the mother with a sigh and hugging the mother.

"Yes.I am Adel's mother!"Mother introduced herself.

"Sorry, I'm Sari!I've considered Adel like my own son, so I asked him to call me Mama!"Mama Sari is friendly, she never looked at people of social status.

"Yes, it's okay Mom I'm even happy to mean Adel can be accepted anywhere!"

"Adels...Mama misses you!"Slipping back.

I just fell silent, seeing Mama Sari reminded me of Mas Adam.

"Adel...kamu why darling?Is anyone sick?Let Mama call the doctor!"Worrying.

"Adel has been eating for almost a week, crying often!I'm confused how should Mom?"Mom saw me sad.

"Oh God!Adel...Adel once said to Mama that Allah does not like His servants who torture themselves!"Reminded me.

My tears are getting bigger.

Mama Sari hugged me.

"Can't you have time for me and Adel to have a chat?"

"Yes Ma'am, I'm staying at the Dzuhur prayer first then!"Mom left me and Mama Sari both.

"Adels...Adel love Mama?"I leaned against Mama's chest.

I nodded, Mama wiped away the tears on my cheeks.

"Just the same story Mama!What Adel feels the same story Mama, let Adel's heart is not crowded!"Hair-dressing.

"Why did God take Mas Adam so quickly, why did Mah?"After my crying turned into a sob.

"Mas Adam?Is Adam your lover?"because Mama Sari did not know Mas Adam, so she was still confused by my story.

"Yes Mah! Why would Adam?"I'm still shaking.

"Darling, same story, Mom!Mama wants to know Mas Adam who Adel loves it!"Mama Sari was indeed a meek mother.

I began to tell about Mas Adam.From the beginning of me and Mas Adam met until he had to be on duty abroad and now died but his body has not been found in a ceasefire.

I still can't accept the fact that the Mas Adam I know today is just a memory without me being able to see his face one last time.

"Adels...You are patient!Allah has given this to you, for you are His chosen servant, a great strong man!Be kind enough to think of God, everything God gives us means that everything has been arranged in such a way for our good!"Advice Mom.

Mama Sari's embrace made me comfortable and tenanng.Every time I was near Mama Sari seemed to be near Mas Adam.Entahlah!