I WAS CHOSEN
Room window

"So you see how I've been daydreaming!"Mother stroked my hair that was still half wet because I had just taken a shower.

"Mother!Ndak kok buk.. ngerasain seger after shower!"I try not to tell my mother.

"Where is Restu's condition?"Mom sat next to me and combed my hair.

"Alhamdulillah is better buk! he said he could come home tomorrow!"I'm not very excited about anything actually.

"Alhamdulillah!Then Mama Sari, how are you?"

"Today Mama Sari was operated on, but Adel does not know how she is now!"

"Tomorrow we'll go to the hospital, and I'll take some medicine!"

"Buk...from now on mom check up if Adel has been working how? From now on, Adam will not help us anymore!"I'm confused how to explain where Mom came from, because I know we're very helped with everything Mas Adam gave us.

"What's up nduk?the same story, Mom, why do you think like that?You got a problem with Adam?"It seems like mom is starting to understand the different ways I think.

"Gini buk! From now on we have to be independent, Adel will not depend on Mas Adam!It doesn't taste good buk! From tomorrow Adel will look for extras for our family life."I'm very careful to talk about it I don't want you to get sick thinking about this.

"Yes.mom also thinks like that nduk!You have to go to school, I don't want you to drop out of school! The late father fought hard so you could go to school!"Mom glassy.

"Mother.. Adel's school will be paid off until graduation!don't worry, Adel's going to work after school!I am calm !"I hugged mom.

I try to give understanding to mother as smooth as possible.

"Then later mom help ya, used to sell maybe mom can sell again!"Mother gave input.

"Ga need to buk..mom should stay healthy, Adel do not want mom tired!Help Adel with prayer, if it's not wrong Rifi has a small loundry maybe he needs help!"my thinking.

"Yes wes.it's up to you but you have to stay in school don't get too tired either!"stroking my hair.

I must be prepared with all possibilities.I do not want to depend on Mas Adam.He is good enough!For a year or so I've known her a lot of what she's given me and my family.

My phone vibrated a message from Sister Restu.

Del tomorrow Kak Restu can go home, home also want to be taught, you come!!

Fill in a message from Kak Restu.

Thank God he was able to go home, it was a relief.

What do I think I want to do? while sometimes my school until the afternoon, especially if you have to exkul.Lakan for the last game must have no time.

"O Allah, how should I ?"I lay my body on the bed.

My phone vibrated one call from Mas Adam.

I just let it go. I don't want anything to happen to him.

A couple of times I didn't listen to the phone.

Tok.dok...

The sound of my bedroom window being knocked.

I saw the clock on my phone showing at half ten in the night.

I'm speechless.

Tok.dok...

Back to my bedroom window was knocked.

Honestly afraid because it's already night.Especially at home there is only me and mom.

Can it be silat? Human if afraid, logic is yes if one person if there are some people will kill themselves.

Oh my God, how should I ?

My phone is shaking back the call from Mas Adam.

This time I picked it up because honestly this time I was really scared.

"Hallo assalamualaikum !"i'm.

"Wallaikumsalam, what else have you heard from Mas?"Cerocos Mas Adam's.

"Mas..please Adel Mas, Adel is afraid!"I tap into pleasantries, throwing away my anger.

"You why Del? afraid why?"Adam was worried.

"Someone tapped on my room window!i'm scared!"My voice hinted I was really scared.

"Father Ma!"I'm nervous.

"Yes, you are out now!Everything is safe!"He asked me to come out.

"Yes, I'm afraid to know!"

"Mas Adam is already outside!I guarantee everything's safe outside no one's!"He convinced me.

"Really ?"I still can't believe it.

"Really!This is Mas Adam on your porch right now!"He convinced me again.

I rushed to open the door of the house.Seeing a man sitting casually on the porch of the house.With the dim lighting of the house lights, Mas Adam looked at me.

"Attribute!"He stood up and walked towards me.

"Fuck!Did Adam check my window?someone knocked on the window!"I was like a child complaining to her brother.

"Udah!I checked everything was safe!"Her smile was thin but still sweet.

"Alhamdulillah!but I'm afraid someone is knocking on the window again!"I sat in a long chair made of bamboo beside him standing.

"Do you need someone to guard here ?"Adam was sitting next to me.

"Ga..ga try! Hope it's safe!"I'm honestly still worried and scared.

"Yes, tomorrow the school goes in, sleep with your mother if you are afraid!"Stare at.

"Why see I'm so rich!"I was misbehaving.

His sharp eyes always made me dare not look back.And as weak as that I was in front of Mas Adam.

"You ngadepin Desti is so tough! the window's turn is knocked the angry man is gone!"He chuckles.

"Who is angry?Bulldozed.

"That's why don't you like finding other guys behind Mas!Yes, if the one who tapped on your room window was someone! if it's a demon, what about ?"He scares me even more.

I glared and pinched his waist.

"Oohhhh!That wound is still not dry Del!"He grimaces in pain.

"The wound is on the right, not the left!"Defend oneself.

"Oh, I forgot!"He chuckles.

"Home home there!Profited here!"I pushed his body.

"So I was asked to please now ngusir, long time no lammar also you!"Grab my hand and look at me again.

"Ga home? if I don't go home I scream!"I tried to threaten him.

"Try on yelling! at most we're married, your RT man already knows me!"And not my threat.

"Ga believe!"And as always the real debate is pointless.

"Your neighbors, they want you to be their son-in-law!"He's getting cocky.

And actually what Mas Adam said was true.I've heard my neighbors praise Mas Adam.

Mas Adam who is handsome, a soldier, steady and certainly they often talk about Mas Adam sholih.

Gosh can big head this guy when he hears.

"Why did you change your mind?"Tempting me again, with a smile that I've actually been missing lately.

I pulled my hand and ran into the house, and locked the door.

I didn't want to linger with Mas Adam, because I knew I would change my mind if I was with him too often.

"Del...Adam come home, tomorrow go home to school!Someone wants Adam to explain! Assalamualaikum."Adam's voice was very clear behind the door.

"Gallaikumsalam!"I answered him with a clean slit.

Maybe if you were honest from the beginning of our relationship, I wouldn't be this disappointed.

Have you ever thought ?I love you so much, I will accept your bad good.You are always there for me, but I can't hold your hand when you need me.

I don't want to dream much, if Erli is a perfect person you can leave behind, let alone me?

But I also feel that I am not important to you, because the great things in your life you never share with me.