I WAS CHOSEN
Baffled

After I finished praying I was invited to a hospital food court.

"So I really want to eat barren rice, Mas inget deh deket here there is a sell!"The explanation is because from earlier I looked at his face that was wrong behavior.

"Keep!"I still look at him.

"Why the hell?see me that way?is something wrong?"He saw his own body.

"Ga.ga something's wrong!"I smiled and kept looking at his face.

"It.bikin's afraid!"He covered his face.

"Fear napa?"Now I'm confused.

"Fear that you won't be able to sleep because of my face!"He chuckled with his own flutter.

"Mas!"My facial expression turned serious.

"Eat first, you don't want to get sick!after eating you meet Restu he must have been waiting for you!"Now the look on his face turned cold and serious.

He scoops the food he brings, bribes me.And as usual I always obey him.

Until I ate a serving of barren rice.

"Never think or ask anything that makes Mas Adam unwilling to answer!So do what's best for you, I'm not a man who thinks over and over again!One time and everything that's gonna happen and the risk is I have to be ready!"Staring at me sharply.

Honestly understanding an Adam Mahesa is difficult even very difficult.How can I understand a man who never expresses his disappointment towards someone he loves? How can I understand if he's hurt to see me with another man? How could he ask me to always be there for another man?

While he never asked me to always be with him.He always attach more importance to my feelings than his heart.

She just always assured me that I was all she loved.The only woman she had in her heart.

"Mas..I don't know what to say?Must how?I hope this feeling is not only temporary and ends as soon as possible.DoI always chant your name, I want Him to choose you for me later!I can't give any certainty to our relationship!"I left him stunned to hear my words.

I walked unsteadily towards Brother Restu's room, thinking of what had happened, thinking of what had not happened, to my own fear.

Up in the hallway to my room, Sister Restu, Brother Gibran called me.

"Restu is aware but can not be invited to chat a lot, due to the post-operative yesterday.Where are you from?"Brother Gibran asked me.

"From the food court eating Kak, you haven't had time to eat!"I'm hiding Adam.

"Yes, come in!you were waiting for Mama from earlier.If Restu sleep."Unmistakably.

"Yes Brother!"I nodded.

"Dell!"He called me again when I was about to enter the treatment room, Sister Restu.

I stopped my steps and looked back.

"I know, you should be here for Restu!You should be with Adam!Just I don't want to lose Restu, so please excuse everything that's going on outside of our family's control!"He looked at me with a glare.

"What I'm doing now is the path I have to go! it's all written down so, I have to go through it no matter what the circumstances!"I left Brother Gibran with all his thoughts.

"Attribute!"Mama Kak Restu when she saw me enter the treatment room Kak Restu.

"How's Aunt Restu doing?"I approached Brother Restu who was fast asleep.

"The doctor says it's better, we just have to be patient!"I saw a relieved face on Mama Kak Restu.

"Alhamdulillah!Then auntie!may the critical period pass and recover soon!"I looked at Sister Restu's face, it looked lost and tired.

"You want a magrib aunt!Adel can't take long, pity mom at home."I'm pampering.

"Yes.thank you, Del is here!maybe without you until now Restu is still unconscious!"Mama Kak Restu who was sitting next to the bed Kak Restu is now standing and hugging me again.

I just smiled, there were no words I could say.My mind floated up not knowing the direction and purpose.

I went back to saying goodbye to Mama Brother Restu.Out I also say goodbye to Brother Gibran.

Suddenly there was someone walking beside me, aligning his steps with mine.

I looked at his face, he was Adam Mahesa the man who never left me when I needed a backrest.

He led me to his car, and he's been waiting for me ever since.

He was silent, along the way we were still silent until we got home.

Open the car door for me.

My phone's vibrating.

One call from Mama Sari's assistant.

"Assynnya!"

"Wallaikumsalam!Sister Adel's mother is in the hospital and is in critical condition, ma'am, can you go to the hospital now?"There was a worried voice there.

"Which hospital is Mama?"I was also worried about Mama Sari's last state that I knew she was checking up because of the drop back.

"Bina Medika Hospital Ma'am!"

"Yes, I'm there now!"I hung up.

Without a second thought I asked Mas Adam to take me.

"May Mama be well!"My prayer.

Usually Mas Adam really cares if people he knows have a disaster but why this time about Mama Sari he was silent.

She was very focused on driving.Once I looked at her the look on her face was very cold.

"Mas!"I ventured to ask him to talk.

"You don't have to worry that Mama's gonna be okay."Suddenly he said that.

"Mas!"I called him back to look at me, but he didn't budge.

At the hospital, we got off and I went straight to the information to ask where she was being treated.

"You go in first, and then you come in!There's work to be done!"He told me to come in first.

After finding Mama's room I went straight in.

There I saw a woman lying weakly with oxygen in her nose.

"Mama!"He who closed his eyes woke up to my call.

"Attribute!"Lax voice.

"Well, my God Mama, how can I drop gini?"It was sad to see my mother's condition so weak.

"Mommy should have had surgery for a kidney transplant yesterday!but mom refused and backtracked!"Bright assistant Mom.

"O Allah is great!Come dong Mah this all for Mama's sake, mama don't torture yourself Mama!"I tried to persuade him to do his kidney transplant immediately.

"Adels... Mama gapapa, mama's still strong!"He said because he was weak.

"Mah!"My tears suddenly fell.

"Mama gapapa baby! Maybe this is what you have to accept, you used to leave your family for someone else when your kids needed your mom, now you need them yes it's appropriate they leave your mom!"Mama's voice is stingy because of difficulty breathing and weakness.

Oh God what else is this? what other stories I'm facing!

"Yes but not like this too mama responded.That everything we do must be in return but that does not mean we have to pay it now!God has his own court!if this is the name is not those who do not care but mama!Mama must recover for their sake, mama's children need mama later.Sobbed mama's mistakes in the past with mama's health!"I was too fiery to encourage him.