Marriage Grief
CHAPTER 44 Not Conform to Expectations
Sapphire kept her eyes closed. Sapphires did not even move their bodies, as they felt the movement of Divya's hands. He feels so guilty about Divya. Self-conscious, if he had hurt Queen. Self-conscious, if without knowing Divya if Sapphire has hurt Divya's feelings. The sense that Divya considers ordinary disappointment is only because the first night must be delayed.
In the sense that Divya had fallen asleep lulled in a dream, Sapphire turned to look briefly at Divya who was already sound. After that he woke up to allow the blanket to warm Divya's body to the extent of Dada. Sapphire looked at Divya for a moment. His heart felt more guilty.
'I'm sorry, Di, ' Sapphire's heart murmured.
The man who had just this morning, feeling that he had received an answer from the worship that he had been routinely doing, was convinced of the choice that made Sapphire upset alone. Sapphire choose to go to the balcony room. Seeing the situation out there that is still crowded vehicles.
"My own fault, if everything goes like this. I have to take responsibility for Divya. Because after all, she's already my wife. In order to make ends meet, I believe I can. But, for that one how? How could I forget Queen overnight. Tomorrow night, something like that will happen again."
Sapphire thought of her own life. Raalita's life turned out to be incompatible with her expectations. Sapphire just kept breathing deeply. Hoping that the night breeze could calm his complicated thoughts by his own actions.
"It's a life consequence that I have to bear. Because it was I who had hurt the feelings of Father and Mother and also the Divya family. I have to accept all of this. All they know is that I love Divya. Then I should be able to act if I really love her. Yep. She's my wife and I'm obligated to do that. Gradually, I must have loved her too. Then Queen?" both hands Sapphire strong wrangling balcony fence. Just now in the heat-panation of Aris, his heart was already not clear of his taste. Then what if Queen married another guy out there. "I'm sure you'll get the right guy and love you so much, Queen. Time will change everything. I also hope that this heart will change. Hopefully."
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Queen's speechless. Recollecting when they will capture their moment when they will be in the photo. When they meet each other face to face. Although only briefly, but Queen felt something strange from Sapphire.
"Why was his gaze like that, huh, to me?" muttered. Queen continued to sharpen her memory when the eyes of Sapphire seemed concentrated and glued to him even for a moment. Not long after, Queen shook her head slowly. "Queeenn ..." Pekiknya while waking up. "Don't remember people's husbands. Not necessarily the husband of people think about your feelings. But what did he think of me too?" he muttered self-conscious.
Frustrated with her increasingly strange thoughts, Queen chose to go to the balcony of the room while carrying her flat object. Queen closed her eyes and breathed in the air tonight. Hope his heart and mind can be calm because they have to accept the situation.
"Somehow am I going forward. I must forget everything, indeed" Queen nodded softly as she looked at the flashing star as if to invite Queen to speak. "Of course."
Queen activated her phone screen. He opened the gallery to see the many photos stored there. He smiled because there were many photos of Sapphire working on something and Queen took photos of Sapphire secretly.
"Do I have to delete your photo now?" tanyanya doubt. "I can't if I do everything slowly. Until the end of this heart feels sincere. Only I know about this photo. But won't this make things difficult for myself? The right answer is still if it's better to have all this removed."
Queen doesn't want to continue to dissolve with silence tonight. After feeling satisfied and her heart calmed down, Queen immediately entered the room to rest. Tomorrow he will go to a place that Queen wants to visit.