Married Three Breeding Widow
Still Doubtful
Sitting on the edge of the private pool at night is always a habit of Juwita even before having children. And it seems like one house already knows that Juwita's habit is done if she has a problem.
The best know are Banyu .. and Abhimanyu.
Every night if they see Juwita sitting in her favorite spot, they will come with a glass of chocolate, be given a sprinkling of marshmallows and hear even if it is just as simple as Juwita again bete and tired of being a mother.
"Here." Like now. Banyu handed a chocolate mug that read 'Mama Juwi' and sat down beside him. "Gue know what your problem is but let me ask again—lo why, Juwita?"
Juwita looked at her feet that were submerged in the pool water. She wanted Juwita to stop feeling this but could the feeling be controlled?
"I always thought our family was perfect. All sides." Juwita took a breath from her mouth as she suddenly forgot how to breathe properly. "The work of Papa alhamdulillah, smoothly and until now we never know the name of the laper because it must be frugal."
Banyu reached out, clasping Juwita's fingers that Banyu never stopped holding since accepting her as Mama's replacement. Banyu always considered Juwita as the sister of Mama even Mama herself.
"Your father is not that perfect, obviously. Sometimes I'm the same Mas Adji also likes fighting. But, I never felt 'grandfather' with our family. Because I got you the same Abi."
They both made Juwita feel complete. I must admit, it was both of them.
Hearing all Juwita's complaints when Adji can't, giving Juwita a solution when Adji can't be there because of the busy work, and become something that fortifies Juwita from loneliness.
Juwita never felt lonely. Even though Juwita now has no friends except just acquaintances of mothers at Cetta school.
"I don't know if there can be perfect but," Juwita looked at Banyu with all the disgust he could endure, "why the hell should this be? Why should ... should it be?"
Why isn't the family terrorizing Juwita anymore? Or maybe the appearance of the second Ajeng? Why isn't Adji probably bored for a moment in the relationship and maybe he wants to take a break from the husband and wife relationship?
At least it all has a solution, although it may be painful.
"Why ...." Juwita can't say it because she doesn't even know what to do anymore.
Juwita shook her head, then turned to Banyu.
"I don't agree in this way. It's like it's just as if there's no problem and ...."
"And you don't accept Brother is not the brother you've been wanting?" guess Banyu, on target.
"Juwita, I'm still a kid when dibandingin elo with Papa. But I know what." Banyu clasped Juwita's hand tightly. "Gue never wanted Mama to go even now, but if Mama doesn't go, you'll never come here."
Maybe it was cruel but at least Banyu felt it.
That's why Banyu strengthened his determination even though he knew Juwita did not want to. Juwita did not want to lose anyone, especially Abhimanyu. But just as the universe forced Banyu to accept Mama's departure, Banyu would also accept that he had to lose Abhimanyu.
Banyu had no intention of stopping her even though he knew Juwita was crying for it.
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