Married Three Breeding Widow
The Point is He's Closing Lo
Adji understands why Juwita wants to leave. He cannot bear the burden of having to choose. It wasn't that easy indeed, deciding this to be like this.
That's why Juwita chose herself. He chose to leave the family because if he had to send Abhimanyu away, he would have to answer that question for life.
Children's questions about 'why should we split?'. Question 'why should anyone go?'. And this family will not be okay if up to honest answers like 'because Abhimanyu likes to be heard by the Abhimanyu sisters.
Yes, being here is hard. It feels like they are forced to separate slowly because this relationship hurts themselves and others.
But Adji would never choose resignation.
"Jewith." So even though he knew it was still very difficult, Adji kept trying to come to his wife. "Udah noon. Come down, eat."
The woman simply fell blankly hugging the bolster pillow.
"Mbak Icha under the ripe. All of you're favorites."
Juwita. "Whose sister Icha?"
"new ART. You are the one who asked. I called him, cleaned the same cooking. Come on, get down and eat."
".... Not a laper." Juwita hugged the pillow again. "Mas mending bring the kids home. Their kasian nyariin us. I'm not pa-pa."
Yeah, of course he's not okay. Adji is not a man who forces his wife to become a superhuman just because she is a mother.
The children must be confused even sad, but Juwita is the center of their lives. If Juwita is not well, bringing the children home will only make them confused.
"Bring food up, yeah." Adji kissed Juwita's shoulder before moving down.
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Abhimanyu often felt that no one understood his feelings. But Abhimanyu also did not want to blame anyone for it, especially Banyu.
All this time all that could really understand Abhimanyu was Mama and Juwita.
Abhimanyu just kept quiet, closing Sakura's car door after Banyu hugged Yunia who was sound asleep. Not wanting to linger there, Abhimanyu ran the car away.
Throughout the journey his mind was filled with many things.
Should he leave now? Should Abhimanyu stay away from his family so that Juwita can be happy again? But what about Abhimanyu's feelings? In order for everyone to be happy Abhimanyu must die, right?
Is this a worthy sacrifice?
No. gabe. Hasn't Abhimanyu sacrificed all this time? He was silent and silent for the happiness of Juwita. Everyone can pursue their love while Abhimanyu holds it.
Should he hold on forever? Why does everyone call him selfish when he wants to get that love?
"What I want to do?" abhimanyu muttered seconds after the car door opened and Olivia climbed in her side seat. "Missing him because I love him so much? Same situation? Move to another heart? You think I didn't try anything?"
Abhimanyu tried it. Turn to others, trying to fall in love until spending intimate time with them. Abhimanyu let them feel loved by him and let them love Abhimanyu. So many women. Abhimanyu even did it healthily, doing this and that but in the end it was always Juwita this feeling was gray.
He was always the one Abhimanyu was looking for. He was always the last person Abhimanyu thought of.
"Everyone just said I was lustful to Juwita," Abhimanyu murmured like exhaustion. "Everyone says I'm just crazy in love with Juwita. Yeah, I lust into him. I always lust for him. But I love him too. I love it until I'm willing to do anything for him."
Olivia was silent.
"But I also want to own him. I also want him to look at me. If I love him, I sell everything to him, then I can't hope? That means love?"
"Maybe it's not like that." Olivia replied after hearing the outpouring of weak emotions. "Maybe's the only problem yeah .. yeah because she's your bokap wife."
"...."
"Lo loves her, loves her, but the point is she's taking your step."
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