Metanoia; The Hybrid
CHAPTER 12: TO KNOW MORE DEEPLY.

"You finally saw me."

He was a form of myself, and now I see him clearly. Those eyes are my eyes. That body, that body, is my body. Him, seriously.

"Say, is this just my fantasy imagination, or are you really in front of me right now?" My toot.

"What if this is your fantasy imagination?"

"Then I don't have to assume you exist" I said as I walked back.

"What if this is reality?" The question managed to get me to stop the footsteps.

I turned to look at him, "Then I don't want the people closest to me to see you."

Don't bring anyone else into this business.

"I can tell you what your heart is and what your head is" he said.

"And I don't care, didn't you say you were a part of myself? Why would I cover something up with you?"

"Ah, I got carried away."

I walked back, and the wolf behind me followed, "Are you satisfied with the pain?"

"So you did it?" I was angry, but he just nodded in response.

As I was about to enter the same path as Edward and I came into the forest, this wolf stopped me, "You want to go there?" Ask.

"No idea, my instinct told me to go there. But, actually I want to meet Mr. Chiroz."

"At least give me a nickname."

"What kind of call name?"

"Something in your own name, I want it."

"Saga."

"Huh?"

"I gave you a name, Saga. From Sagara."

The wolf looked the other way, "What kind of name is that."

"Whatever, I'll go back to the Academy to find Mr. Chairoz, if the guards see me here, they must think I'm breaking the rules" I said.

The wolf looked back at me, "Without you having to go to that man I could easily say anything you didn't know."

"What do you mean?"

"Why don't we take a walk around here, I want to get to know you more deeply" the wolf turned around and left me. I also thoughtlessly followed him into the forest.

I know I'm a hybrid. Has a mixture of Lycanthrope and Vampire blood. Sure, I've known a lot of wolves all my life. So I'm used to seeing mythological creatures in the form of as bad and as good as anything. And I convinced myself, I was a Lycanthrope. It has proven already.

Merely, right now beside me, it is not the normal wolf I have encountered. He is myself, but it is impossible.

"What happened to you today, is your hybrid nature is beginning to emerge. Have you seen the Hybrid symbol in your hand?"

I raised my hand, seeing that once a perfectly curved line there was now a full quarter circle, resembling a crescent moon. The burn even looks like a painting that will never disappear in the palm of my hand.

"The more you develop, the more the symbol takes shape."

"Tell me what I don't remember today" I said as I continued walking and looked at my palm.

"Simultaneously, your Lycanthrope properties also appear. But today, the Lycanthrope trait is more dominant, and makes the appearance of your Hybrid trait invisible. You have preyed on a deer, as your first prey. You don't remember the incident because it's something new to you. You'll forget when something awakens you to your actions. That doesn't apply to any other Lycanthrope but you" he said.

"So I would be in a normal state if I had gotten used to the appearance of this Lycanthrope trait?" I asked to find the truth.

"It's true."

"You're not going to prey on anyone else, are you?"

Saga stopped his legs, "I and you have the same nature. Among us, no one can choose what to turn off to eat or just have fun."

"I don't want that to happen. If it were to be replaced by killing a generation of adult deer, I would. Not to anyone else" I said as I stared at Saga's bead.

"The desire to prey on something should not be occasionally held back, even the thirst for blood even when your Vampire side rises. It can damage yourself" Saga continued.

"Holding back from preying on others is better than finding out that the world knows you prey on others because of greed."

Saga growled, "I only gave you a warning from the beginning. Whether you want to hear it or not."

I chuckled at the big wolf beside me who growled, "My soul will be broken, not you. So calm down."

"At least preying on humans won't have any impact on you, will it?" Saga's words made me think twice.

"I guess so. But I've never been close to them" I'm honest. In Alystra, I only saw a few humans living in the Claverdon pack when I visited him several times with Allegro. No wonder the population is so small. The country itself was the place where the Vampire clan was.

"Tomorrow, you will prey on something again" said Saga.

"Any day I'm gonna be like this?"

Saga shook his head slowly, "No. If you're satisfied with your prey, maybe you'll last a few days, or even months."

"Oh, so."

"I think we're very compatible. Unlike other wolves in this place who have the opposite character to their human nature. When this happens, the next day you start doing Bond and Link" finally, I can use it to communicate with my father at Claverdon.

Saga stopped my lips as she was about to speak, "You can't communicate with Damian."

"It's not that easy to do Link, let alone your newly emerged nature and communicate over such a long distance will only be in vain. The more you develop, the more you master your own abilities" explains Saga.

"When can I transform?" I just want to know.

"We are Lycanthrope different from the others. People always think about our powerful aura, because you are eight years old and have an adult Alpha aura. The stronger a wolf is, the harder it is to transform. It all depends on you, whether you can bear it all or not. Do not rush, think again about the impact that will occur. Whether you can control yourself or not determines the transformation works perfectly. It all depends on you" Saga pressed her last sentence. It made me think that everything depended on me. Of course, if I can't control myself, then something bad will happen.

"It was fortunate that I quickly came to this place, and fortunately I quickly found the adult deer as my first prey. I can't imagine how if my nature had appeared in Claverdon, or on the way" I closed my eyes imagining it, there would only have been nightmares if all that had happened.

"From tomorrow, everything will change. We're starting to be able to communicate without me having to trick your fantasy imagination. It will also train our compatibility" said Saga happy.

"You're so happy" I smiled at her.

"Aren't you scared when you saw me for the first time? I mean, kids like you should run scared" led Saga.

"I'm not afraid, and I don't know why. I was just thinking, why are you so big of a wolf that I've ever seen. My height doesn't even reach your elbow" I said.

"Hahaha, we're different. Other wolves appear in a young form, and with time they grow in a human form. I'm not like that. I appeared in adult form. And it won't grow again, not even until you grow up. Because I was there when Annelise started pregnant with you. At that time I began to grow" said Saga.

"That's why hybrids are different from others."

Saga suddenly stopped and turned his fist very quickly. Ears twitching. "I thought we were going to split up. Chairoz and a healer named Abraham Major are on their way to your house."

"And I will be punished" I murmured.

"You still calm like that?"

I raised an eyebrow, "I've been panicking. Where am I calm?"

"You don't look like you're panicking. Well, good time to see you next time. It'll surprise you a little."

Saga approached me. He lowered his head and stuck his head on my forehead. Just until his body let out light. The light is so bright. Just like that until I was shocked, and woke up suddenly on the bed of the Academy hospital.

I adjusted my breathing, rubbed my chest, and found my extremely strong heartbeat rhythmically. It's dark, but I can see clearly. As Saga says, everything will change.

Then, I heard a foot daei far away, like outside the room. I immediately lay down and put on the blanket. Pretending asleep. Before long the door of the Academy hospital opened, and those footsteps approached. That must be Mr. Chairoz and Healer named Abraham Major who was with him.

As expected, their goal is to make sure about my condition. I know how Mr. Hand is. Chairoz, and he's got my forehead.

"The fever has gone down, it seems like the drink you gave me is very helpful" said the teacher.

"I am glad to be able to help, especially my students" Abraham said.

"Then what do you think about Gara?"

"You should watch him. I can tell, he has a volatile nature. Maybe even himself doesn't know that."

What does Abraham mean? I don't understand at all.

"Maybe it has something to do with me and your Vampire side."

Saga, so this is what you mean about communicating? It's like you're in my head, and I'm talking to myself.

"Hahaha, I'm you, remember?"

"Hybrid nature you mean?" Ask teacher.

"certain. And I heard, don't make him hold back his lust. Even if forced to prey on the people around him, he had to do it" Abraham's words made me remember Saga's words.

"What do you mean?"

"I don't know much either, I hear it word of mouth from the people in my place. The truth about the Hybrid child has really not been definitively discovered, although there are, those people might just shut their mouths."

The truth about Hybrid Children. What is that truth?

"Of course, no one knows the truth. Or some just shut their mouths over something. That truth is known only to the Hybrid itself, no one knows it unless the truth is revealed."

So you mean, you know the truth?

"I know, and I don't want you to know."

Wh why?

"I just don't want to."

You must be hiding something.

"If I hide something, you'll know it."

And if you know anything, I should know it too.

"All right, we gotta go. Let him rest" I heard someone's footsteps were getting away, and it was Mr. Chiroz. Except Abraham.

"Do you feel that, Lion?" Abraham asked still not moving from his position.

"What?"

"none. I think I feel something. Let's go" and they both go.

You made Abraham feel you?

"Yes, you're right."

Don't do that. Never mind, I want to sleep.

"I'm happy to be your friend, I'm happy to see you. That truth will never be revealed until you know it the way you find out. Because if I tell you, maybe you're doing something I don't want to see anymore."