Metanoia; The Hybrid
CHAPTER 19: SOMETHING THAT CAN'T BE FORCED.

Several days have passed since the appearance of my nature. We I studied well, took the classes I needed to practice weapons with Mr. Chiroz.

We have practiced using bows, swords, spears and many others. Of course, we did not use real weapons, we used a replica made of wood.

Careful we went through it together, and today at nightfall, at free time, me and the other clan children were gathered in the corner of the dorm room, some of them were still busy with their equipment. The objects themselves they get as additional tools from their respective teachers.

Several Wizard clans noticed their magic wands. It had a beautiful look, I could clearly see the unique carvings there. But the truth remains the same, they have not been able to use it. Several times they said complicated words as spells but nothing happened. Even so they could use gemstones to bring out their strength.

I also noticed the Mermaid clan with their shells. The shells are so beautiful. This is the second time I saw a clam, when I was very young when my father came to bring it. Back then the shells that Dad brought were smaller than theirs. Their shells were white like pearls, but when exposed to the reflection of light, with a very clear purple color and little beads were there. I don't know what it's worth, but every now and then they bring the clams closer to their ears, which instantly turn into Mermaid ears. Some of them smiled, others put on sad faces. What they listen to, is something I definitely can't hear.

The Angel clan had something different. It was made of glass, round like the moon, completely unbiased. The object was placed on an iron with four support legs that had beautiful carvings to keep it safe. I heard from their sentences, that thing is called the immortal crystal. They also said, one Angel could only have one immortal crystal. If it was more than that, the immortal crystal would not work to save the souls of the dead. They could use another immortal crystal when the immortal crystal they had was no longer functional. Castiel said that when it was full of the souls of the dead, the owner could bring something back to life.

The demon clan has an object that catches my attention too. They found a ring made of pearls. White is clean, anyone can see flickering there. At first I thought it was just a normal hand. But when they wear it, something happens. For some people, the ring can adjust. They can't be removed. The once beautiful white pearls turned pitch-black, like the darkness of night, as they transformed their hands into Demon hands. Looks like the ring has its own power that I don't know about either.

A small cloth pouch was the thing that the Fairy clan cared about the most. I wonder what it is. When they put their hands in it, the yellowish-white dust came out. They sprinkled the dust on themselves, and soon they disappeared. A few minutes later, they reappeared. I hear, it's sparkle dusk. Dust that can make the user disappear.

As for the Vampire clan, they have a degger like mine. Degger's different, not as long as mine. Surprisingly, why should they have seven similar deggers?

"How does it work?" I was intrigued when Andrea Nikolai the Vampire woke up from the bed with one of her deggers in hand.

"Lucky I asked Mr. Samuel this afternoon. The Vampire clan had a speed that was almost equivalent to the Lycanthrope clan. To help with that, the use of a degger will be very helpful. It doesn't take much energy, anyway. However, the use of a degger must have a tumble in order to function properly. The user should introduce a degger to a part of his body" Andrea said, taking all of his degger and placing it on the floor.

"And what are you going to do?" My toot.

Andrea took out a pair of scissors, then placed both hands just above her seventh degger. "I'll start my ritual. First I'll introduce my degger to my blood first" for just a second he injured his own palm with the scissors.

Not Andrea, or any of the other Vampires in this room, but I felt something. My eyes were fixed on the wound that was spitting out those fresh red blood. Dropped from the tip of his skin, then fell towards Andrea's degger-degger. It took me a few minutes until I realized my throat was heating up. Surprisingly, I know I'm not hungry. But, I'm thirsty.

"Ah, it seems like this. Then, if not wrong, these deggers must hit the moonlight, and after that must be cleaned in running water. Lastly I just have to say this ancient phrase, which means you are in my command. Go when there's hope, and come back when it's done.' Honestly, it sounded like a puzzle" Andrea put her notes back in front of her pants pocket, and left with her degger-degger.

I subconsciously suppressed my own thirst, by biting my lower lip tightly. I felt like I wanted to find the blood that I saw from Andrea's wounds, or from people who didn't want to be hurt. It's easy if I have to hurt them, it's just, I hold myself back.

Saga, what happened to me?

"Honestly, I don't know. Better not do anything here. Go to Chairoz's place and tell him this."

I felt dizzy, as if I wanted to fall asleep and something would wake me up.

"There's something you want to take away your expert body. I'll help you stay sober, hold your thirst, and go to Chairoz's place."

Without a word, I just got off the couch suddenly and walked out of the dorm. I only ignored those who asked: Where are you going?

The more I held back, the more I smelled an unbearable scent. It was the smell of Andrea's blood that came out first. Then I saw Andrea in the open hallway, facing the crescent moon in the sky. It seems like we are going to continue the ritual.

Andrea stopped me from having so many people still engaged, "Where are you going?"

The scent intensified as Andrea's injured hand touched my shoulder. I thought the wound would bleed like I expected, no, but something inside of me to hope for. I'm confused right now. Andrea's wounds have been cleaned, but the scent I can still smell very clearly.

I close my nose and my mouth, "I want to go to Mr.'s room. Chiroz." I just left Andrea with the others.

I ran, and finally reached Mr.'s office. Chiroz. When he entered, he was not alone, but with his Hunter colleagues who were drinking on the sofa, until they were all aware of my presence.

"How come, what's wrong with you?" Mr. Abraham put the bottles on the table. While Mr. Chairoz.

"Teacher..."

Shortly before I was unconscious, Mr. Samuel's coming. I closed my eyes and fell into the hands of Master Chairoz. But a second later I regained consciousness, but I could not move my body.

I wake up and balance myself. This free-moving me noticed every part of my own body, and then I suddenly said, "This is great!"

That must be Saga. He took over my body. He lied to me.

"Hey, believe me, I didn't lie to you. Something really wanted to take over your body, but I stopped it when you were unconscious. In order to secure you, I must temporarily take over your body. Lucky I was faster than him."

Not just Mr. Chairoz, but everyone in front of me was shocked. Except Mr. Samuel.

" Gara, you want to know something? Try to force yourself to move, as hard as you can. Then you'll see something that only you can do."

Just talk I can't. Especially to move.

"Try it, this is a trick that no one else can do. You'll thank me one day for telling you this."

I was just trying to move myself, until I suddenly fell to the ground. Then I woke up and saw myself in front of me. He was really me, with the same clothes, the same face, and the same body. It's just that, when I look at myself, I'm like an empty room that can't touch anything.

"You are only a form of your own soul. It's just a body with nothing. If I hadn't been here, you might have been declared dead by that Hunter Angel guy."

It's amazing, even if there's a bit of a terrible impression. But, the Angel clan could see one's soul. Why Mr. Michael doesn't realize I'm on the other side right now?

"Angel clan just can't see our souls, unless you intend to show yourself."

I was concerned for myself who was currently in front of me. He is Saga. Because of that golden yellow eye bead, it was only owned by him. And just below my eyes, Saga has a black line. Usually the line was used by royal women as jewelry. My mom uses it sometimes.

"I feel nostalgic for something. This kid, something's bothering him. That something can barely be controlled. More out of control than me. Samuel Benicio, it looks like you know the condition of this boy. It's lucky that I'm faster to take over her body than that" Saga said, putting her strength on her waist. Why does it feel like he knows everyone here?

"You, wolf Gara?" Ask Mr. Chiroz.

"It's very disrespectful. That's not what's important. Because it's in this condition."

"That's impossible. There are no humans here, so how is it possible?" Mumbled Mr. Samuel.

I don't understand at all, and what does that have to do with humans?

I noticed Saga, her confused face was readable, she was thinking about something. While others still do not understand.

"What do you mean?" Mr. Chairoz interrupted when Mr. Samuel went out of the room.

"The nature of the Vampire Gara began to appear."

That one sentence left me and everyone speechless. Mr. Samuel left and a second later he came back to get a bottle that was still closed and approached Saga. When he opened the bottle cap, a different scent seemed to fill my sense of smell.

The bottle contained blood, but it was much different from Andrea's. Stronger, and sharper. The scent made my body tremble, not strong enough to withstand the thirst I could now feel. Strange, when I am only a form of my own soul, but why can I feel it?

"Let Gara drink it, he'll be fine after that" said Mr. Samuel looked at Saga. The wolf glanced at me, looking at me with a worried look.

"That scent makes something in you even more uncontrollable. If you don't quickly take over your own body, he'll take it. Remember that well. I can only help you before that happens."

I walked, approaching Saga. Then I returned to my own body. At that time Mr. Samuel put the bottle in his hand to me. But before I could reach it, everything went dark. It felt like I fell on the ground.

This... I was unconscious.

Has it taken over my body at the moment?

"The wolf is really stubborn, I won't take over if you listen to me."

That's my voice. I turned around, and there I was. He was approaching me with the same two feet. Those eye beads had a color like blood. The eye bead was like an eye bead belonging to the Vampire clan.

"You-you"

"Gara, you're a hybrid" he pressed the last word.

"You're my Vampire side."

He grinned, then disappeared from before me. "In the end, you won't be able to fight yourself."

I was shocked as I turned around as the voice whispered to my ears. He can move places that easily. After all, this is my subconscious. Surely anyone can do anything at will.

"I can fight Saga, I can fight you too."

"Hahaha, you'll only get pain."

His words made me remember the day my Lycanthrope nature appeared.

"If you fight me, maybe you'll feel the same pain a second time."

"No man, it's just Andrea's blood, why did you show up?" My toot.

"You think you're an ordinary vampire? No, Gara. You're a Hybrid. Everything's different. You can live without humans."

"What do you mean?"

"You can drink anyone's blood."

Is that why, I reacted to Andrea's blood?

"I don't want that to happen here, I'll keep fighting if I have to drink someone other than a human" I said.

"Once you fight, maybe there won't only be one casualty for you. Think it out."

Damnit.

"Human, only human. Not on other clans, not on these people" I said looking for another way.

"I'm just telling you the fact that you keep pushing yourself not to drink blood other than human. There are no humans in this place. Maybe you can survive the human blood that was sold in those bottles. But, imagine if you were in a condition when you were thirsty and the bottles you had were not left at all. Isn't it for your sake that you should drink the blood of these clans?"

I blinked my eyes many times the three shadows came. I looked at myself up ahead. He's a cunning man, but he's not wrong either.

"Whenever you train yourself to resist that feeling, you won't be able to linger. You're just gonna ruin yourself."

He turned around, left me. "Where are you going?

"Letting you regain consciousness, you're thirsty, aren't you?"

Just like that until I couldn't see his back anymore, he was swallowed by the darkness. Suddenly I felt the same electric shock when Saga was in the woods. I'm sober. My initial vision was blurred, but slowly I could see Mr. Chairoz and the others are with me. It turned out that all this time I was unconscious in Mr.'s hands. Chiroz. I still can't listen to them very well. However, my focus began to work alongside my entire body when I saw the bottle Mr was holding. Samuel.

Unknowingly, I quickly woke up from Mr.'s hand. Chiroz. But when I was about to stand up, I fell because my legs felt like jelly, like I had no energy. My growing thirst did not stop my movement. I crawled over to Mr. Samuel took two steps, for he himself also approached me.

My throat was like it was burning with hot, flowing lava. Surprisingly I was still trying to restrain myself. Until my tears just came out. I can't stand my own thirst.

I took the bottle, and sat myself on the ground, holding the tip of the bottle to my lips. I drank this human blood, and then instantly the liquid made my throat normal. The heat just disappeared. Bizarrely. This liquid makes me calmer.

I felt quite satisfied, and almost spent a full bottle of it for myself. My gaze was just staring at the ground, while being aware of everything that was happening to me. Both of my traits have really appeared and are in me. The two sides are opposite, different, but they are right that...

"In the end, I won't be able to fight myself."