Not the Seeds That Should Be
Chapters 16. Munchies

Ruli also does not want to accept the hand of her son Sharmila, who came to shake hands as a small child's courtesy to the older one, when Sharmila came.

Ruli still can not accept the presence of Sharmila and her child who has grown into an adorable child.

Sharmila had come several times to apologize, but it was all in vain. Even Sharmila's hand was rejected when she came with her son to visit his mother-in-law's house.

Sharmila felt very sad and disappointed with Ruli's unchanging attitude. He kept trying to open Ruli's heart and improve their relationship, but all his efforts were always in vain. Sharmila felt she no longer knew how to change things.

"Ma. M-ila, Mila came to apologize and time to mom. Please listen to Mila, just for a second. Yeah, ma."

Sharmila was delighted that Ruli finally nodded her head in agreement. Sharmila thought if Ruli started to open her heart to hear it. He explained in detail about the events that happened and his true feelings.

"Ma. Mila knew Mila was wrong for not telling the truth in the first place. Mila feels so guilty, ma."

But it turns out that Ruli still does not accept any reason given by Sharmila.

"You better go, Mila. It's better for you, Rian and your son."

Getting continuous pressure from Ruli, making Sharmila depressed and no longer strong enough to refrain from staying at Rian's house. Eventually he left home and left, but did not go home to his parents.

Sharmila felt very depressed about the situation she was facing. She felt disappointed and sad that she could not maintain her household with Rian, and felt too tired to continue fighting for the blessing of her mother-in-law. However, he also did not want to return to his parents' house because he felt ashamed and disappointed in himself.

"I'm sorry, Rian. I was not strong anymore with the pressure from my mother and guilty tone," Sharmila said in tears, leaving the house.

Now, Sharmila felt very confused and did not know what to do. He was saddened and continued to reflect on his decision to leave Rian's house. He looked towards the window, looking at the heavy rain.

"Well, why is this? What's wrong with me? What's wrong with my decision?"

"I love Rian, but why do I feel like things are getting harder?" Sharmila spoke to herself while crying slowly.

"But I can't let Mama Ruli ruin my life just like that. I need to find a way out of this situation. But how is it going?"

Sharmila continued to think about what she could do to change this increasingly difficult situation.

"I can't let my son grow up in an unhappy environment. I have to find the best way out for my son and also for myself."

Sharmila wiped her tears and decided to make up her mind coldly.

"I'll try to talk to Rian again, I'll try to apologize and ask him to understand the situation I'm in. I know it's not easy, but I have to try."

"But it seems like it's hard."

Now he found a dead end and could not make the right decision

Eventually Sharmila decides to leave Rian's house, her heart turbulent and filled with uncertainty. On one hand, he felt relieved that he no longer had to feel the pressure and rejection from Ruli. But on the other hand, he also felt sad and anxious about having to leave Rian.

Sharmila felt sad because she knew that she loved Rian very much. Although she initially uses the wrong way, but as time passes, her feelings for Rian grow stronger and more sincere. She is very Rian, and wants them to see her son grow up together with Rian.

However, at the same time, Sharmila felt anxious and scared about her future without Rian. He knew that he could not live comfortably if he had to part with Rian. However, he also found it difficult to return to his parents' home because he was embarrassed by his current state.

In this situation, Sharmila often talked to herself in search of strength and calm. He reminded himself that despite his current difficult circumstances, he must remain strong and strive to find a way out of his problems.

"I must be strong, I must be strong" Sharmila murmured to herself.

"I have to find a way to fix this. I know I'm wrong, but I love her and I can't live without her. I have to find a way to make everything okay."

Sharmila feels that she has to mend her relationship with Ruli and tries to get the blessing of the Rian family. However, he knew that this would not be easy and might take a while.

In these situations, Sharmila often prayed and sought guidance from God. He believes that with his help, he can find a way out of his problems and finally be able to live happily with Rian and their child.

Sharmila felt hollow and lost her way after leaving Rian's house. He did not know where to go and what to do, let alone bring his son.

After walking several hundred meters, Sharmila stopped by the road and sat on a sidewalk. He felt how tired his body and mind were filled with anxiety and uncertainty.

Around it, vehicles passed by and the sound of horns constantly ringing made it even more uncomfortable. Sharmila felt alienated from the outside world and focused only on her own thoughts. He kept thinking about the decision he had taken and felt like he had no idea what was going to happen next.

Sharmila then looked around and saw the crowded shops along the street. He thought about going inside a shop and tried to forget all his problems for a moment. Sharmila chose a clothing store and walked in, looked at different types of clothes and tried to forget all her worries. However, when she looked at the children's clothes, she could not hold back her tears and had a panic attack while tightly clutching her sleeping child.

"Darling, hiks hyks..."

"I'm sorry, mama."

Sharmila felt lost and did not know what else to do. She thought about her son who was with her and felt she did not know how to give a good life to him without Rian. She looked at the clothes in the store and felt sad when she saw the clothes she thought could never be bought for her son.

After some time, Sharmila walked out of the store and decided to continue on. She felt she did not know where to go and where to go to find a safe place for herself and her child.

Sharmila just walked in an uncertain direction, looking for answers to her life full of uncertainty.