Not the Seeds That Should Be
Chapters 19. Realizing Mistakes
"Mila's... Mila..."
"Bagcases... Mila..."
Ruli felt unsettled to see her son constantly delirious at night. The name Sharmila and her son are always spoken in her dreams, making her feel guilty and feel responsible for her son's pain.
Rian did not recover from his illness, despite having undergone treatment and taking drugs. His health deteriorated, especially at night. Rian was delirious and in pain, making his mother Rian even more anxious and guilty.
Like tonight, Ruli can't sleep. He sat by Rian's bed, looking at his sleeping son. He felt very guilty for treating Sharmila and her family harshly.
Ruli took a deep breath and tried to correct all the mistakes she had made. He realized that his son's sick state was due to the guilt and burden he had been carrying all this time.
After going through various events that made her heart shake, Ruli finally realized how much influence she had in her son's life. He felt guilty because all this time he forced his will and ignored the feelings of his son who wanted Sharmila to remain his wife.
Hearing Rian who continues to delirious and always calls Sharmila's name when sick, makes Ruli feel devastated. He felt that he had to take responsibility for his son's grief and correct the mistake he had made.
"Mommy's sorry, Rian. Mama's been too selfish and forced to do so."
"Mama will no longer interfere in your life and impose your will. I just want you to be as happy and healthy as you used to be. Hiks hyks..."
"Mama will also try to understand your feelings and not force you to do what you do not want" said Ruli with determination.
Hearing these words made Rian feel relieved and grateful. She felt that her mother had changed and accepted her marriage to Sharmila. He hopes that the happiness and harmony of the family can be maintained.
"Ma, thank you ma."
The next day, Ruli contacted Sharmila's family and apologized for any treatment she had taken. He also asks them to visit Rian and begs Sharmila and her son to forgive him.
"Please come and look at Rian in the hospital. She's been in the hospital since yesterday, and please take Sharmila with her child."
Sharmila's family initially did not want to visit Rian because they were still offended and upset by Ruli's treatment.
However, after talking to Sharmila, they finally agreed to visit Rian at the hospital.
As it turns out, Sharmila returns home to her parents after careful thought and she is unlikely to let her son suffer.
When they reached the hospital, Ruli greeted them with great respect and apologized back.
"I'm sorry for all the selfishness of the afternoon I have." Ruli apologizes to her besi, and also to Sharmila.
After they sit in Rian's room, Ruli explains her mistakes and apologizes to Sharmila's family. He felt very sorry for everything that had happened and promised to change for the better.
"Mama feels very guilty, my son. It's all my fault. Mama was too stubborn and selfish, and now my son is suffering because of my mistake. I can't stop thinking about the mistakes I made with my son and Sharmila. I wish I could change everything, but I know I can't. I'm so sorry."
That was what Ruli said as she realized her mistake and felt guilty for Rian's pain. He felt that all this was due to his stubborn and selfish mistakes. He feels that he has made Rian suffer for his deeds, and that he must take responsibility for those mistakes.
Sharmila's family eventually forgives Rian's mother and declares that they also do not want to make things worse for Rian who is ill. They promise to forgive each other and start over with new circumstances.
Rian himself also felt relieved after hearing all these conversations. She is moved by the attitude of the Sharmila family who forgave her mother Rian. He thanked Sharmila's family and her mother for correcting her mistake.
After realizing his mistake, Ruli begins to try to change. He tries to approach Rian in a better way and tries to repair his relationship with Sharmila and her son.
As long as Rian was still sick, his mother continued to accompany him with Sharmila affectionately. He makes sure that Rian gets the best care and strives to make him feel comfortable during the recovery period.
Ruli also strives to establish a good relationship with the Sharmila family and make them feel welcome and appreciated.
"Mama will try to correct the mistakes that you have made and will introduce Sharmila and her child to our family. Mama also hopes that you can accept them sincerely and give them a good place in your heart" said Ruli with a smile.
Rian was pleased and relieved to hear the words. She felt that her mother had opened her heart and accepted the whereabouts of Sharmila and her son. He hopes that family happiness can be maintained and they can live harmoniously and peacefully as before.
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A week later, Ruli held a family meeting at her home. All of Rian's family attended including Sharmila and her son. The meeting was filled with warmth and familiarity.
Ruli introduces Sharmila and her son sincerely and openly to all her siblings.
"For everyone, this is Sharmila and her son. They are part of our family and their marriage is a joy to all of us. I hope you can accept them sincerely and give them a good place in our hearts" Ruli said warmly.
Hearing those words made everyone feel happy and relieved. All of Rian's family accepted the presence of Sharmila and her son sincerely and openly.
As Rian begins to heal, Ruli continues to help in the recovery process and ensures that Rian gets the best treatment. He keeps trying to repair his relationship with Sharmila and his son, and tries to correct the mistakes he has made before. She feels very grateful that her son is getting healthier, and hopes to improve his relationship with Sharmila and his son in the future.
Ruli admits her mistakes and tries to mend relationships with people she has hurt. He feels guilty for his mistakes and tries to take responsibility for his actions.
"I hope everything is okay, and there's no problem going forward."
Although this process takes time and effort, Ruli is confident that she will eventually be able to repair her relationship with everyone close to her, including Sharmila and her son, Bagas.