Nyctophile
Old Friend

Thank you God for all your Grace and power, all your blessings and bounties, whatever you give whether it is dark or light, I enjoy all that you give, I love your darkness so much, because there I get calm, in your darkness, I can translate this longing, in your darkness, I can spill everything that narrows my heart, I can, in your darkness these tears are no longer a secret, thank you Lord for your gift of bringing darkness among the light I have most avoided.

Zayana Muzza, they call me by the name of Zaya, sometimes someone calls me Za, I'm a person who does not like many, but sometimes lonely, people, I am a person who does not like to debate but sometimes I have to argue with myself, I am a 24-year-old woman, I work as a model of Muslim clothing, not just the world of modeling, she said, I'm also a writer of romance poems, maybe one of you has heard one of the dime poems I've done.

"Hello... Za how are you? long time no see, you're getting thinner?" He is Ruhita, an old friend in college, Ruhita and I have always been rivals in all fields, but unfortunately I have never been superior to him.

a sweet smile I showed it to her.

"Hi, hello Assalamualaikum, I'm good as you see Ruhi, how are you?" greet me.

"I'm good Za, oh yeah, I came to send you a wedding invitation."

"you want to get married? Thank God, I have finally received good news from you."

"Who do you mean Za? you don't know my candidate."

"Zafran?"

"Sorry Za, but I'm not married to Zafran." disappointed face appeared on his face, if he had come to bring a smile now everything changed, tears welled up, I grabbed him and he was sobbing.

"Za, I'm sorry I always wanted to be superior to you, but in Zafran's heart you're still number one."

"you mean Ruhi?"

the love of the strange past with a million selfish that erodes the logic in the self, women's feelings are always so, women will be selfish about their feelings, always follow the flow of taste that will later plunge.

"Zafran, our romance in those days was just Za's camouflage, she didn't agree or refuse, because she was trying to establish herself for you Za, she said, All this time Zafran made me his girlfriend accept me to be his girlfriend just because he wants to know if you're jealous and you'll get upset."

again and again I smiled, not mocking, but that was the past, I wanted to be superior to the Ruhita, to be superior, to be upset when Ruhita was always number one, but when I found out that Zafran was dating Ruhita, everything was out of control, from that day on I loved my new figure, the dimwits, the dark people, and the untouchables of others.

My world is a world of privacy and no one knows who I am.

"Thank you Ruhi for saying it all, now be happy with what you choose, God willing to be the best path of the creator, now remove your tears, I'm sorry I have to leave you in a minute my work will start."

"Okay Za, here's my new phone number, I'm also saying goodbye, try to come I expect that."

I smile and return to my activities, may this be the first step towards your light.